.:Anger and Memories:.
Authors Note: I was not playing the game to get the dialogue of Mira's Jedi Path, I was getting it from a jumbled mess of words, so I can't be sure which answer goes to which questions and so on. Hope you enjoy it anyway.
"No!" Mira waved her hand, levitating a piece of debris that had once been part of a bed with the Force. "It's not right!" She shouted, and she threw the piece of debris across the room, slamming it into the blast door. She had long since sealed it, unable to face any of the crew of the ship the currently resided on. Not since the news Illusen had brought them.
"She was too young!" She shouted, she ignited her lightsaber, and began cutting apart the many objects in the room, fueled by anger and pain.
"Why did you do it, Padme?" She sobbed, finally too exhausted to do anything else. "Why did you have to leave Dxun?"
Biggs led Mira toward the pit in the center of the platform on Nar Shadaar, not far from where he had been opened up further to the Force. Now it was Mira's turn. Even as she looked around in confusion, he could sense the small flicker of the force begin to grow.
"What's wrong?" She asked, looking around. "Why are you stopping?"
"Close your eyes –" Mira looked sceptically at him, but at a calm stare, she obeyed, closing her eyes. "I want you to hear Nar Shadaar. Feel the currents of Nar Shadaar, the ebb and flow of life."
'Feel the currents here on Nar Shadaar, the ebb of life. A simple kindness can be given to another.' His voice echoed in her mind, both wise and powerful. 'This is the Force. And all our choices, from the greatest to the smallest, affect each other. And the echoes travel.'
She could hear something. First it was nothing more then a faint buzzing, but as it grew louder, she could make out voices. Thousands of them over lapping, echoing around her, stronger, and louder, tearing her mind apart…
'Awaken Mira.' His voice was calm, as it always was, and she opened her eyes, expecting the voices to cease. But they didn't, they just kept growing, and she couldn't stand it.
Her head in her hands, she began crying, shiny tears sliding down her cheeks.
"What's wrong?" Biggs asked, still clam, with a hint of worry in his voice.
"I can feel this... planet..." Mira sobbed. "I can't shut it out. It's louder now... it hurts. All these people..."
"Then stop trying to shut it out…" Biggs whispered soothingly. "Find a centre in it, focus on my voice. I can help you to calm the chaos in your mind, if you will let me…"
"That's what I want." Mira insisted through the tears, Biggs could tell she was trying to convince herself more then him. "I'm sure of it, more than anything.
"I want to become like you." She said quietly, firmly. "I want to be strong, and I don't want to be afraid or alone anymore." She looked into his eyes. "Are you going to train me?"
"Only if you want me to, Mira..." Biggs answered. "I have shown you the way; I cannot force you down that path."
"All right - I think I'm ready to try, then." Mira said, looking skyward.
"Mira?" Bao-Dur was at the blast door Mira had sealed. "Mira, you need to come out."
"No I don't!" Mira shouted. "I don't need to come out because the only reason I came, is dead!"
"Please… then let me come in and talk to you, Mira. Locking yourself away won't help any of us." Bao sighed; he was as torn up about Padme dying as Mira was though he was struggling to be the stronger one for the two of them.
So far he hadn't failed. Well, completely…
Bao turned around and left the room in a daze. Mira had locked herself away; he couldn't change the codes, something that he had never encountered with his wife before.
They needed help, fast. He needed to talk to Elaine and Biggs.
Elaine paced back and forth in Revan's room as she stared worriedly off into space. Revan was going through her lightsaber practices with ease, though under the cool calm collectedness, she was worrying about much more.
The fact that one of the children had died on their own 'self imposed quest' was not a surprise too Revan. Quests such as these often where accompanied by danger and disaster, hiding at every corner they turned. The fact was that that she could not express this to the grieving parents and she did not wish this upon any of her friends wasn't of any help.
"How can you just stand there doing that?" Elaine asked suddenly, turning around to face Revan who glanced up at her old friend and closed her lightsaber down, clipping it back to her belt fluidly.
Revan shook her head and countered Elaine's question with one of her own, "how can you stand there, grieving like that, Elaine?"
