Torn
Chapter Ten: Affection
Ayame walked silently down the street with Kouga, her hands clasped tightly in front of her.
She couldn't get the night's incident out of her mind.
Sesshomaru, Inuyasha's brother, was the boy who'd tried to kill her. For the whole evening Ayame had been constantly on the watch, jumping at the slightest noise, going into defense mode whenever Sesshomaru came into the room or even walked by.
I don't know why I was being so weird. She thought. It's not like he'd kill me right there, in his own house, in front of Inuyasha. That would totally give him away.
And why didn't Inuyasha seem to know? Could he really be that dense or was Sesshomaru just a really, really good liar?
Ayame was going to go with the good liar.
"What's wrong Ayame?" Kouga asked suddenly, causing the girl to jump slightly.
"What do you mean? Nothing's wrong." She said, almost too quickly.
"That, right there." Kouga said. "You've been so…jumpy, ever since I picked you up. Why? What happened?"
"Nothing." Ayame said. Could she really tell Kouga that a boy he knew, his brother was an assassin out to kill her, and eventually him?
No. The answer was absolutely no.
But it was hard…when she looked into those clear blue eyes she just wanted to tell him everything.
"Ayame." Kouga sighed, coming to a stop on the sidewalk. "You can tell me, anything, you know that, don't you? I mean…you've lived with me for almost over a month now. I…care about you. I want to know what's troubling you"
Ayame smiled up at him. "Thanks Kouga, I needed that. But…I'm not ready to talk, not right now"
The sun was setting slowly behind them as they stood there in silence, just looking at each other.
He nodded, a smile creeping across his handsome face. "I understand. But…just tell me, when your ready, okay?"
Ayame nodded. "I will. I promise"
Just as soon as I figure out what to do with Sesshomaru. Maybe I can turn him to our side…
She almost laughed at the thought.
Suddenly, Kouga lashed out and grabbed her arms, pulling her against him.
But before she could do anything, however, Kouga leaned forward and caught his mouth with hers.
Oh…my…God. What is he doing? She thought frantically. His lips were soft, warm, gentle, and yet still demanding in some ways.
She kissed him back.
Why did I do that? She thought as he pulled away, a blush creeping across his cheeks.
"I-I'm sorry." He said. "I don't know why I did that."
Ayame smirked and looked down at her shoes, suddenly finding them very interesting. "Um…yeah."
Awkward.
"Listen, Kouga-" Ayame began to say, looking up at him again. But she couldn't say any more.
What was he looking at?
"What?" She asked.
"Nothing." He said, his gaze floating away from her, only to float right back. "It's just-"
"Oh God." Ayame sighed, wrapping her arms around his neck and pressing her lips against his.
After this kiss she pulled away, a smirk lighting up her face. "That's what you wanted, right?"
He nodded, not answered, leaning forward and kissing her again.
Just watch, Ayame thought, enjoying Kouga's kiss fully. Naraku's going to pop out at any moment and shoot us. That would be just my luck, right when I was happy…bang.
But Naraku didn't come, no shots were fired, it was just Kouga and Ayame, standing on the sidewalk.
Ayame felt his hands slip around her waist and crush her against him, his lips on hers getting more and more dangerous, more and more hungry.
He was, Ayame had to admit, a good kisser.
She giggled as his hand left her waist and slid down her hip and to the hem of her skirt. She pulled her lips away from his, receiving a protesting sigh from him.
"You sneaky wolf." She smiled, grabbing his hand before it could go any further so that it was actually under her skirt. "I think not"
"Oh you want it." He smirked wickedly at her.
"Not here, not now." Ayame laughed, letting go of him completely and stepping away from him, knowing that he didn't want her too. "Besides, it's a school night and you and Ginta have a project to work on"
Kouga smirked. "You tease"
"Hey, I was taught well to be a master of teasing." Ayame giggled, taking a step to the side as he reached out for her. "It works, doesn't it?"
"Yes." He said simply, finally catching onto her waist and pulling her against him, planting his lips on hers again.
Ayame felt her knees grow weak. Damn you Kouga…why do you have to taste so good?
He sneered down at her, breaking the kiss. "See? I can do it too"
Ayame laughed and rolled her eyes. "Yes. You are all powerful"
"Do I note a hint of sarcasm?" He asked, looking hurt.
Ayame nodded. "Yes"
He smirked and wrapped his arm around her waist, pulling her against him as they walked down the street.
XxXxX
The two walked into the house, the memory of what Kouga had just done still plaid itself over and over in Ayame's mind.
Don't fall in love Aya. She warned herself. It could never work out. Once Naraku is dead…I'll have to leave, start over somewhere. I can't stay here, with Kouga.
But as she turned to look at him, she knew it would be impossible to leave him.
"Took you long enough." Hakaku smirked as the two walked into the kitchen.
Kouga shrugged. "So? What about it?"
Ginta laughed. "We have a project to work on, remember? Let's get started"
"You guys go ahead." Ayame sighed. "I'm going to bed, I'm tired"
Kouga nodded and gave her hand a squeeze, she shot him a smile and turned and left the room.
There was an extra bedroom at the other end of the house from the three boys' rooms, which Ayame was thankful for.
