Aloha! All your reviews made my heart swell! Thanks a lot! You're the reason I write this fic! I would like to dedicate this to Kawaii Selene. By the way just so you know the scene where Sakura was pouring her feelings in front of the Li house, Kawaii Selene wrote that. It was her idea I did change some things because there were things that didn't happen or I didn't allow them to happen yet. I just want to give her credit for it. Thanks Kawaii Selene!
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Title: Remember me?
Author: sapphire-Lady-of-the-night
Chapter14: Answers
Sakura leaned against the door as soon as she closed it and heaved a sigh.
"Are you alright Sakura?" Eriol asked staring at the slightly trembling but extremely blushing Sakura.
"N-no" Sakura answered. "But I will be" She added hastily.
"What will you do now? Kari is no longer his girlfriend." Eriol eyed her grimly.
"Nothing" Sakura answered walking towards the stairs. "I'll go to sleep now. Good night."
"Night"
But Sakura barely heard it as she climb the stairs. Once she was in her room she sank on her bed.
"Yeah you do something to me… Sakura"
Sakura touched her lips, remembering the kiss she and Syaoran shared.
The way he had nibbled her lips…
The way his arm wound around her waist…
When he called her by her name…
The way his eyes shone…
No I don't want to go through this again! I've risked the fall. I've risked the jump and plunged ahead. The fall was an ecstasy but once you hit hard on the cold hard surface reality engulfs you.
She'd been broken and tried to stand up again and was foolish enough to jump for the second time and ended up worse. No more! She won't jump for the third time. It will surely kill her this time. No more… starting tomorrow everything will change.
She stood up and took a deep breath. Her gaze went to the albums containing pictures of Syaoran and her. She gathered them all and placed them in a box. She'll have to throw them tomorrow.
She went back to her bed. She caught sight of the picture frame containing another picture of Syaoran and her. She slammed it down so now it was lying face down on the bed side table.
No more…
"Ohayo Tomoyo!" Sakura greeted cheerfully… too cheerfully. They were walking in the school corridors.
"Ohayo Sakura" Tomoyo smiled. "Woke up on the right side of bed, did we?"
"Not really" Sakura answered. "I just decided to finally let go and move on."
"Oh…" Tomoyo said with a tinge of sadness.
"So what did you talk about with Eriol the other day?" Sakura asked changing the subject.
"Well… umm… " Tomoyo faltered blushing. "… I'm already his girlfriend."
"What?" Sakura stopped on her tracks. She didn't know if she'll be happy or not.
"I've already overcome my fear" Tomoyo continued. "And I've finally been honest to myself."
"Good" Was what Sakura could only say. "Uh listen Tomoyo, I gotta go ahead ok?" Sakura said hastily.
"Ok" Tomoyo answered. She watched sadly as Sakura speed up her pace.
She was jealous… yes jealous of her best friend. Tomoyo was happily falling in love with a man who loves her in return. May they be lucky in their love… unlike what happened to her.
Her vision started to blur again. Oh no! I'm not going to cry. No! She frantically rubbed her eyes to prevent the tears from flowing. She rounded another corridor and saw Syaoran talking with Meilin. Sakura stopped dead. Her heart thumped wildly on her chest. She looked at her watch. If she wasn't going to move she'll be late on her first class.
She took a deep breath and walked as calmly as she can. She averted her head so that she can't see him or that he can't see her face. She was nearing them. Her heart was threatening to make a hole on her chest. She walked faster and hoped that they won't notice her.
A hand grabbed hers. No such luck. Sakura took a deep breath and turned around. Instead of amber eyes she met grey ones.
"Hey Kinomoto!" The guy grinned.
Sakura was so relieved that it wasn't Syaoran she smiled back at him.
"Do I know you?" Sakura asked awkwardly.
"We're classmates" He said.
"Oh… well if that's the case shouldn't we be going?" Sakura said looking at her watch.
"Yeah" He answered still not letting go of her hand.
"Err… Could you please let go of my hand?" Sakura said.
"I like holding your hand." He answered.
"And I would like to break yours if you won't let go." A threatening voice said behind them.
Sakura didn't have to turn to see who it was. She took a deep breath.
"What's your problem?" The guy glared at Syaoran.
"Look if you don't mind I'm going to be late so drop it!" Sakura snapped and snatched her hand from the guy. She took quick long strides and finally reached the safe confines of her classroom. Here Syaoran couldn't reach her…
"She's angry with me" Syaoran muttered to his cousin. "And I don't even know what I did wrong!"
