A/N: This chapter will be pretty short since it's a letter to Jonathan and Tammy's journey to Oakdale. I was actually just going to make Tammy pregnant with Jonathan's baby, but I had a dream that Tammy went to Oakdale and met the teens. She'll have prominent interaction with Gwen, Will, Casey, and a newly- returned Lucy, but this will remain a Jammy/Tammathan story.

Disclaimer: They'd be happy with a shot of angst- and a baby- if I owned them. Don't own ATWT either. Or POTO, which inspired the chapter title.

As Long As You're Mine Chapter Two- Far Too Many Notes For My Taste

Dear Jonathan,

Last night was the most incredible night of my life, and I'll remember it until the day I die. But I can't be with you. We couldn't live that way. I couldn't do it to you, but I realized something last night.

I love you, Jonathan. I hope you'll remember that. Please forgive me for what I've done to you. I sent a letter to Sandy last night… I can't marry him. Not when I love you this much. I've gone away for a while, to think about us. I'll be back soon, I promise. Maybe we can be together. Last night, something changed within me. My love for you finally came to light, and you don't know how happy I am that it did. And I think that more changes are coming.

Love- you don't know how good it sounds! - love, love, love,

Tammy

Jonathan unfolded the letter with Tammy's handwriting on it. He'd woken without her in his bed, but a letter instead. Tears slowly came to his eyes as he finished the letter and said, "I'll wait for you, Tammy… I'll wait for you. I love you."

Sandy,

I honestly don't know how to start this letter, so I'll start with the truth: I can't marry you in two weeks. I can't marry you at all. I've left Springfield, so please don't try to find me. I've gone away to think about my life.

Sandy, I don't love you the way you deserve to be loved. Don't wait for me, even if I come back. Someday, you'll find a wonderful woman who loves you the way I should have loved you. I've been changed, Sandy, and definitely for the better. But I have to tell you how I came to this decision: Last night, you were at Lewis. I didn't know how, and I still don't, know how we came to be together, but Jonathan was there. We made love, Sandy. Right where we were going to get married. And I know that this must hurt you so much, but I'd rather be honest with you than try to cushion you from the truth.

I hope you find a woman who treats you so much better than I did. Despite what you may think by now, Sandy, I still love you- just not in the way that you want me to.

All my love,

Tammy

Sandy Foster walked over to the letter that lay on his bedside table and gingerly picked it up. As he scanned the letter, his eyes filled with tears, too- but he threw the letter into the blazing fire and sobbed, knowing that his love had left him.

Oakdale

Tammy set her bags down in the dingy motel, thinking, I'll find a better place to stay soon. Maybe a boarding house… She picked up a newspaper and started to read the classified ads, trying desperately not to think about Jonathan or Sandy. She moved her hands from the soaked bottom half of the paper to the dry top, finally seeing the words "Boarding House" in small print, near the boundary between wet and dry. It was run by Iris something, but the address was visible. Tammy picked up the map of Oakdale, noting to herself that she would go there tomorrow.