Title: And if it Happens to Rain
Author: Assassin of the Shadows (AOTS)
Rating: T - Teen (because I like T's)
Pairings: If you know me, it should be obvious by now...
Summary: It's funny how a simple action from you can cause me to remember the oddist of things. There you go leaving me, and I'll I can hear is a song as clear as day from so long ago...
Word Count: 1 796
Pages: 6
Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade, the characters within, or the merchandise, I am merely borrowing characters for personal enjoyment, and sharing this enjoyment with others.
Warnings: Fluff, shonen-ai, an odd song...
And if it Happens to Rain
There was a song I remember hearing, when we touring in America. It strikes me as odd, as to why every time I see you walking away that song comes back to me; and when it does, it's not fuzzy or choppy, it doesn't play in my mind to a quick pace like some idiot hit fast forward. It's loud, clear, slow, that strong voice tumbles through my head and suddenly everything that artist must have been feeling, hits me like a tidal wave.
But this only happens when you walk away, this only happens when suddenly have to say good-bye…
And maybe if the others knew about what I'm thinking, they would probably laugh. Or perhaps they would just look at me oddly, because it should be the other way around. I'm the one always walking away, and you're the one always watching me go, wishing you had some way to bring me back.
I'm not trying to sound like I'm bragging, or that I'm saying, "I'm just that good". It's simply my knowing that every time I turn; you're watching my back, frantically searching for some thing that will catch my attention again. Something that will make me wants to stay.
So maybe I'll let you continue to think that all those battle challenges sucker me in, but I know, that sooner or later I'll tell you, that it was just your voice alone, that brought me back. You always bring me back…
So I demand to know, why after all this time, you feel I should understand why you have to walk away from me. Do you think I care that it is getting dark out; do you think it matters to me whether or not your grandfather will be angry?
But you stand there with the setting sun's light reflecting off your face and hair, and tell me you have to leave. You smile so sweetly at me that I almost want to forgive you, almost.
And it's in these doorways that that song rushes back to me; and somehow, for some reason I'm filled with this urge to sing it to you… but I can't-
The sun's falling into a black sky
Somehow it should look more depressing
To me but it doesn't and I can't place why
I guess I'm just lost by the way that light
Hits your face so gently it gives me a sudden urge
To taste your skin to hold you close and tight to me
And if it happens to rain
Well that would be a shame
Because I'd have to invite you in again
And if it happens to rain, and comes down thick
I'll be your shelter; I'll be your comfort
I'll be you warmth if it just happens to rain
I know what it feels like to wish desperately for rain, to be mischievously happy to know that I have no umbrellas in this house. If it were to rain, you would be stuck with me…
But God is cruel sometimes, and he seems to take a great pleasure in tormenting me with clear skies and beautiful backgrounds. Is it too much to ask for a large storm? A blizzard would be nice too, he would have to stay longer if the roads and sidewalks were buried by snow.
Damn this country for its warm climate and pitiful snow falls!
No matter how much I curse though, it won't change the fact that everyone is leaving and sooner or later you'll be right behind them gathering your stuff and your shoes. Whatever happened to good ol' fashioned parties, where you "rock till you drop" and then crash on something in the host's living room? I swear I would ignore every broken thing, if that will keep you here!
And I want you to stay, and somewhere inside my heart and my mind, I know, that if I just ask for you to stay, you would… and somehow that frightens me in ways you may not imagine; because inside this house is me, and I don't know what you'll see, and I don't know if you'll like what you see.
And that's what causes me to freeze in front of you, holding the door open, face blank and eyes wide, as if you leaving me have no effect on me whatsoever.
But it does-
The party's long and ended
But you always stay and help
Clean up the mess of others because
That's what you do, because that's just you
But the clap of thunder is so loud right now
Going outside isn't such a good idea right now
I wish I could invite you back inside
I wish this house didn't represent my life
So you couldn't see just what kind of man I could be
A roaring sound clashes overhead and it causes you to jump-
"Woah! That was a big one, huh?"
I only nod and grunt a response, this is all I can do in front of you. If I speak I fear it would come out in a series of squeaks or differ in pitch. That's how nervous you make me feel.
Friends shouldn't feel like this…
And if it happens to rain
Well that would be a shame
Because I'd have to invite you in again
And if it happens to rain, and comes down thick
I'll be your shelter; I'll be your comfort
I'll be your warmth if it just happens to rain
And yes I consider you my friend, I don't say it very often, but that doesn't change how I feel! You know what kind of person I am, I can't continuously say how I feel about you, you are my friend, and nothing will change that.
