CHAPTER 28 ; ; 1987 Point 6. Kagome Thinks That Inuyasha Sees Her as Kikyou's Replacement
"I never really got a good look at that Kikyou girl." Pagan leaned against a tree near the well. Kagome, Sango and Angel were at the pool. It was all part of plan # 1987 point 6. The plan was easy. Record Inuyasha telling Pagan that Kikyou and Kagome were two different people. "Is it true that she looks like Kagome's twin. Exactly alike."
"Feh, only a fool would confuse them." Inuyasha ignored the wired sound coming form one of Pagan's pants pockets. The modern hanyous carried all kinds of things with them. "Their scents are different and Kagome is shorter. Smiles more. Why do you ask?"
"I'm bored and we've talked about everything else." The bored hanyou tossed a ball in the air and caught it. "Is there something you would like to talk about?" He shrugged and looked away. Pagan could tell that the subject was off limits but she didn't care. This old girlfriend of his was dead and had tried to kill both Kagome and Inuyasha. Pagan did not like her.
"Angel told me that she was going to kill us that day. You know, the day you and Kagome were naked and making out in that spring."
"We were not naked. Feh, we're mates now. I can be naked with Kagome." Inuyasha blushed and hoped up into a tree. Even though, He wasn't a virgin, Inuyasha was still embarrassed by the way the sisters talked about sex. What he and Kagome had was special. Pagan simple flew up the tree.
"Like I was saying. Why would anyone want to kill us?"
"Maybe cause you're a pain in the ass."
The modern hanyou ignored him. "Is it because were hanyous? That's why she wanted to kill us, because we're part demon. What a bitch! To hate someon…"
"Don't call her that!"
Pissed, Pagan forgot all about the plan. "Why not? She goes around trying to Kill you, Kagome, me, Angel and no one thinks that she's a bad person. Hello!…trying to kill someone who is NOT threatening you, sort of makes you evil. Plus, she steals the souls of the dying. Kikyou IS evil. Don't run away, Inuyasha. I'm speaking the truth."
The two hanyous growled at each other.
"Stay out of this. You don't know what you're talking about."
"Maybe if you would talk to us instead of turning away or running away then I would know. I can't believe that you expect us to sit around while that dead girl trys to kill everyone we love." Inuyasha leapt out of the tree and Pagan followed him. "I'm trying to help you, Inuyasha. You may not believe it but we're a family. Not by blood but by life and fate. We were brought together to help each other. Please tell me what there is between you and Kikyou. What happened?"
"She died because of me."
"Wrong! Kikyou died by her own actions. Kikyou saved Onigumo. Kikyou nursed him. And because of Kikyou's deeds Naraku was created. It's HER fault that Naraku attack you and killed her. NOT your fault, Inuyasha. None of this is your fault. Kikyou started everything.
Don't try to tell me that she was distracted by you or that her feelings for you made her weak. Bullshit! Miroku is a huge henti and he is a very strong monk. He loves Sango. Everyone can see it and that henti admits his love for her. They have even slept together.
How come his feelings of love haven't made him weak? How come having sex didn't make him weak? Or top him from being a monk? If Kikyou truly loved you with all her heart then she would have been stronger. Why can't y…"
"Why can't you leave me alone? Do you want me to hurt you?" Inuyasha growled and claws dug into the palms of his hands. Drops of blood fell on the soft grass. His rage was building and he needed to be alone.
"O.K. but if you think that I'm going to stand by and let her hurt a member of MY family then you're dreaming. By the way, YOU are a member of my family, little brother. So is Kagome, you're MATE. You see Kikyou's soul catchers and you run off and leave her. What if Kagome is pregnant? Will you leave your mate and pups because you feel guilty? You claim that Kikyou died for you but you forget that Kagome has given up her whole life for you. Kagome loves you and accepts you as you are." Pagan flew off.
Finally alone, the angry hanyou sat down to think. Some of what Pagan had said sounded true. Inuyasha didn't want to believe it but everything had started with Onigumo and Kikyou. The miko had found the bandit and kept him hidden in a cave so that she could care for him. The only reason Naraku had gone after Inuyasha was to made him attack Kikyou, so she would use the jewel to save her own life.
'I should have known that it wasn't Kikyou. Naraku's sent is different from hers. Why didn't I question it? What if Kikyou's death wasn't my fault? Am I still bound to her? Things have changed. I'm different. Kikyou is different and I don't lov…
FUCKING BITCH! Why didn't you shut up and leave me alone, Pagan? SHIT!'
The confused and angry hanyou sat alone for several hours thinking. Inuyasha wasn't as stupid as everyone believed. He just didn't know a lot about interacting with others. Friendship, helping others, and love were things he had very little contact with until he met Kagome. Inuyasha had learned a lot over the past years.
Kikyou had been the first human to befriend him and the lost teen had been so grateful that he would have done anything for the miko. The inu-hanyou couldn't believe that someone could care about him.
"I doubted Kikyou. I kept waiting for her to betray me. Would it have worked out between us if Naraku hadn't interfered? Would I still have doubted her? Would I have let go of my hate and anger or resent Kikyou for making me give up who I was?
What about Keada's village? Would the villagers have accepted me as a human? Or would they hate me for marrying Kikyou and freeing her from being a miko?"
He sighed and looked up at the sky. He closed his eyes and let the warm sun beat down on his face. Slowly he remembered his time with Kikyou. It was bittersweet and caused his heart to ache. He couldn't lie to himself anymore.
Inuyasha remembered what an old human in his mother's village had said. 'You know the truth when it brings you great pain. For a lie can easily be changed and made pleasant.' This was certainly the truth. Because it hurt and this was more painful then being sliced to pieces.
"The truth is that, I don't think that we were meant to be together. There was too much against us. Including ourselves. The villagers would have hated me for taking you. You would wonder if it had been the right thing to do. Keada would have still had to become the village miko at a young age. I wouldn't be a hanyou and couldn't protect you. I would always miss my demon half.
Fuck, I might have even have grown to resent you for making me give up my srenght, speed and everything that I was. It would have failed. We were never meant to marry, Kikyou. Fate sent Naraku to keep us apart. Fate brought you back from the dead to be a miko and it sent Kagome to me. I…I love, Kagome."
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Miroku grinned at the four pretty village girls walking pasted him. He admired their youth and beauty and compared them to his love. As always they fell sort of Sango. No woman could compare to her. No other had her strength, beauty, compassion or her passionate nature.The hentai closed his eyes and thought of their one night together. 'Sango, you have taken over my body and mind. The moment Naraku takes his last breath I shall wed you. Our children will be free of this cursed wind tunnel. Kami, please don't let her be pregnant. If she were to bear a child then that child will be cursed. I would rather die alone then past this fear and pain to our children. Please understand, Sango.'
"Miroku, is something wrong?" The woman of his thoughts stood before him. The small neko cuddled in her arms.
"Nothing is wrong, my love." She blushed and stuttered. The hentai grinned at her shyness. 'She looks so lovely.'
"I…I was heading to Keada's hut. She asked me to help her pick herbs. I…I should go."
"I will see you at dinner." Sango nodded and hurried ahead. The lecherous monk smirked. 'My sweet Sango is still a blushing maiden. Once we are married, it will be my pleasure to help rid you of your shyness. I know lots of different ways to help you overcome your bashfulness, my love. Once Naraku is dead we will have several children.'