Okay so this is my second fic in the Nsync series, they all go together so to get this one you've had to have read "It's Gonna Be You" and this one to get the next one. So ya I think that's all I have to say on this. Oh ya this song is "I Drive Myself Crazy" off their first album. Song ten I believe. Or song three on their Winter Album and yes I have all their CD's. except their greatest hits, still laugh when I see it cause its an old picture.

Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you
How Im missing you so bad

2 months, 17 days 22 hours and 49 minutes had been the last time they shared a bed, last time they cried out in the heat of passion, last time he'd felt complete. And he had himself to blame.

Where was my head?
Where was my head?
Now I cry alone in the dark

He spent most of the evenings sitting on his couch, one they had made love on several times because neither had felt like moving wallowing in self pity, he'd been stupid, he'd messed up big time and there was no way to fix it.

I lay awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you
Made a mistake
When I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way I do

Sleeping had been come almost non existent for him, waking up after just falling asleep of having dreams so real that he really felt that she was there next to him but he would always wake up to see if she was there and felt disappointed when she wasn't.

I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just how good you were to me
You confessed your love
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free

She had been acting strange for the last couple of days before he did it, thinking that she was going to break it off with him because she realized that their relationship was a joke, so he'd bet her too it.

"You've been acting really weird was it something I did?" he had asked her, thinking how hard this was killing him to do it but he had too.

"No I just realized something and it kinda scared me" she refused to meet his eyes so he mustered up the courage he had and said it the exact same time as she spoke

"I love you"

"I think we should see other people" he watched her eyes fall, he should have said something then but his mouth wouldn't work, she had calmly moved away from him gathering her jacket and shoes and was out of his apartment with nothing more than

"If that's what you want" she didn't know that's the last thing he wanted.

And now I'm left
With all this pain
I only got myself to blame

She had quit talking to him, about anything, before they had talks about silly little things about what candy they liked or disliked, pet peeves, things that really got them going but she didn't even talk to him even more, he had Grissom to thank for that, giving her the solo cases and him always working with someone so it would look a little weird if he ditched his partner to talk to her.

Why didn't I know\
How much I loved you baby
Why couldn't I show it
If I had only told you
When I had th chance
Oh I had the chance

He did have the chance to tell her, explain why he had said those words but had he? No he let it go like they never happened, they both hid it so well that no one knew anything, he was a bit grumpier than usual but he'd blame it on the case they were working on. He wanted to tell her but she would laugh in his face.

He was becoming a person he couldn't stand, when he looked in the mirror he didn't see the once spontaneous, free loving, careless person, instead he saw a crazy person and every time he would tell himself

"She's driving me crazy"