Nothing.
I know that the thought of us being friends is odd, and I know that the couple of times you informed people of this they gave us funny looks –and I don't blame them.
I agree with what they're thinking.
Is this a joke; are you serious, friends with him? How can that be possible? But it is possible, it's completely unlikely that we would be friends but we are! We complement each other.
You are the voice; I am the silence. You are bright and colorful; I am brooding and dark. You are optimistic; I am pessimistic. You are full of life and energy; I am full of calm and maturity. We understand one another; we know one another. It's just how we are; and we need that.
…
We… need that…
How we met, how we got together
Always seems to baffle me because we're
So different from one another so different
Because we complete one another
In the oddest of ways
It confuses almost everyone who
Knows us, how can we ever be friends
How can we share the same air
How can we understand one another with
Just a stare, how, how, how
But none of that matters if we don't do something! If I don't do something.
I know! It's confusing, but I know-!
That when you walk away from me, with your back straight yet always with an amazing casual slouch, you walk slowly.
Are you waiting for me?
Do you honestly think I know what your secret word is? Do you honestly think I know what I'm supposed to say? This is not the first time you have left me; I still don't know the answer! I don't know…
But no matter how wonderful we can be
You're always walking away
Your back is always to me and I never have
Anything left to say
I never have anything good enough that
Would make you want to stay
And if it happens to rain
Well that would be a shame
Because I'd have to invite you in again
And if it happens to rain, if it comes down thick
I'll be your shelter; I'll be your comfort
I'll be your warmth if it just happens to rain
And somehow, constantly that song throbs in my mind taunting me. Yet it comforts me as well, because maybe I'm not alone, maybe there are others who don't know what to say. But somehow this song fits me because it could help so much, it could tell you so much… of how badly I need you to hold me sometimes, and how much I need to know if you can love me- That I love you!
I want you to know so badly. Just how much your walking hurts me inside…
Sometimes I wish I could tell you
Just how much I could mean to you
But the fear of you knowing, seeing me
And loving me seems like such an oddity
I just can't open my mouth to say
I don't want you to leave me again!
WHAT IS THE ANSWER!
"Tyson!"
Large silver eyes blink at me. He seems shocked by my calling him, but so satisfied. Oh my, did I really just…?
"Kai? What is it?"
His name.
Was it always his name? All this time I assumed it would have to be a battle or a conversation. Or my confession.
But all this time, it was something as simple as calling out his name…
How it hurts me when you walk away
I have sunshine in my house
But only when you're there
I have a personalized angel's chorus
But only when you talk to me
I have someone I can love but
Only when you're with me
"Kai…?"
"I think it's going to rain, Tyson. That thunder doesn't sound to good… maybe you should stay here tonight."
Why is looking so hesitant? "Oh no, the weatherman said thunder, nothing about-"
"No, it's going to rain, I'm sure of it. So, do you want to spend the night?"
A smile of relief comes to his face, and I think I'm dancing inside, I won!
I know I did! I finally won! "Yeah, I think I should spend the night…"
And as I move aside to let him through, water falls upon my face. Small wet droplets of water. Tyson's face looks priceless. It's now pouring.
"Well, what do you know?"
I can't help it, I laugh, "Excellent timing, because I think… it's time to have a very important conversation…"
And if it happens to rain outside (I'd really like for it to rain)
I would start jumping inside
Because I would have to invite you in again
And if it happens to rain outside I hope it's pouring
Cats and dogs because I have the urge to hold you and talk
My house will be your shelter I'll be your blanket
I'll keep you warm tonight
If it just happens to rain
End
Thank you for reading! I hope you all enjoyed it. Before anyone asks, I can't give you the name of the band for this song, I made it up as I went along, because someone told me you could no longer do songfics (but they can't stop me from typing in my own song and adding it...) so I'm sorry if this disappoints some of you. My friend, Kevin, has aband, and he requested these lyrics to sing for his future gigs. So if you're in downtown Toronto check some of the local clubs to see if "Broken Desires" (I think that's there new name now) is playing, you might hear this song!
Oh, also, this is not the sequal to "Most Precious Person" but I am on the verge of finishing it! If you haven't read Most Precious Person, please check my profile and check it out!
Please leave a review and tell me what you think!