Author: aynat (©Tanya Long)
Description: A funeral, a baby and a new beginning. To start over Lorelai needs to say goodbye.
Spoilers: ONE MAJOR ONE FROM SEASON SIX (well... season five finale on)
Disclaimer: I don't own the Gilmore Girls characters, though I would kindly pay for Luke. I make no money from this, it's purely for fun!
Author's Note: I just want to thank y'all again for the great reviews, I get many each night and it feels good to know y'all want more!
Lorelai stared at herself in the full length mirror, again drapped in black. She had gone out to buy a new dress, she didn't feel right wearing the same one she'd worn to Christopher's funeral, but it didn't matter. She couldn't get Christopher's being gone from her mind, even now. She knew she should cry, be upset, because of this but no, the tears were for Chris.
She still couldn't believe this was happening, life wasn't fair. One blow after the next. And this was two, and trouble always comes in three. Who would be the next person? Would it be her? Oh God, no, she told herself she couldn't think that way. She had a baby to think about, to raise.
This funeral would be different. It would be filled with people she didn't know, or didn't like, and it would drag on forever. She would feel bad that she didn't feel bad. She would wonder if her bad thoughts had finally done what she had prayed they'd do at her worst times. But she didn't really want this. No person really wanted this, but it was inevitable.
Everybody will die someday, somehow. At least she knew this was an easy passing. This thought made her think back to Christopher. No one had given her the details of the crash, but from the pieces she'd gotten she knew... that wasn't easy. Tears ran down her cheeks as someone came into the room.
"Do you need anything?" It was Luke. Lorelai laughed at his timing and shook her head.
"No, not anymore," she said. "What are you doing here?"
"I thought you might need me," he told her.
"But-"
"I know, I know," he interrupted, "but that doesn't matter right now. I just want to be here for you, do something for you. I don't want to sit at home right now Lorelai, it doesn't feel right." Lorelai smiled.
"Can you watch Gigi?" she asked. "While I go to the funeral that is. I don't think she should have to go to two in a month at two years old, that's not right."
"Of course I'll watch Gigi," he said, pulling her into a hug. "She likes me you know."
"Really? Maybe it's in the air around here." Picking up her purse of the bed Lorelai started to leave.
"Lorelai?" His voice sounded so quiet, so... not like Luke. Turning slowly the thought of the third death being their relationship flashed in her mind as he said, "I love you." Lorelai smiled as she let out a subtle sigh of relief.
"I love you too Luke."