Author: aynat (©Tanya Long)
Description: A funeral, a baby and a new beginning. To start over Lorelai needs to say goodbye.
Spoilers: ONE MAJOR ONE FROM SEASON SIX (well... season five finale on)
Disclaimer: I don't own the Gilmore Girls characters, though I would kindly pay for Luke. I make no money from this, it's purely for fun!
She couldn't open it, she refused to. Quickly she ran to the kitchen. Looking for a place to put it she ran from one end of the room to the other. Finally she opened a drawer and put it inside, carefully putting stuff on top. She couldn't have more heartache in her life, she couldn't read what that note had to say.
Jumping when she heard Luke come in, she ran back to the door. Putting her arms around his neck she kissed him. "What was that for?" he asked.
"For being here," she told him. "For being alive, for loving me." Luke looked at her out of the corner of his eye.
"Are you ok?" he asked. "You seem pale and you're breathing hard."
"I'm fine," she told him, "I just got Gigi in bed and I am so tired. It's been a trying day."
"I never got to ask," he started as he lead her towards the couch, "how was the funeral?
"Well that's a stupid question since it was a funeral," he began to ramble. "But was it ok? Or, you know, were you ok? How was Rory? And your dad?"
"Luke," she said to get him to calm down. "The funeral was weird. All the times I dreamt of being at my mothers funeral I honestly never thought it would happen. And of course I never really wanted it to happen. It was so strange to sit there and realize that she's gone, really gone.
"My dad seemed pretty shook up, worse even then when my grandmother died. He couldn't seem to grasp anything being said and just sat there with a glass of whiskey, which I never saw him drink from, and a vacant look on his face. I'm going to go see him tomorrow, maybe without all those people around I'll be able to get a better sense of what he's thinking.
"As for Rory, well I don't know. She didn't talk to me at all, but she looked upset. Logan was there, so she cried on his shoulder. I did see her looking a little confused when I ran out of there after your phone call, but I'll try phoning her tomorrow. If all I can do is leave a message then so be it."
Luke looked over at Lorelai. She looked so tired, as if she hadn't had any sleep in days. He knew she was stretched thin, he just wished he could be here more than he already was. "Lorelai, this might not be the time," he began, "but, will you marry me?" Lorelai laughed.
"You're a little late," she told him, "I already covered that." Luke shook his head.
"No, I mean will you marry me now?" he corrected.
"What?" Lorelai asked. "Is this a joke?"
"Of course not," he said. "Let's go to New York, and let's make this official."
"Luke..."
"I love you Lorelai, more than anything in this world. I love Rory, and I love Gigi. I have watched Rory grow up, I have been there through her first kiss, her first love. Learning to driving and her first day at Chilton, he first day at Yale, and Lord knows how many other firsts.
"And I have every intention of experiencing that with Gigi as well. Maybe I'm not a father, but I sure as hell feel like one when it comes to those two girls. And maybe I wasn't a sucessful husband during my first try, but this time I'm marrying a woman who never gives up. I need you in my life Lorelai, and I need to be there for you during all this. The way I feel, the way I want to be here even more makes me realize that you and I are meant to do this, meant to be together, so why not now?
"I do realize all the stuff going on right now, and how you might not want this to be associated with all this crap that's happening. But marriage is about the bad times just as it is about the good times, so let's get married."
Lorelai was speechless.