Silence Chapter 5
Loving him was effortless, it was the one thing she has know how to do since she was 10. She will never forget how to love him, she knows his wants, his needs and his fears. She knows him better than she knows herself and vice versa. Loving him is the easy part,accepting his flaws, she loves him no matter what. It's when he comes home late at night, muttering about a meeting, she knows it isn't true. But she doesn't call him on it, just says that dinner is in the fridge. Things go on like this for a few months, she never calls him on it, turns the other cheek, ignoring the pain in her chest from her unshed tears. She will never leave him, she doesn't know how to live without the man she has loved since she was 10. He comes home early one evening, saying that they need to talk. She doesn't yell or scream, doesn't even cry until she finishes packing a bag for him, the front door closes, and she is left alone, the word divorce echoing throughout their two story house. All he left her with was photographs, they bring her little comfort. She idly wonders if maybe she'll become Miss Havisham in Great Expectations, leaving everything exactly the same as it was the day her husband walked out the door. She would forever remember the look in his eyes, the pity. She remembers how hurt he looked, she's the one that should be hurting, not him, never him. She doesn't know what to do, the man that she has loved for 15 years of her life just left her. She can still see him, his back as he walks out what was once their front door, towards someone that isn't her. It is then that she crumbles, crying the months of unshed tears, and crying for the months and years that she will be left alone.