Geez! You don't feel it ending? Hmm… I think I can lengthen it a bit, one chapter more or two. I'm really sorry guys! Man this chapter is difficult so I'm really sorry for not updating soon plus my older brother keeps on reading this and I just have to stop typing to cover the screen. I have to shout myself hoarse too just to make him go away. It really feels creepy to be quoted by your own lines and there's the teasing! I wish I could nail his mouth shut! Oh and I missed to mention I used the song 'The truth' by Good Charlotte in the previous chapter.
Title: Remember me?
Author: sapphire-Lady-of-the-Night
Chapter 16:
He closed his eyes as he closed the door of Sakura's room. He sighed heavily leaning on the door. His chest felt heavy.
Slowly he opened his eyes and made his way out of the house. When he arrived downstairs Eriol and Tomoyo looked up at him expectantly but he ignored them and directly went outside the door. He was just starting to walk towards his home when he suddenly stopped short.
He didn't want to go home yet. His mother was still there and somehow he just didn't want to be in her presence. In fact the only reason he didn't immediately went to Sakura's house was because he had to change first. He was soaking wet and if he didn't change he'd end up having a fever just like Sakura.
His feet changed direction and to his surprise his legs was leading him towards cherry blossom circle again. This place must really be special. He thought to himself.
When he finally arrived at the clearing he just stood there staring at the place where he saw his younger self and younger Sakura telling each other their love for one another.
How could he have been that stupid? Why didn't he recognize his dream for what it was and why couldn't he remember a damn thing!
But you said yourself you don't have to remember.
Syaoran let out a rueful smile. Yes he didn't have to remember because he had fallen in love with Sakura all over again without remembering.
Now he knew it wasn't just attraction… he was in love… with her all this time.
"Do you believe love can conquer all that even forgetting won't erase it?"
Yes Sakura I believe…
He just stood there until it became dark. The sun set already but it will be back tomorrow and shine in all its glory. To him Sakura was his sun… but will she come back to him like the sun does to the sky?
Yes he had loved Kari… she was his moon…
But like the moon… it wanes… waxing was already over and now it wanes… fading into darkness…
While the sun… is constant… giving light even while it rests… and even now while Sakura pulls away… her light remains…
He had loved Sakura more… he had no doubt in it… This is the one thing the he was completely sure of…
He finally arrived at his home. His mother was sitting on the sofa with just a tiny frown marring her face.
They stared at each other. Finally Yelan broke the silence.
"Where have you been?" She asked. He could hear a strain of worry in her voice.
"Just had a walk." Syaoran answered coolly.
Yelan surveyed him with sad eyes.
Syaoran walked towards the stairs. "I'll rest now, if you don't mind." He said. He was still angry at his mother for keeping his past from him.
"I'm sorry Syaoran." His mother whispered but he heard it for the room was so quiet. Meilin wasn't in the living room. She must be upstairs for she was bound to be home by this time.
He just nodded and proceeded to climb the stairs. Sure enough as he suspected his cousin was standing right outside his room. Her eyes were red from crying.
"Aunty told me what happened." Her voice was hoarse.
Syaoran only eyed her with grim eyes.
"What a terrible way to find out Syaoran." She said and a tear sled down her cheek.
"I would have been saved from the heart ache and you from your tears, and mother from her apologies had you told me earlier." Syaoran muttered. "We would have been saved from this awkward situation hadn't all of you decided to keep this from me."
Meilin closed her eyes, more tears sled down her cheeks. "There was nothing I could do Syaoran. I could not very well defy your mother." She whispered.
"Well it's over and done now. We can no longer undo things, the mistakes that happened." Syaoran said wiping Meilin's tears with his handkerchief catching Meilin completely off guard.
Her eyes flew open and saw Syaoran's grim smile.
"What are you going to do now Syao?" She asked.
Syaoran looked down sighing heavily. "I don't know Meilin. I've caused her so much heartache already." He said.
"Do you remember her already?" Meilin asked.
Silence answered Meilin's question.
Meilin gave him that sad look he was getting accustomed to.
"I must rest now Meilin, I don't feel so well." Syaoran said.
