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(A/N: Logan's thoughts are in italic, which means the voices in his head are talking to him.)
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"My mother still alive?" I can't believe what Cora said. "How the hell would you know?" I demand while getting angry. Cora sighs. 'Of course he doesn't believe me. After what he just told me, I wouldn't believe it either. Poor Logan. I would never have thought that Lynn would make her son think she was dead.'
"I know because she's living in New York with my mother."
"You mean your mother isn't here with you and your dad?"
Cora shakes her head no. "There divorced. You know how it is. Cheated with the secretary."
"I'm sorry. But what the hell is she doing in New York?"
"Well you know my mom and your mom are best friends right?"
Logan nods his head yes.
"One day she just showed up. She told us that she left Aaron, and she needed a place to stay."
I can't help it. My jaw hangs open and I just stare at her. My mother still alive? Is it true? No Logan don't start to get your hopes up again. I saw the evidence. I saw a body fall off the bridge. That's right, I saw A body fall off the bridge. That doesn't mean it was moms body.
Cora can see Logan fighting with himself. Trying to believe, but not wanting to get his hopes up.
I groan. "How is this possible? I don't understand." I bury my head in my hands. Think Logan think. There was a time when you believed without a doubt that mom would never kill herself. She left me that lighter. If she were to kill herself, she would have carried it with her.
I scrub my face with my hands and then run them through my hair. Stop it. You've had these thoughts before. Don't get your hopes up again. You know what happens when you do. Oh will you shut up? It's bad enough with myself, but to actually have conversations with other voices in my head, well that's not good.
"There you guys are. I've been looking everywhere for you." I look up and see Veronica walking over. She sees my pained expression and frowns. She sits down next to me and looks back and forth. I think she can sense the mood were in.
"What's going on? Are you ok Logan?" She puts a hand on one of my hands that are resting in my lap. She gives it a squeeze. I look over at Cora and see that she has an annoyed look on her face.
It's from being interrupted. What am I supposed to do? Do I pretend this conversation never happened? Or do I reopen the wound, also known as my heart, and talk about what's going on? Why is it getting so hard to breathe?
I loosen the tie around my neck, trying not to rip it off. I look down at my outfit and frown. Why did I pick this tux? I have others at home. I can't believe I wore the same one I wore to my mother's 'funeral'. She's not dead. Would you shut the hell up? I'm trying to think. Did Veronica ask me a question?
I stand up abruptly. "I need to get some air." And with that said, I turn around and walk away.
I walk to the opposite side of the boat. Over to where it's dark and not a lot of people around. I lean against the railing and take a deep breath.
I look above me because I hear people yelling. They throw something into the water. I look down and laugh out loud. A crowd starts to gather around me. Trying to see what all the commotion is about. There's somebody in the water. The person grabs onto the lifesaver, and the people above start to pull him up. When he gets far enough up so I can grab on and pull, with the help of the guy next to me, we haul him up and over the railing.
"Dick? What the hell man. Didya decide to take a dive?"
Once Dick stops coughing, he manages to say, "That bitch Veronica. Make her pay."
"Careful Dick. You don't want to fall overboard again."
The guy who helped me pull Dick up started laughing. I look over and see that it was Duncan.
"Get away from me."
Duncan just stared at me. "Now!" I shout.
"Logan we need to talk."
"Like hell we do."
Just then the teachers and everyone from the second level come running over.
I get up and walk away. I go up to the second level and over to where everyone just left. I lean against the railing again. I look out to the water and take a deep cleansing breath of the night air mixed in with the smell of salt water.
Someone leans on the railing next to me. Even though I can't see there face, I know who it is.
"I said get away from me Duncan."
"We need to talk. I need to explain myself. I'm sorry for hitting you. And I'm sorry for the way I've been acting. I know I've been an asshole, but if you just let me explain..."
I turn to him. He stops talking. I really look at him. As if I'm trying to see if he's telling the truth or not.
"Not now DK I have a lot on my mind." I say softly as I look away.
"Please?"
I shake my head no.
"Then just hear me out. You don't even have to say anything."
I sigh. I guess there's really no way of getting rid of him. Besides, wasn't it earlier tonight I tried to talk to him? To be friends again? Wow was that really only a few hours ago? Seems like a lifetime to me. That was also before he punched me.
I start to rub my lip and wince.
Might as well let him talk. Maybe he can drown out the voices in my head.
I walk over to the nearest table and sit down. As I expected, Duncan follows. He sits down in the chair next to me. I don't say anything. Just wait until he talks first.
Duncan takes a deep breath, then lets it out. "Where should I begin?" Duncan says it as if he's talking to himself. And still I say nothing.