She slid open the door and stepped inside, sliding it closed behind her.
With a sigh and flopped onto her bed, not bothering to slip out of her school uniform.
Kouga kissing her hadn't been a big surprise to Ayame, they'd come pretty close before, over the past month that she'd spent with him.
Flashback
"What, the hell, is this?" Kouga growled, sitting next to Ayame on the couch. "Ten Things I Hate…About You. What the-"
"It's a movie, Kouga." Ayame giggled. "Kagome said it was good so I decided to rent it"
Kouga rolled his eyes. "Fine, whatever. It had better be good though"
Ayame shrugged, stuffing the tape into the player and clicking on the TV with the remote.
They sat together and watched the movie for a while in silence, Kouga looking bored and Ayame excited.
She'd never seen a movie, at least all of a movie, before.
"Come on Ayame." Kouga sighed. "Can't we watch wrestling or something? Or hey, how about that new movie Hostage? That's supposed to be pretty-"
"Violent." Ayame cut him off. "I'd rather not watch something that reminds me of my work, thank you very much"
Kouga frowned and fell silent, sitting there with a gloomy look on his face.
Ayame turned to him and laugh. "Are you trying to look all depressed so I'll give in? Because if you are, it's so not working"
"Really? I thought it was." He smirked.
Then he lashed out and snatched the remote from her, clicking off the movie.
"Hey!" Ayame shrieked, reaching for the remote, only to have it held away at arms length. "Kouga no fair! We can watch what you want tomorrow"
"I'll be dead by then Aya." Kouga smirked. "This chick flick will kill me. Now it's either Hostage or nothing"
"Give it!" Ayame shouted, diving onto the teenager and snatching the remote from him.
"Ayame you little-" Kouga said, but was cut off when the two tumbled off the couch and onto the floor.
Ayame opened her eyes from the fall, only to be staring into Kouga's deep blue ones.
He'd fallen on top of her.
"Get off me Kouga." Ayame said.
He smirked at her. "Give me the remote and I will"
Ayame glared at him. "Get off me you cow! You're crushing me!"
"No I'm not!"
"Are too!"
"Are not!"
"Are too a billion times!" Ayame smirked.
Suddenly they fell into silence, noticing how close their faces were from each other, inches.
"Ayame…I…" Kouga said, his voice heavy with something.
He stared blankly down at her, mesmerized by her. What am I doing…
Their breaths mingled, their lips clangorously close to each others.
Kiss her Kouga. Kouga thought to himself. You know you want it.
But he didn't.
Reluctantly, Kouga got off her and sat back on the couch.
Idiot.
End Flashback
Ayame sighed and closed her eyes, putting her hands over her head, kicking off her shoes so they made soft a soft thunk noise on the floor.
Soft rain began to pat on the windows as the sun made it's disappearance beyond the horizon.
What should I do? Ayame wondered. Sesshomaru will most likely come after me again…and he has to kill me before he can get to Kouga. So…should I stay here, with Kouga?
Ayame groaned and rolled onto her stomach, burying her face in her pillow. I can't deny it anymore…I love him. I love Kouga.
Ayame lay there for hours, glistening tears running down her cheeks.
Suddenly a crack of thunder made her jump and she sat up. "Shit…a storm"
She sighed and rested her head in her hands, thoughts rushing through her mind at high speed.
She didn't hear her door slide open.
I killed so many people. She thought, staring blankly at the wooden floor, tears sliding down her cheeks. If anything…I deserve to have Sesshomaru kill me.
"Ayame?" Kouga said softly, his voice barely making it over the sound of the rain.
Ayame gasped and looked up, she hadn't noticed him walk in. "K-Kouga? What are you…what are you doing?"
He smirked down at her. "Ayame…why are you crying?"
Ayame felt her cheeks flare and she quickly wiped her eyes. "I-I wasn't…crying"
"Sure." Kouga smirked, sitting beside her on the bed. "Your eyes are just leaking, right?"
"Yeah." Ayame said, not really realizing what she was saying.
Kouga laughed. "I was joking"
Ayame didn't answer, she just sat there, her head lowered.
"Ayame…what's bothering you? You haven't been the same since you came back from Inuyasha's. What's wrong?"
Ayame shook her head. "I'm fine. Just have a lot on my mind"
Kouga sighed. "Fine, if you're going to be that way"
"What way? What are-" Ayame said, but was cut off when Kouga wrapped his arms around her, hugging her against him in a strong grip.
What is he doing? She wondered, shivering slightly under his touch.
"You can tell me Ayame." Kouga said softly into her ear. "Anything, I hope you know that. I love you, I don't want you to get hurt"
Ayame's breath stopped. L-Loves…me?
Tears filled her eyes again, but this time for an entirely different reason. She was happy.
"Kouga…" She said softy.
"Yeah?"
"Will you…stay with me?" Ayame asked, feeling heat rise to her cheeks. "Tonight"
Kouga smiled and nodded, kissing her lightly on the forehead.
The next thing Ayame knew, she was lying back on the bed, Kouga's arms wrapped securely around her waist, his breath warm on the back of her neck.
I can't tell him…I want to…but I can't. Not yet.
Ayame sighed and closed her eyes, enjoying the warmth Kouga was providing. I love you, too.
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