Meilin nodded and stepped out of the way. But before he could get inside his room Meilin's words stopped him.
"Syaoran… years ago… I let you go… it was so painful to me… you probably don't know what I'm talking about because you don't remember…" Syaoran turned to see fresh tears on Meilin's face.
"It was very painful but I had to let you go… because you love somebody else… you were deeply in love with Sakura…" Meilin sniffled.
"I-I-I don't want you to feel that pain… don't you dare let her go… because there's no one she loves...but you" And with that Meilin ran towards her room and locked herself within.
Syaoran closed his eyes and inhaled sharply. How many will be hurt because of him?
Don't you dare let her go…
No I won't Meilin… no I won't…
Meanwhile in the neighboring house a certain Sakura just woke up. She sat up for a while then everything came flooding back to her, her outburst and Syaoran's visit. She frowned a little and bit her lip.
'Everything is over now.' She thought.
She got up gingerly. Her head still ached a little but it wasn't that bad any longer.
She found Tomoyo and Eriol huddled together on the couch. They were talking in low voices.
"Hey" Sakura grinned at them.
Both of them almost jumped. Tomoyo turned bright red while Eriol frowned concerned.
"You ought to be resting." He said.
"I'd be worse if I just stayed there." Sakura retorted sitting right next to them.
"He… came here a while ago." Tomoyo said tentatively, her voice was uneven due to the fact that Eriol had wounded his arm around her waist.
"I know." Sakura answered.
"Did he wake you up? I told him not to." Eriol frowned.
"No he didn't. I woke up on my own." Sakura answered. "I woke up and there he was sitting in front of me." Her voice had turned dreamy it was as if she was only talking to herself.
"His eyes were closed when mine opened." Sakura's eyes were gleaming.
"I thought I was still dreaming. But his face was set into a frown of confusion. He never had that expression in my dreams." Sakura frowned.
"For in my dreams… in my dreams…" Sakura's voice shook. "There's no more confusion and he recognizes me. In my dreams… I'm his Cherry Blossom again!" Sakura's voice was hoarse as if she was going to cry.
But she furiously blinked the tears away. She wasn't going to cry for him anymore. "He still didn't remember! " Her expression had turned angry. "But that's ok because I will forget him… I will forget him!" She said determinedly.
Tomoyo wanted to say something but Eriol stopped her squeezing her hand. Tomoyo squeezed back and sighed heavily. Her friend was making the wrong decision. Her anger has blinded her.
A few weeks ago she would have been all for this, for Sakura to let Li Syaoran go. But she had seen the man's expression when he went out of the house. His expression was a mix of pain and… regret and his eyes… his eyes held an unmistakable gleam of love. She knew that Sakura and Syaoran could work this out. She knew very well that forgetting Li Syaoran is not what Sakura really wanted.
"When he finally opened his eyes he had the saddest look a pair of eyes could ever have." Sakura continued. Her hand had clenched her shirt.
"His amber eyes stared into mine." Sakura closed her eyes picturing Syaoran's eyes in her mind. "I could loose myself there… but I didn't." Sakura's voice dropped into a whisper. "I didn't dare make a fool of myself again. So I gave him the hostility I should have given him from the very beginning." Her hand clenched tighter on her shirt. "I should just have forgotten him when Meilin made that phone call three years ago." Her eyes slowly opened.
"Don't say that Sakura" Tomoyo said. "If you'd given him the hostility and if you'd forgotten him… then you'd be a hypocrite for denying your true feelings. But Sakura you've been plain honest with yourself and there's nothing you should regret about what you did."
"All's done now… and I need to move on." Sakura whispered.
Tomoyo and Eriol could only look at her.
"Things will never be the same… that's just the way it is…"
The following morning Sakura found a bouquet of white roses in her locker. She had insisted that she was well enough to go to school. Sakura just stared at it then she slammed her locker shut walking away without getting the books she needed.
She proceeded to her first class and sat there without really paying attention. She forced herself not to think of him but his solemn face was imprinted in her mind.
All day long every time the bell rings her heart quickens. She dreaded meeting Syaoran in the corridors.
