Then he kissed me.

Fearing Obsession

I thought to myself after such a confusing day.

At first I thought of Kanda.

How his arms wrapped me so quickly.

How his lips met mine like there was no regret.

Then I blushed.

And suddenly my mind thought of Rabi.

How his hands never let go of mine.

How his lips met mine like there was no lies.

Then I flustered some more.

There were so many incidents like this in my second year. But months passed without delay.

Being a year older them me, they graduated in my second year.

In graduation, I was invited to their celebration.

And it was the day we actually got to know each other.

"I live alone. I have no family whatsoever. I was alone for as long I can remember."

I told them with my head down. With embarrassment…with shame.

Then I heard small chuckles.

"I live with him. He's the only family I have."

My eyes turned to see him. His confession, honest truth upon this table that he told without hesitation.

It was awkward seeing Kanda say such something so emotional. But his eyes didn't shake. Like how mine did, it never did. It was solid, deep, and full of things I can't find.

Rabi smiled as soon as Kanda said that, nodding- agreeing.

The room had such a gentle feeling. It ushered with their scent and it felt so familiar. So this house was theirs.

"why don't you stay with us Allen?"

I looked at them in shock.

My feelings were all tangled. I couldn't name any of them at once.

"why don't you bean sprout?"

I looked at them. They two boys that allowed me to call them brothers.

Someone to call them family, someone to call them mine.

And I cried.

Even when I promised myself not to ever cry again.

I did.

Just this once.

Because I knew I had someone to catch my tears.

No one knew who I lived with in my third year.

But even all the Rabi and Kanda fans came over me.

But nonetheless, I felt happy. Since they showed me love like there was no tomorrow.

I was happy. And I showed them love as much as I can.

"Allen-kun,"

It was 4th period on a snowing day.

"I made you a scarf…just in case you're cold."

She was so adorable. Her hair came down to her shoulders, half of it was tied, looking like rabbit ears.

"wah- thank you so much!"

I smiled back at her, holding the light yellow in my hands.

The bell rang and she smiled back at me gently whispering okay and left.

I unfolded the scarf, trying to wrap it against my cold neck and I found a small paper card that wrote, To: Allen, From: Rinali.

Her name was cute too.

And this incident came down to rumors to more raining gifts.

The rest of the year was wonderful. Kanda and Rabi went to the same high school and from there became the best boys again.

In the house, we took turn doing the dishes and making food. Rabi and Kanda took turns sleeping in the bed and they had me sleep in their old bed.

My life was ordinary, but it so ahead of my expectations.

This was more than I should earn.

Before dinner, I asked if I can pray out loud and they both allowed me to.

Being so thankful, I didn't hesitate.

"Dear Heavenly Lord, thank you for everything you've rained toward me. For bringing these brothers upon me and for sharing your grace upon my studies and others. Thank you for this meal…and once again I pray that you'll pull us out of any temptations. In your precious name we pray, Amen."

After my prayer, I was so sure that they said Amen.

"what do you believe in?"

I tried to bring up a new topic.

"the same God you believe in."

Rabi told me, and I nodded, relieved.

"then you guys must believe in exorcism!"

And for a moment, I saw both their eyes go wide.

Then they nodded.

Maybe it was rude for me to bring up such a topic through a meal.

"have you ever seen one?"

My eyes looked at Kanda with interests.

"not in real life..but in movies."

"movies are just gay. They twisted everything too much."

Rabi simply answered, taking a spoonful of rice.

"h-have you guys ever seen one?"

I asked. Expecting an answer silently.

It was silent.

I looked at them. And I saw Rabi stare at Kanda, and I saw Kanda stare at Rabi.

"..no.."

They both answered at the same time.

And the awkward dinner ended.

That was the meal I remember the most.

Now it's high school.

It's my first year, and it's Rabi and Kanda's second year.

I'm not sure what we're gonna go through. But everything is gonna be in details now!

I could've written more but I think this was like the transition I needed to make so I'll stop here.

Wow! Senior Ticky! THAT'S SO AWESOME!

I think that'll add some twists.

And what is this with exorcism!

...ever wondered how Rabi and Kanda gets the money?

TeeHee. GUESS! GUESS!