A/N: Sorry for the wait… Had a sudden attack of writers block. More angsty goodness for you. You know you love it. Sort of a filler, I apologize. I'm sort of doing all my summer reading before Sept. 5, so I've been a bit distracted. heh... But anyways, I'll probably have another chapter up within the week (hopefully).

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After every full moon, Remus would lie in the Hospitable Wing or on the dusty floor of the Shrieking Shack and wonder if things could possibly get worse. Later, he would think back to that moment and remind himself that things could possibly get worse- he still had his great friends, pretty good health, and the chance to study magic at one of the best schools in the world.

But it was still two days until the full moon and Remus felt, without any hope, that things couldn't get worse. It wasn't possible. James was mad at him, Lily was mad at James for being mad at him, Peter was being a bumbling idiot, he was doing terribly on his schoolwork, and worst of all, Sirius wouldn't even allow himself to be within ten feet of Remus.

It was midnight. One more midnight between him and the curse of lycanthropy. Remus rolled over onto his stomach and looked out the window nearby at the waxing moon, looking strangely lopsided and bloated. The pale moonlight poured through the window onto his face, and deep in his mind he felt the wolf stir ever so slightly.

Remus shook his head and rolled out of the moonlight. He knew that he was just imagining the wolf- all the books he read said that werewolves are completely and utterly uninfluenced by their wolf side except for during the full moon, of course. But he couldn't shake the feeling away, so he decided to take a walk. The terribleness of his situation right now had loosened his morals of rule-abiding dramatically.

Silently, so not to wake up his roommates, Remus dug into his truck and dragged out a sweatshirt, pulling it over his head, over his thin white t-shirt. He chose not to wear shoes- he felt so much more natural and quiet without them clunking around on his feet. Plus he hadn't exactly been fond of footwear since Sirius made his take a chunk out of his calf.

The corridors seemed deserted. He saw the Gray Lady pass by morosely, but she didn't spare him a glance. It was eerie, the way that no one was around, but Remus liked it. He had been spending so much time alone lately that he had come to enjoy it.

By this time, Remus realized how far he was from Gryffindor Tower. He was nearly in the dungeons. He quickly turned away from them- he hated the dungeons. They were so damp and dark; they reminded him of the basement of the Shrieking Shack.

Just as he was about to turn out of the hallway that lead to the dungeons, he realized that there was someone blatantly following him.

Remus whipped around, gritting his teeth and twisting his hands together in front of him. It was Bellatrix. It seemed like she was everywhere lately, it was frightening.

"Hello Remus!" She said jovially, but her eyes were like ice. "Strange place for a Gryffindor at this time of night. I might just have to inform a teacher!" She twisted a strand of her hair around her finger, looking strangely elegant in an tiny shirt and long pajama pants.

"Bellatrix." Remus replied stiffly. "I must remind you that you are also wandering the halls past curfew." She laughed haughtily, taking a few steps forward. Remus responded by staggering backwards. He didn't want to be anywhere near her.

"Oh, but you wouldn't tell." Bellatrix said silkily. "You see, I know what kind of person you are. You would kiss me, you would reprimand me, you would threaten me, but you would never… what's the word?... tattle on me."

Remus snarled angrily and took a step forward. "There's nothing I wouldn't do anymore!" He neared her, drawing his wand from his pocket and jabbing it in her face.

Bellatrix laughed again, louder than before, so it echoed coldly in the hallway. She knocked Remus's wand from her face, and laid a long, hard kiss on his lips, before breaking away and shoving him backwards.

Remus fell to the floor, his wand bouncing away from him with a clatter. His face felt hot and his lips felt bruised. Bellatrix stood over him, looking about seven feet tall. "Run away, little wolf. Do not cross me." With that she turned on her heel and sauntered off.

With a sharp intake of breath, Remus snatched his wand and ran the rest of the way to Gryffindor Tower. He woke up the Fat Lady, who seemed deeply affronted, and muttered the password ("Vindicated!")

Remus fell into bed, his heart still racing. It was a long time before he fell asleep, staring at the back of Sirius's head.

