Lost in You
Haru was always getting lost.
I was always the one showing him the way back.
I asked him once; if it bothered him that he had no sense of direction.
He gave me a blank look.
"I don't get lost," he had said. "I just keep going. I just follow my feet."
Haru follows his heart. He trusts himself. He trusts that his heart will lead him where he needs to be.
Stupid boy.
Can't he understand? Following your heart is how you lose yourself.
I can't follow my heart.
My heart leads to Haru. And Akito is following me. So I have to stay away.
And...I'm bad for Haru. I'll swallow him. I'm too much for him.
I don't want to hurt him.
I...don't want him to hurt me. If I follow my heart—which leads to Haru—then I might lose myself.
I could end up losing myself in my love for him. I'm not...ready for that. Not yet. I'm scared.
I don't want to lose myself in Haru.
Not again.
Fin
Author's Notes:I like this one more than the first—it's just better written. Although I'm not particularly good at writing Rin. Again! Not my fault. She hasn't appeared much in the books I have—1 through 11, by the way—and although I've read to 16 (and I've read book 17, but it's in Japanese, so I don't think it counts), it was online and I have limited online access in which to read Furuba scanlations. So I don't know her that well.
I do like her though! I'm a Horse. (Yay! You get to learn more pointless information about me!) Rin's cool.
I like to feel that with each fic I write I get to be a better writer...I mean I'm improving the more I write. Well, I'd like to think I am anyway.
But I don't care what I think! I care what YOU think! I especially care what You think about This Fic. How Does it Make You Feel?
Ha! Sorry, couldn't help myself. Although I hate it when people ask that.
Yeah...just review, if you wouldn't mind.
Audley Horsing Around... (I couldn't resist!)
PS: Does this make up for the rather short author's notes of last chapter? I rather think it does.