Title: To Myself I Turned

Author: Chaff & Dee

Category: Pre-slash, Angst, masturbation WARNING For those who don't like..

Rating: PG-13

Pairing: None.. except Daniel/Right Hand

Series: Who Needs Jack

Spoilers: Season Nine

Synopsis: Daniel continues to move on without Jack. Can Cameron help.

Notes: We think you all can tell where this is going. Yes, a new pairing is in the works. This version differs from the one on Use of Lyrics Reverie from Lacuna Coil. Title is another sound from the same album. We needed some sex. So Daniel is getting some. With himself. But it's still something. Un'beta'd.

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Daniel and a shower self masturbation scene. Language

Disclaimer: Still don't own them. Wish We owned Ben Browder, Hoo-Hah.. I'd never leave my house. No harm meant toward Lacuna Coil. No Stargate. Enough said!

To Myself I Turned

I have you in my dreams at night
you were holding my hands
then I awake and you're not mine
now it's time to rise

Another night.

Another day with out you.

Time to get out of bed.

I walk into the bathroom.

I don't notice right away, but soon I see as I glance into the mirror.

There are no dried tear tracks down my face.

And to come to think about it, my pillow was not dretched once again in my tears.

Though there are still noticible lines under my eyes.

I scratch my beard.

Maybe it's time to shave.

Not ready quite yet for that. That's my kinda safety net. Jack hated facial hair on me. No.. Not yet.

I think I'm getting better.

Though I still miss you.

And I miss Sam. But not as much as you.

Thank god, We're finally going to start traveling through the gate once again. The piles and piles of translations and the teachings were starting to drive me nuts.

I need the gate.

I need a new world to visit.

I need..

I need ..alot of things.

Wish we could go back to the way it once was.

...
Have the friendship we once shared... But that is long in the past.

Teal'c has been heaven sent. He's been a shoulder to cry on. A ear when I need him. He's been everything that you once was.

Shaking my head.. Clear out those thoughts. Stop being so pathetic. Get over it, Daniel.

He didn't love you. He never did. You were nothing but a 'Fuck buddy.'

Knowing it or not.

And I don't think I'm in love with you anymore.

My heart was too hurt to love someone who wouldn't handle it with care.

But, I still love you.

I totally get it now.

Now to take a shower and handle my not so little morning problem.

Making my way to the shower, I turn the knob to get it to the warm temperature I like it.

I push down my boxers and step into the shower. Moving under the shower head, I grab my shampoo and wash it into my scalp. Hair not being so long anymore, saves alot of money on shampoo. This one bottle will last a month.. Maybe longer.

I grab the Dial and lather it on my body. Soon my hand finds its way to my rock hard erection. It's been too long since anyone has touched me there.

Just been me and my right hand for months now.

Slowly, I slide the palm of my hand along my length. The water pulsing on my body and my hands movement have me two seconds from blowing.

I play with the slit. My fingers dipping inwards as I pull my other hand to move in a jerking motion.

I feels so good. And yet lasts too short of a time.

A face flashes in my mind as I speed up the thrusts. Hips jerking forward.

White burns in my retinas as I come hard.

Those eyes.

That face.

The brillant smile.

Damn! This is not good.

I know I have to move on, but...

Can I really go through this again?

Okay. Breathe.

Crap!

A/N:Okay, everyone here's the deal. I don't want to do a J/D fic.( They get back together. He made a mistake. No. I want to let Jack and Daniel lay in

other people's pastures.)

I just left a group after 2years because i wanna write, what I want to. I know and I'm Sorry. Jack's gone. I like them together. There are SOOOO

many great ones out there. And more to be written, but I really want to write what I want to write. So... honest opinions here. Should I continue. I

need to know. Is this worth continuing.. Review.. You will decide. Otherwise, I'll just continue reading.. ;) so start writting:)