"What the hell do you mean!" Elaine exploded, "a child died! Padme… Bao and Mira's daughter is dead because we weren't there to protect them! Because they ran away… because of…"
The mad woman's rant sputtered off, leaving her accusations unvoiced and Revan sighed very soft. "Because of Mical… Alison, Rick leaving the planet, their friends' loyalty to them? Elaine; there is no way for sure you, Mira, Bao-Dur, or even I," Revan smiled bitterly, "the seemingly unbreakable Revan...could have protected Padme."
"Then why couldn't one of us have died?" Elaine whispered as tears started to slide down her cheeks and she sat down on the low stone bench craved from the wall.
Revan didn't say anything as she hugged her grieving friend, truthfully what more could be said? Asking if it would have hurt any less had one of the adults died and left the child to grieve instead; would that make it better?
An hour later Revan and Elaine where sparring with their lightsabers, nearly equally matched blow for blow.
"You've been training." Revan smiled lightly as she strained against Elaine's lightsaber, pushing her old friend back two paces before Elaine tried a sideways sweep with her second lightsaber.
"Can't let you hold the greatest lightsaber duelling title here." Elaine shot back as Revan flipped over her head and landed behind Elaine without a second to waste.
"Try me." Revan's eyes flashed in the light and suddenly she everywhere at once and Elaine could hardly counter her friend's attacks when all of a sudden it stopped and Revan was gone.
Elaine gripped her lightsabers and waited listening to the silence in the room but there was no noise forthcoming. She turned to find someone else standing behind her, her brother Biggs there.
"Biggs, did… how, what's happening?" She asked, stuttering over her words as her teeth chattered uncontrollably with the cold.
Biggs shook his head and removed his robe, wrapping it around Elaine's shoulders. "We need to get out of here, you're freezing to death."
Elaine was barely able to register her brother's words as she shivered even more, thinking rapidly.
What had happened? How had she ended up here and then her brother appearing out of nowhere as well? Where'd Revan…
"Revan…" Elaine whispered numbly as Biggs snorted in annoyance. "You put too much faith in her, Elaine. Invoking her name won't help us now – we have to get out of this, ourselves."
Elaine shook her head and threw her brother's robe back at him. "No, you idiot! It's not anything to do with, Revan-!"
"Weren't you just practicing with her, sparring before this happened?" Biggs pointed out and Elaine sighed in exprastion as she nodded.
"Okay, fine!" She grounded out, throwing her hands up in the air, "so maybe she 'has' something to do with this. But the point of the fact is that if we don't act, then darkness will be the only thing in our life."
Biggs raised an eyebrow, "and you plan to get us out of here how?"
Elaine smiled, "life and love will always hold a path back to the light… whether or not; it be in our hearts or in life." She called upon the Force, summoning up the feelings of her love for Atton and her children, glowing with a brilliant light that blinded Biggs before she grasped his hand.
"Mira…" Elaine whispered as she staggered a little before regaining her balance as she ran off to Mira and Bao-Dur's room.
Biggs shook his head and turned to look at Revan. "What the hell did I get pulled into that 'thing' for!" He demanded, throwing his arms up in the air as Revan shrugged.
"I though you'd find it useful, in the future maybe." She said and slipped away quietly, to wherever she was retreating to.
Elaine slipped past the sleeping Bao-Dur and into the room where Mira was sitting stone-faced on the floor, her knees drawn up to her chest.
"You have to accept it, Mira." Elaine said, standing in front of the grieving woman.
"Why?" Mira challenged, jumping up with a look of extreme hatred in her eyes. "Why did 'my' daughter have to die? Why not yours or someone else's child? Why me!"
Elaine merely looked back at her friend, "you don't mean that, Mira. You're just upset about Padme right now."
A knife appeared in Mira's hand as she placed the blade up against Elaine's throat. "And if I kill you, maybe I don't mean that either?" Mira hissed, the blade in her hand shaking.
"Go ahead. Will it bring Padme back to you?" Elaine whispered back as Mira trembled, staring at her friend and shuddered, dropping the dagger to the ground.
"No…" She whispered as Elaine enfolded her within a hug as Mira sobbed, letting all her grief wash away.