Meilin bit her lip. "Umm… where have you been last night anyway?" She asked avoiding the subject.
"I went to her house and tried to talk to her." Syaoran answered.
Meilin's eyes widened. "What did you talk about?"
"Nothing…" Syaoran frowned.
"What do you mean nothing?" Meilin frowned as well.
"I kissed her instead." Syaoran answered.
"You what!" Meilin's eyes if possible widened even more.
"I kissed—"
"I heard you" Meilin cut him off. "What did she say?" She asked anxiously.
"She bid me good night and said or rather snapped that she hoped I enjoyed myself." Syaoran answered mournfully.
"She is angry." Meilin nodded.
"Why is she angry Meilin?" Syaoran asked.
Meilin stared at him incredulously. "You can't just kiss anybody Syaoran! For your information there are girls who do mind if you kiss them however handsome you are!"
"I know that!" Syaoran snapped. "I just know there's a deeper reason than that."
Meilin bit her lower lip. "Maybe all your questions will be answered today." she mumbled.
"What do you mean?" Syaoran asked.
"Well your mother is going to arrive, today right?" Meilin said.
"Yeah so? She's only coming here because you told her about the accident." Syaoran said.
"Well I have to tell her!" Meilin said indignantly.
"And why is that? I'm perfectly fine!" Syaoran frowned. Apparently he disliked the idea of his mother coming to Japan.
"Whether you're fine or not your head still hit that rock" Meilin frowned. "She's worried Syaoran" She said softly. "You don't know how worried she is."
"Yes because apparently I don't know anything and all of you just seem to know the things that I don't!" Syaoran said hotly.
Meilin didn't answer. She just kept silent. There was nothing she could say. Syaoran to her relief didn't bother to make her talk. They arrive in the room where they'll have their first class.
As usual all girls turned their heads when Syaoran arrived and as usual Syaoran completely ignored them. Syaoran sat at the back of the room. Meilin sat beside him.
She could see he wasn't even listening to the teacher. His mind seemed far away. Meilin sighed heavily. Why does it have to be this way? Why does he have to forget Sakura? And worse why did he have to fall in love with Kari? Does he still love Kari? If he kissed Sakura last night does that mean he's already over Kari? That fast? Or maybe he never loved her, maybe just maybe he doesn't know it and we don't know it but Sakura still holds his heart. I just hope that's the case…
Syaoran sighed impatiently. He was restless. He sighed once again. He just can't be in peace. Finally without any word he stood up and strode out of the classroom in the middle of his ongoing first class.
Meilin stared at his back. There was nothing she can do for him. Or rather there wasn't anything she can do to appease him that she was allowed to do. She hated herself for not telling Syaoran. She hated it, she hated the whole situation!
Syaoran just walked and walked with no destination. He just allowed his legs to lead the way. He was lost in thought. He was bewildered by Kinomoto's unusual behavior. There was always warmth in her but now it turned icy cold. It was like summer had been replaced by winter in her. He tried to remember everything about her.
Starting from when he met her on the plane. She had stared at him. Then she sat beside him with the saddest look in her eyes. He never thought they'd end up being neighbors. She must have been heart broken then. She asked him a particular question.
"Do you believe love can conquer all that even forgetting won't erase it?"
Do I? He asked himself. Then he remembered about their conversation on the porch the day Kari broke up with him. He smiled ruefully. For some reasons when he saw her there he just felt a pulling force like a magnet. He talked his pain to her because he knew she understood the pain he felt. He can see it in her eyes every time he looked at her.
When he asked about it she told him that the boy forgot her. He sighed once again. Even when they were still in the plane he had felt something towards her. Then there was that incident in the cherry blossom circle. He and Kari were having a date then when she suddenly arrived crying. She was shocked to see them and so was he. Then there was the ride home he couldn't just forget how he wanted to kiss her good night then when they arrived and how he felt jealous when he saw the black Mercedes of her boarder.
He stopped dead on his tracks. His feet brought him in the cherry blossom circle itself. He still can remember those emerald eyes that flashed along with the word Aisheteru. Those eyes were so familiar. Where had he seen them?
There were so many mysterious things linked to this place. Just like his dream he had, the day he tried to save Sakura and hit his head on a stone. He had a dream of a couple standing here and they declared their love for each other. The girl had auburn hair and the boy had messy brown hair but before he could get near them or recognize them they faded.
He sat down on the ground and leaned against a tree. That day when he hit his head on a rock… he didn't know what made him run towards his neighbor. He had also heard children's voices then. A boy said he would protect the girl. The girl was really happy.