Finally her last class ended and so far she managed to avoid him. She was facing her locker now. She took a deep breath before opening her locker. Once again her eyes glued on the bouquet. She closed her eyes. She was afraid to pick it up.
What's with a bouquet of roses? It's probably one of your admirers. It's not as if it's from him!
Slowly she picked up the bouquet and almost fearfully checked for a note. There was one. With trembling hands she picket it out and read it.
The warmest smile
The most beautiful eyes
The purest soul
And the biggest heart
They all belong to you
I wish you could belong to me too...
Li
The hand holding the note turned limp. Her hand fell to her side. Her heart hammered against her chest. She bit her lip to keep from crying out. Absentmindedly she slowly placed the note in her pocket. Her nose started to sting and her visions blurred.
What happened to 'from now on I won't be crying over him?' A small voice taunted her.
I wont! I'm not! I'm not crying there's just a sting in my eyes. Sakura denied. She closed her locker angrily.
She almost jumped when someone tapped her shoulder. She was so distracted that it did not occur to her that it might be Syaoran until she was facing him.
Sakura's eyes widened. Panic rose and her mind turned blank. Her breathing quickened and her knees grew weak.
"Hi" Syoaran smiled.
Sakura only stared at him unable to speak .She was growing red under his intense gaze.
Stop gawking at him! You're supposed to be angry! Sakura scolded herself.
Sakura closed her eyes praying that when she opened them again he'll be gone. But to her horror she felt him move nearer. She backed away but only found out that she was already leaning against her locker. Her eyes flew open. His face was so close to hers. She turned away but found his arm blocking her way.
She faced Syaoran determindly. She'll not cower meekly while he have his way on her. What was she talking or should that be thinking about? She was acting like a paranoid. How could that solemn face do something disrespectful to her. He doesn't even have a cocky smile on his face!
"Sakura please…" Syaoran pleaded.
"Please what?" Sakura was satisfied that her voice didn't shake.
"Please don't be angry with me." He looked deep into her eyes.
Sakura couldn't have looked away even if she had wanted to. Her heart hammered against her chest.
"Why are you doing this Syaoran?" Sakura said angrily. "Why do you waste your time on me? Can't you see I don't want anything to do with you?" Sakura forced all the words out of her throat.
If possible Syaoran's face grew even more solemn. He bowed down so Sakura couldn't see his face. He took a deep breath and looked up again. His face was calm but Sakura could see right through. She could see the deep hurt in his eyes.
"I don't waste my time with you Sakura. My time will never be wasted when I am with you." He said his voice low. "And no I don't see… I don't want to see that you don't want anything to do with me."
"Shut up!" Sakura whispered. Her hands rose to cover her ears dropping the bouquet. "Shut up! I don't want to hear anything!" She shook her head closing her eyes tight.
She felt Syaoran slowly pull away. But still she didn't open her eyes nor drop her hands. She can still feel his presence before her. Suddenly she felt Syaoran's hand on her chin. Sakura's flew open. God! He was going to kiss her and damn her heart for anticipating it.
His lips stopped just before hers. His eyes looked deep into hers as if to ask permission. Sakura was too paralyzed to even make a single move. Slowly and softly Syaoran's lips made contact with hers.
"If you don't want to hear how I want you back then feel it." He whispered in her lips and with that he deepened the kiss.
Curse her hands for having life of their own. Curse them for rising to his shoulder. Curse her body for growing limp against him and curse her for responding on his kiss. All her thoughts flew away. She was living only at the present. No thoughts about what would happen after nor what happened before. She threw all care away and kissed him back for all she was worth.
Finally the kiss ended and so did the spell. Sakura gasped as realization hit her. She just allowed Syaoran to kiss her and kissed him back in return.
"Now did you feel it?" Syaoran said. "Did you feel how I want you back?"
Sakura swallowed her response and bolted away from Syaoran. She had to get away from! She had to! She ran away leaving Syaoran behind.
Yes I did Syaoran… and perhaps you felt how I wanted you back too… but everything's over now…
A.N. Sigh! I finally finished this chapter! I am really sorry guys for updating so late! Our computer broke down just as I was finishing this so I'll have to end it here and update before our computer goes berserk again! Hope you liked it anyway. Review please!