Trying to Live
Chapter four

(waves) (continues singing along with music) I wanna heal. I wanna feel like I'm close to something real. I wanna find something I've wanted all along. Somewhere I belong...

Moogle: She loves Linkin Park...
Me: Yup yup!
Moogle: (smacks forehead)
Me: (flicks off Moogle)
Moogle: Hey!

To my loving review...er...(sighs):

Auron's Fan: Thanks for reviewing, cecdan! At least I can count on someone (glares at Derick and Kayla-chan) to read my stories. Now, can you turn into Super Brie again and find me some reviewers? lol. ...please! (hands over exploding cupcakes)

Disclaimer: I don't own much of anything in this story. I do, however, own these wonderful exploding cupcakes! (throws at random person) (random person explodes) Ha ha!

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After departing from Kashinoko's house and doing a little armor shopping, he and I hopped on an airship headed for Lindblum. And by 'hopped', I really mean 'stowed away.' Heh heh?

(On the airship)

"Hey look! Clowns!" I said to Kashi, pointing at the black mages.

"I don't think those are clowns, Lily..." Kashi replied.

"Well, how am I supposed to know what they are? Never seen 'em before. For all I know, we could be on a clown-controlled airship heading towards Treno so they can perform a circus act for the nobles...and then, when getting off, they'll find us! And then we'll be used in their main attraction! They'll say, 'Come see the freaky girl with a monkey tail!' Then, I'll be a laughing stock! And, in a performance, I'll lose it! The nobles will form an angry mob...and they'll come after me with torches! They'll chase me down and burn me to death! AAH! KEEP THEM AWAY! I DON'T WANNA DIE! MAKE 'EM GO AWAYYYYY!"

"Lily! Shut up before they actually do find us!" Kashi snapped, shaking my shoulders hard to try and bring me back to reality. I shut up. Though I was panting, and my eyes were wide open, I shut up.

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It's been about an hour since my little freak out. Neither of us moved. Although Kashi did keep his hand clamped over my mouth... But now, the coast is clear and we can easily see South Gate.

"Cam I moof now?" I asked, still muffled by Kashi's hand. He looked around.

"...yeah." Kashi said. He gave a disgusted look at his hand and wiped it on his shirt.

"Next time, say it, don't spray it, Monkey Girl." he stated, chuckling. I whipped around.

"You really want me to maim you? 'Cuz I will! I swear!"

"Sure, sure. But if you maim me, who'd be there to escort you around? To make sure some random monster doesn't rip you to shreds?" he teased, a spark in his eye. I opened my mouth to say something, then closed it. I did that about three more times before huffing and walking towards the deck.

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"Hey! Are we almost in Lindblum? H-Hey! I'm talking to you! Wait!" I tried to get the attention of the clowns, but they ignored me.

"Hmph. Annoying bastards..."

"Failing at socializing with the 'evil clowns', Lily?" Kashi teased. I sighed.

"They won't answer me." I said, pouting. Kashi laughed.

"Don't feel bad. They wouldn't talk to me, either." he said. I grinned.

"Just so you know, it'll probably be about an hour."

"Why an hour?" I asked. Kashi grinned.

"You haven't realized just how frickin' slow this thing is going, have you?" he joked. I smiled, then stretched.

"I'm gonna take a quick nap. Wake me up when we get there, kay?" Kashi rolled his eyes as he watched me slide down the wall of the ship.

"Sleeping on the outside area of an airship. Very smart. I'll be sure to try and wake you up if we're about to crash into something!" he joked again. I laughed.

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"Lily...Liiilllly...LILY!" Kashi yelled. I jumped.

"Yes, captain!" I shouted. Kashi just shot me a quizzical look.

"Heh heh..."

"Well, now you're awake. Good, 'cuz we're here!" Kashi said, smiling. I hopped up and looked around.

"Wow...I've never seen the airship docks! It's so big..." I mused. A minute later, I had a mischivous grin on my face.

"Uh, Lily? What'cha up to?" Kashi asked, a little worried.

"Big town, that means lotsa shops. Shopping! Yeah! I need more supplies...and clothes...and anything else I want! I've got plenty of gil saved up!" I said matter-of-factly.

"But Lily... H-Hey! Wait! You-" Kashi started to say, but I had already darted off without a second thought.

"You don't have any gil..." Kashi said to himself, sighing.

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I casually strolled in one of the many shops in the business district. They had a sale.Thirty percentoff potions...not a bad deal. I'll come back later. I walked out of the item shop and kept looking around. So many things! I hardly ever get to shop for myself, so this is special. I chuckled softly to myself and walked in the nearest store. Now to shop for more clothes...

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"Lily! Where the hell are you? God dammit..." Kashi mumbled to himself. He walked along the streets of the Lindblum's industrial district, looking for his monkey-tail-adorned companion. After she darted off, Kashinoko tried to follow, but gave up.

"She'll come around. Eventually..." he thought. Kashi sighed. Is finding one girl really this hard? I guess he knows now. Hard.

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Ha ha...torture. Poor Lily, forgetting that her wallet was stolen! Mwahaha...I'm okay.

MGX2