He closed his eyes. After that day Kinomoto started to act weird as if… she was mad at him but was keeping it down. Her warmth turned to icy cold.
"Why?" He asked aloud.
Silence answered him. He looked up and like his emotions the sky turned cloudy. The wind grew cold. No sooner he felt droplets of rain on his face. He stood up and started running home. He didn't feel like going back to school.
She just couldn't stay at school for another second that's why Tomoyo is driving her now towards her home. It was starting to rain. Tomoyo pushed a button so that they won't be wet, for her car was a convertible.
Finally they arrived in front of her house. By now it was raining cats and dogs. Sakura got instantly soaked to the skin the minute she got out. She was just about to run towards her house when something or rather someone stopped her dead. There on the porch of the Li house stood the woman that caused her misery.
Yelan.
Syaoran was nearing the Li house. He was soaked to the skin now. He ran faster but stopped short at the sight of everyone at the house; with his mother and Sakura in the rain. From where he was standing he could hear everything.
The rain was pouring angrily at Sakura, mud covering her clothes as she remained still on the ground her eyes red from crying but not because of sadness but because of anger. Yelan's posture remained calm but her eyes betrayed her facade because she could feel Sakura's anguish, she felt her hatred.
"You..You're the reason why I'm suffering like this. You told me that he would suffer if I told him! But now I'm suffering! I've been suffering for so many years while he was happy with someone else! You made me think that I was going to be selfish if I pushed him to remember, but you know what? It's you who's selfish! All of you!
"Syaoran...he..he can't even remember me anymore! And- and it's just unfair because I can! I can't forget him! And I couldn't stop loving him...but now...now " Sakura choked on her tears not bothering to continue what she had said.
"Sakura, please...forgive me...I didn't mean for you to suffer this much I was just so worried about Syaoran!" Yelan cried as she approached Sakura to embrace her. Sakura only backed away from her touch.
"You should be sorry! And I suffered much more than you think! I was worried about Syaoran too, but apparently no one's worried about me! I mean I guess you're right Yelan if Syaoran loved me he wouldn't have forgotten about me! I just wanted to tell you... that from now on I won't be crying over him. Because I don't love him anymore! He completely forgot about me and I will forget him!"
"Sakura don't say that! I didn't mean for that! I thought that maybe if he saw you he'll remember you!"
"You thought wrong! You all thought wrong! Maybe if I told him back then I'll still be with him. That I'll be the one who'll be in his arms right now! Maybe that was what fate really had for us...but you just changed it Yelan." she spat bitterly. "And now..."
Tomoyo could only watch as her best friend finally poured out her emotions. Somehow she knew that this...this was right. Sakura had suffered too much and it's just right to let them know.
"Don't say it Sakura!" Yelan cried as she embraced Sakura in her arms, though she tried to get away from her grasp. "You love him, don't let him go! You're right and I was wrong and I didn't mean for you to suffer this much! Sakura I'll tell him, I'll tell him!"
"Don't bother" Sakura replied stoically as she finally stopped her outpour, and now she just felt empty and somehow she liked it because there was no more pain. "I don't love him...anymore." And with those words she was taken into the dark abyss.
Syaoran stood there stunned. He couldn't believe what he just witnessed. So that was the secret. So that was what Meilin meant this morning.
"Maybe all your questions will be answered today."
Then he remembered the conversation he and Sakura had on her porch. He heard it like he was listening in front of them.
"No… he forgot about me. He had an accident and that was the end of it."
"And you didn't do something about it?"
"Put it this way… what will you think if I tell you, you are that boy?"
" What?"
"See you won't believe and think I'm kyoki no"
"But I'm sure you have evidence like pictures or something."
"His mother forbade me."
His mother forbade me…
Everything makes sense now! He forgot her when he had the accident three years ago but she wasn't able to tell him because of his mother… That's why Meilin avoided the subject and that's why… Kari broke up with him… That's why... Kinomoto was angry…
A.N. There you have it! Sakura was angry! But I wasn't the one who made that part though it was Kawaii Selene. But I omitted some parts and added a word or two to suit my purpose! I just couldn't write it better so I just place it in my chapter the way she wrote it with minor changes. Hehehe... (Cackle cackle!) I would've made this chapter long and end the story in chapter 15 but I just couldn't resist the urge to tease you all. Don't worry I'm going to update soon I promise! So don't be mad! Wakekeke… Review please… or else…