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"Get out of my way!" Sirius growled. Remus stood shaking in the doorway. He had woken up with this brilliant plan, this epiphany. He would just have to make Sirius talk to him, force a confrontation, and maybe things would end up like they did last time- on top of a table. But now, facing the real, furious Sirius he thought that he might be bordering on insanity.

"Sirius- I need to… I need to talk to-" He tried to stammer out, but Sirius was already interrupting him.

"Remus, I really don't care what you need. Alright? So move, I need to get to breakfast!" He snarled, giving the werewolf a hefty shove. Remus let himself fall away to watch Sirius stomping out of the dormitory and down the stairs.

James brushed by as well, refusing to meet Remus's eye. When he found out what happened in the library from Sirius, James was being decidedly quiet. Lily had gotten mad at James for being like that; she seemed to think it was entirely Bellatrix's fault, and that Remus wouldn't do something like that.

So, Remus thought gloomily, on my shining list of accomplishments, I have alienating my two best friends, one of which may or may not have been my boyfriend, and caused the other to have a fight with the girl he has been trying to get for the past five years. Also, I got a Troll on my Potions essay.

Remus picked up an orb that they had been given to read whenever possible by their Divination teacher, and whipped it against the wall. There was a sickening crack, like the snapping of bones, and the orb split in half. Even more furious with himself that now he had destroyed school property, Remus quickly put the orb right and stormed down to breakfast.

James and Sirius were talking lazily, pushing their food around their plates. Neither were morning people, they couldn't eat when they weren't awake. But Remus vowed to change this.

"Wake up!" He snapped angrily, dropping his bag on the bench. "Alright, I know you two are pissed at me, even though you won't let me explain..." Sirius opened his mouth as if to interrupt, and Remus saw this as well. "Don't you interrupt; you've said enough, Black. Well, this is what I have to say. When you two are ready to be mature adults, then you can talk to me instead of muttering behind my back and James, be a man and talk to Lily, you coward."

Now that he had let it all out, Remus felt horrible. The looks on his two best friend's faces were unbearable, so he turned quickly and walked out. He had a free after breakfast, which meant James and Sirius would have lot of time to plot his downfall.

Remus found himself in the Gryffindor Common Room. All of a sudden someone knocked into him. He steadied himself to see Lily, looking rushed, leaning over him.

"God, I'm so sorry Remus, I just didn't want to miss breakfast… Wow, you look like you just got the Dementor's Kiss. What happened? Was it Black and Potter?" She asked concernedly while dragging him to his feet. As if this wasn't bad enough, Lily was now referring to James and Sirius by their last names again. It felt like last year again.

"Yes, Lily, but it was my fault, I yelled at them… Please get back together with James; I don't want to maul anymore relationships!" He said, rubbing his temples. Lily smiled and gave him a hug.

"You are so sweet, Remus." She murmured into his ear. Remus flushed slightly, and was about to refute this claim when someone else interrupted, per usual.

"Lily?" A hysterical voice cried. Remus tugged away from Lily's arms to see James standing there, looking like he had swallowed a frog, standing next to Sirius, who looked beside himself. Lily laughed, flipped her hair, and winked at Remus before trailing out of the Common Room, followed closely by James.

Sirius and Remus were left alone. Remus looked away and stepped back slightly as Sirius approached to go into the boy's dormitory. Remus swore that when he passed, Sirius muttered something.

Something that sounded suspiciously like "I hate you."

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It was the full moon again. Remus was lead by Madam Pompfrey again to the Whomping Willow. Remus had told Peter not to bother coming, a rat wouldn't be much help, and Sirius and James obviously weren't coming.

Remus sat down on the floor, waiting to feel the first pale ray of moonlight on the back of his neck, to feel his bones crunch…

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A/N: wicked look Well, this was sort of a filler chapter for what's next… I actually have a plan. Yay!

Reviewer Responses: Captain Oz- You are very welcome. Love your story! And I love making things collapse too ;) SlashyKitty- Oh you are welcome to have Bellatrix… Once I'm done with her… another wicked look QFan- Mwuhaha… fix things? I think not ;) But thanks for reviewing! checkmarks- I agree. Bellatrix killed Sirius ;; Thanks for reviewing!

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