Chapter 7 Trapped Inside My Own Head

Brooke was working at home the next night when there was a knock at the door. She got up and opened it. "Lucas hey." She smiled

"Hey. Can we talk?" he asked

"Yeah sure." They went and sat down on the couch.

"Brooke I know this probably isn't the best time to tell you this…but I've waited ten years and I have to do it now."

"Lucas what's up?"

"Brooke I love you. I have loved you for years. That's why I'm still single I can't find another woman who makes me feel the same way you did. I know the timing is off but I had to tell you."

"Then why did you tell me that we didn't have a future together?" Brooke asked.

"Because I didn't think that I was good enough for you. You deserved the world and that was something that didn't think I could give you."

"That was never true. Lucas you meant everything to me that was why I left it hurt so much to see when I thought you didn't love me." Lucas stroked her cheek.

"Well I guess we always had a problem with communicating."

Brooke smiled "Yeah I guess so."

Lucas got up. "I should go." Brooke grabbed his arm to stop him. Lucas looked at her when she stood up to face him. Both made eye contact and felt like they were trying to read into the others' soul. Brooke took a step towards him and then kissed him. Both felt unsure about what was going on. They both felt like it was right but afraid that the other person didn't feel that way. Lucas ran his fingers through her hair. "God I've missed you." he said

"Me too." She kissed him again and lead him to her bedroom.

Brooke untangled herself from Lucas' grasp and the sheets and put on her robe, then opened the doors onto the balcony. The air was cool on her skin. She tightened her robe around her body.

'What did I do? I can't believe I let this happen again. I let him in again. I'm not some stupid teenager anymore I should have stopped this. I shouldn't have let him in. neither one of us can afford to get hurt again.' She looked at the ring around her neck and sighed. 'Travis why did you have to break down the walls? I had everything figured out I wouldn't let another guy in and I wouldn't get hurt, but no you convinced me that I could love again…you left me we were happy, but you left me.' Brooke started to cry. She wiped her tears and sighed. "Its not fair…its not fair. Everyone that I have ever loved ends up leaving me." She sat down in the chair and pulled her knees to her chest. The day of the accident popped into her head.

She remembered hearing the door close that morning and was relieved that Travis had left so they wouldn't continue to fight. She rolled over and went back to sleep until the phone ringing woke her up a couple hours later.

"Hello"

"Mrs. Reynolds, this is Holly from Memorial hospital ER, your husband and son have been brought in."

It took a minute for it to sink in. Travis…and Ryan. "OMG are they ok?" she asked

"No Ma'ma I'm sorry to tell you but they didn't make it. I'm sorry."

Brooke could feel the tears falling down her face as she dropped the phone. They were gone…they were both gone. She got up and ran into Leila's room and was relieved to see her daughter still asleep in her crib.

Brooke wiped the tears from her eyes. "Why can't I just stop all the pain? I want it to stop. I just want to be happy. I guess every guy in my life will always hurt me. My dad, Lucas, and Travis." She got up and went back inside