Duncan sighs. "I guess I should start with you and Veronica. I know it's stupid of me. The way I've been acting. I don't know if you know any of this, but my dad and Veronica's mom used to be high school sweethearts. But it never ended at high school. Even though they both married, they were still seeing each other. I don't know why Celeste told me, but she said that Veronica was my sister." Duncan stops.
What? His sister? Veronica Kane? No way. That means Veronica and Lily were sisters. Whoa this is mind blowing. I realized Duncan was still talking. I tuned back in.
"...But Veronica told me Keith had a paternity test, and that she's not my sister. Keith Mars is her father."
"You mean...She's not your sister?"
That must be the reason all of this started between them.
"That's why you broke up with her. You thought you were dating your sister."
Duncan nods his head yes.
"Why didn't you ever tell me?"
"I don't know. Maybe because I didn't want it to be true. That if I said it out loud, it would come true."
"How long have you known she wasn't your sister?"
Duncan looks away. He doesn't say anything for a few minutes. I was about to reach over and strangle him, when he turns back to me with a sad and pleading look on his face.
"It was last week." Duncan pauses again. "The night we found out your father killed Lily."
This time I look away. I can't believe this is happening to me. Didn't this night start out fun? Wasn't I having a good time dancing with Veronica? When did it all go wrong?
Oh. Yea. It started when Duncan punched me. I look back at him. "You still love her don't you? You never stopped. You only broke up with her because you thought you had too. You still want to date her don't you? That's why you've been acting the way you were every time Veronica and I were together." Logan shakes his head. He should have known. How stupid am I?
"I thought I still loved her. All I ever thought about was getting back together. But I knew it could never happen because she was my sister. When I found out you two were together, I snapped. I lost it. I went out to my car and just started beating the shit out of it. But now," Duncan pauses. "Now things are different. When I met Cora, it was like Veronica who? Then when I got to know her better, I realized that I never felt this way about anyone before. Not ever for Veronica."
"So why did you fight me when I asked Veronica a personal, private question?"
Duncan looks down at the table. At his hands. Trying to explain his actions.
"I know I over reacted. The thought of you two getting serious, well I just snapped. I didn't mean what I said."
Duncan looks back up at me. "Veronica helped me realize that I'm not crazy. That I'm not sick. Once I realized that, everything became clear. I realized what a jerk I've been. I want to be your friend again. To be Veronica's friend. And I love Cora. I want to date her."
Whoa. Duncan and Cora? That will take some getting used too. Kind of like the thought of you and Veronica together. Who would have thought that would happen?
"Yea man. We can be friends again. You'll have to talk to Veronica about being her friend. And as for Cora? She's like my sister. You hurt her, and I will kill you."
"Thanks man." They stand up and hug.
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Alicia Jo: Lol well you will find out what Cora meant in this chapter. I'm glad you're starting to like Cora. So far she won't get in the way, hehe unless I make her. Aww, I'm glad this would have been your favorite chapter, but I couldn't have them together because they were having there own moments. Lol I hope you don't hate me for how I have Logan and Veronica in this chapter.
Angel6582: Thank you! I hope you like Duncan better in this chapter. He's not a bad guy, he's just having issues. Lol we all have those. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE VM NEWS! lol. I tried to watch lost, but I'm just not a t.v. person.
Sara: Lol didn't you know that I am also a mind reader? Lmao. He did need to be thrown over. He deserves it. Lmao Dick is a Dick. Don't hold back, let the cheer out:P Lol I have a little more Dick in this one as well.
Gossipgrl11593: Lol I'm glad you like that Veronica and Duncan have closure...It really needed to be done. As for Logan and Cora, there just friends. I think I made it clear when I had Logan say that she is like a sister to him.
BlondeNancyDrew: I like it that Duncan and Veronica are finally talking too. :P I think I answer the question of how does Cora know Lynn is alive. Hope you enjoy
Vmfan225: Hehe I knew everyone would like that Dick got thrown overboard. Yes Lynn is alive. Hope you enjoy the explanation. I'm glad you like my twist.
Shimmering Rose Petals: Lol I STILL love ur name :) Lmao and I love your review even more. Hope I answered some of your questions. Also hope you enjoy this chapter.
Kristen: Thank you :D Yea that was probably my favorite part as well. Lol Dick thinks he's a MAN, and thinks he knows what MEN need from woman. Classic. It is good that Veronica stands up for herself. I think everyone should stick up for themselves. Sends out a great message. I had a great time camping. Lmao there was a lot of mistakes, but we learned from them. And omg was it HOTT! There was no shade! But we survived. Thanks for caring. :) I feel so loved. Lol
Twisted3ljw: Dude what can I say. Lol you nailed it all. You can read my mind so freakin well. Lmao I just LOVE your reviews. You have a great way with words. Well I'll see you tomorrow at my house for this major blow out party. Love ya lots