Confused

Chapter 9- Nobody Til You Part 1

Jay-

I have to admit I had fun at Jimmy's house. Once you get to know him he's no that bad of a person. Emma and I left his house around two and I was destined to have some "alone" time with her.

"I guees my Mom isn't here," Emma said looking through the house.

"Wait Em, here's a note."

"Went out with Caytlin I should be back for dinner if not Ileft money for pizza. Love You Mom," Emma said reading the note.

"SoI guessshe'll be gone all day."

"Yeah I guess so."

"So that means we'll have the house to ourselves ALL day. No interuptions"

"Yea what do you have in mind?"

"Oh I think you know Emma," I started kissing her.

"No I don't think I know," She said ripping off my shirt.

"You don't? Cause it seems like you do."

"Nope."

"Well, I might just have to show you." I began to lead Emma to her room still kissing her.

"Jay watch the st-" We fell down the stairs. "Stairs."

"You okay," I said laughing.

"Hey it's not funny we could've broken something," She said playfully hitting me in the arm.

"Calm down. No where were we? Oh I know right about here," I attacked her tounge with mine. I couldn't control myself I wanted Emma here and now. I pulled her shirt over her head and quickly got on top of her.

"Jay, Jay wait a second."

"What."

"Can we go to my bed? The floor is uncomfortable and cold."

"Uh sure anything foryou ." I started walking over to her bed and noticed she was behind me.

"Emma are you coming," I asked without turning around.

"Uh huh," She came up behind me and wrapped her arms around my waist.

"Em what are you doing."

"Oh nothing. I just felt like hugging you," Then she unzipped my pants and they fell to my ankles.

"Emma!"

"What," She said with a laugh.

"Oh soyou think that's funny do you. Well you haven't seen funny yet," I chased her around the room than tackled her to the bed.

"Roll over Em."

"Why."

"Cause I can't get ur bra off if you don't." She rolled over and I took it off and flipped her back over and kiss her. "Emma?"

"Yea."

"Your sure about this right. No doughts."

"Yea," she said with a nod. "Just do it now before I change my mind."

"No, Emma seriously are you sure?"

"Yeah, postive."

Emma-

It was great that Jay cared so much about me being sure of what we were going to do. He quickly began pulling my skirt and underwear off of me and throwing them onto the floor. I wasn't scared, this was Jay and he wouldn't do anthing to hurt me. He took off his pants then his boxers and got a weird look on his face.

"Jay what's wrong? Why'd you stop," I said sitting up.

"We can't do this Emma."

"Why the hell not. I've been waiting for this forever"

"I don't have a condom. There all in the van at the ravine. "

"Here," I reached over into the drawer next to my bed and handed him one.

"Okay Emma you could have saved me this embarassment if I would have known."

"Sorry. You never asked." He slid it on and started kissing my neck. I guess it was to make me calmer. He slowly got inside of me and it hurt like hell.

"Em, you okay?"

"Uh huh," I said wincing.

He kissed my forehead. "Shhhh." That's when the worst thing EVER happened. My phone rang.

"Damn."

"No, Jay it's okay just let it ring."

"Emma noit's a mood ruiner just answer it."

"Hello?" It was Alex.

"Emma I need your help," She said sounding kind of frantic.

"What's wrong? Where are you?"

"No I'm fine it's nothing big I just need your advice on something."

"Well, what is it?"

"It's just that I think I'm ready to take the next step with Jimmy in our realationship."

"What the hell are you doing talking to me? Go for it."

"Yea but I'm still having second thoughts."

"Okay why. It's not like he- hold on." I got up and went into the bathroom locking the door behind me. "It's not like he's your first.

"Yea but I didn't give a shit about all those other guys. I really care about Jimmy."

"Just go with what your heart says not your head okay. You'll be fine. Don't be scared Jimmy won't hurt you."

"I never said I was scared but thanksanyway Emma you were a big help." Then she hung up. I went back into my room and grabbed some pajama pants off the floor and put them on with a shirt that was next to them.

"Emma why'd you put your clothes back on?"

"Cause Jay. I really don't feel like sex anymore. Sorry."

"It's okay."

"Wanna just lay down for a while?"

"Sure." He cuddled up into my back laying his head on my arm.

"Uh Jay."

"Yea."

"Are you going to get dressed."

"Nope. Why do you want me to?"

"Well. It wouldn't hurt."

"Oh I get it. You don't want my you know what on you."

"I didn't say that."

"But you thought it. Didn't you Emma," he said tickeling me.

"No I have no problem with it."

"Really.Prove it,give me your hand."

"No, Jay that's just No."

"So you'll have it in your mouth but not in your hand. That makes no sence Emma none at all."

"Jay just shut up and put some pants on."

"See you don't want it touching you."

"No Jay I don't you have no cl-"

"I'm going to stop you there Emma. I know what you were going to say now just think about that before you say it."

"Okay never mind. But still have you had it on your back? No i don't think so."

"What ever Em."

Jay-

I hope Emma knows that I was just kidding.

Emma-

Jay can be so evil sometimes I know he was just playing around but still. I dunno maybe I didn't want IT touching me. It's just too weird.After our playful little argument I soon fell asleep.