Author: aynat (©Tanya Long)
Description: A funeral, a baby and a new beginning. To start over Lorelai needs to say goodbye.
Spoilers: One from the last eppy of season five on... in chapter four.
Disclaimer: I don't own the Gilmore Girls characters, though I would kindly pay for Luke. I make no money from this, it's purely for fun!
Lorelai looked around the room at everyone, all the sad faces. They were all crying but she had stopped, she just couldn't anymore. She'd cried enough, that's what she told herself. Holding on tightly to the hand of the person at her side she squeezed it, but she couldn't look over. They hadn't spoken since Lorelai had given the news. Two broken hearts didn't have anything to say.
A baby cried but Lorelai couldn't look towards the sound. It sounded so desperate, it was the perfect sound for the moment she thought. She heard someone try to hush the crying child and Lorelai wanted to shout to let the baby cry. She wanted to cry again now. Taking a deep breath she realized the hand she was holding was shaking, or was it hers? She couldn't tell. Probably both.
As 'Amazing Grace' sounded out from the balcony above Lorelai closed her eyes. She had been to funerals before, she always said they were a way to say goodbye. But that was the problem, she didn't want to say goodbye. She never could say goodbye... he had that on her.
"Mom, are you ok?" Lorelai shook herself back to the present as she looked over to her daughter. "You're not breathing."
"I'm fine honey," she lied, "how are you holding up?"
"This is weird," Rory whispered. "I'm upset and yet, I feel like I'll wake up any minute. I mean, this isn't real, this can't be real." Lorelai felt the tears burning behind her eyes and told herself she couldn't cry, she needed to be strong.
"This is real," she whispered. Rory gave a slow nod and turned back to the front as the preacher stepped up to the podium.
Lorelai tried to tune him out. She knew what he would say, everyone knew what he would say. He was a good man, a kind man. He had a hard time showing love, but he still loved with all his heart. He waited to long for the right woman, when he could have had her a long time ago. Well maybe the preacher wouldn't say that, but Lorelai knew it was true. She was that woman. She knew loved her, she knew the two of them were meant to be together. But now he was gone. How could she cope? "This is real," she whispered again.