Dearka & Miriallia
Author's Notes: Wow! In one week I have written 7 chapters. That's a chapter a day. I hope you guys really like it and that I'm not missing any important details. I don't want it to drag like a soap opera where three weeks later you come back to watch and you are still in the same story arc, but I don't want it to go too fast either where too many things happen too quickly. Let me know how you think the speed of the scenes is really going. Can you imagine yourself in the room with them or do I need more imagery and emotions to slow it down? Let me know. Thanks again for the support everyone!
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Chapter 7 RejectedCadey sat in the room with Annabella and just stared at the little girl.
"So, can you talk?" she asked expecting an answer.
Annabella smiled and just cooed at her.
"Guess not," Cadey said looking at the girl.
Annabella stood up and began walking around the room.
"So, it seems you can walk at least," she was slightly indifferent by it.
Annabella looked at her now and clapped her hands giggling gleefully.
"I wonder what your name is anyway," she now wondered out loud.
The little girl stopped in her tracks and ran up to her to give her a hug still laughing.
"Well, you are definitely cute. I have to admit that," Cadey said now smiling at the little thing.
The door swished open to Dearka's quarters and Cadey's eyes filled with excitement, only to fall just as quickly.
"Hey Ian," she said depressed.
"Good to see you too," he said tossing a bag at her.
"What's this?" she asked raising an eyebrow.
"It's Annabella's bag," Ian said.
"Annabella?" she asked.
"Yeah, the little girl you have there with you," he said.
"How do you know her name? Is it on the bag somewhere or something?" she asked while flipping the bag in all directions.
"Nope," he said as he walked to sit on the bed.
Cadey eyed him curiously now.
"So, how do you know then?" she asked.
He smiled at her with a stupid grin. He always knew how to irritate her.
"Would you just tell me already?" she yelled.
"Remember the girl I was supposed to meet for coffee. This is the little girl that was with her and I was introduced to her already," he said now his face sporting a frown.
"Oh, Ian, I'm really sorry. Will the girl be okay?" she asked sincerely.
"I think so. Dearka is with her right now to see if she can wake up and give us any information about the mission," Ian explained to her.
"Well, you should get down there too. She is the girl you were supposed to go on a date with. You should be there. Wouldn't it just be so romantic if you were there when she opened her eyes?" she asked now starry eyed.
"We weren't going on a date, it was just coffee. But yeah, I guess it would seem romantic," he said.
Cadey stood up from her place and walked over to him. She reached down and gave her old friend a hug.
"I'll even take, Annabella," she paused, "to see this girl of yours and see if she's awake in a little while."
"She's not my girl Cadey," Ian said rolling his eyes.
"Who knows? She may be by the end of it," Cadey said, Cupid now flying around her head.
Ian just dropped his head. He was in for quite a bit of trouble if Cadey was getting herself involved. She has such a habit of sticking her nose where it doesn't belong.
"I definitely don't envy Dearka in any way," he thought while Cadey nosed around.
Ian stood from the bed and made his way to the door.
"I'll be down there in a few with this cute little thing," Cadey said now tickling little Annabella.
"Dearka's right she does have a familiar look," Ian said.
"She probably does to you since you know her mother," Cadey said.
"She said it was her little sister when I met her," Ian answered.
"Oh, well then, siblings have similar genes right?" Cadey replied.
"I guess that's what it is," Ian said as he exited the room.
Back in the infirmary…"No, I'm sorry Annabella! Please, forgive me!"
Dearka began to wake from his slumber and looked up at Miriallia.
"Miriallia," he said shaking her gently.
She was talking in her sleep.
"It looks like she is having a nightmare," he thought feeling groggy.
"No, Annabella, I can't lose you too!"
Dearka watched her begin to thrash about and he tried to hold her down gently. His arm brushed by her wrist and something hard hit him.
"Ouch!" he thought feeling the pain.
Dearka saw the object that bruised his arm.
"That's where that went! I was looking for that forever when I departed the Archangel. I was insane for that stupid thing for a while," he thought noticing what hit him.
There on her wrist was his watch that he realized he must have dropped so long ago.
"She still has it and is wearing it no less," he thought smiling.
He had to smile to himself at the way she held on to mementos of the past. He was quickly jerked out of his dreamy state as she began thrashing again.
"Annabella, no…"
At that moment, Ian walked through the door.
"Dearka!" he exclaimed.
"Help me will you? Miriallia is freaking out," he said.
Ian ran over to help and was able to hold her down long enough for Dearka to grab a syringe from the drawer. He inserted it into the IV tube and the boys watched Miriallia's body fall into a calm state.
"Miriallia, it's okay now," Ian spoke softly.
The sedative Dearka had given her worked extremely fast.
"Dearka? How did you know her name?" Ian asked now confused.
"Umm…I," Dearka stuttered.
Ian raised his eyebrows with a bit of interest.
"We…well," he was now rubbing the back of his head.
"I am a horrible mother. He will never forgive me," Miriallia said softly in her sleep.
The boys both looked at her with shock on both their faces.
"Huh?" Dearka questioned.
Realization hit, the little girl that was here must be her child. She probably met someone after he left.
"I should have known she wouldn't wait for me. And why should she? I didn't wait for her," he thought with his guilt rising.
Dearka left the bedside and closed the curtain. Ian followed pushing it out of his way to get through.
"What's up?" Ian asked.
"Nothing. I just knew her a long time ago, that's all," Dearka said forlornly.
Dearka looked up at Ian, again taking in what Ian had said when he rushed over to help him.
"Hey wait a minute, how did you know her name?" Dearka asked.
"Well, funny story actually," Ian started.
It was now Dearka's turn to raise his eyebrows at the young coordinator.
"You see, she was the girl I was supposed to meet for coffee. You know the one in the car rental line," he said laughing to himself uncomfortably.
Dearka let out a sigh as Miriallia woke up letting out a scream. Both boys attention were drawn to her panicked voice. Dearka took a step forward and then thought again.
"Maybe it's best if she doesn't see me," Dearka thought now moving back to his spot behind the curtain.
"Hey, Ian. Do me a favor and don't mention me to her, okay?" Dearka pleaded.
"Huh?" Ian said.
Miriallia screamed again, "Annabella, no…"
Ian nodded his head as he ran through the curtain to help Miriallia. Dearka now began to step backwards toward the door, never taking his eyes off the curtain.
"Miriallia, it's okay. It's me, Ian. Do you remember me?" Ian asked.
Miriallia looked and saw the handsome man she had met earlier that day. This was enough to calm her down slightly.
"Ian? Where's Annabella? Where's my little girl?" she asked petrified.
Before Ian could speak, Miriallia began to ramble. Dearka was so close to the door but unable to leave and he was unsure why. He stood in his place and listened to her voice.
"It should be me in there. I should let her know that I'm here," he thought angrily.
"I was so horrible to her. I didn't want her. I made my mother care for her. If he knew, he would hate me. Why did he leave me?" she cried tears of utter sorrow.
Ian tried to speak again. He wanted to reassure her that Annabella was safe and sound, but was cut off again.
"I hated her. She was everything that reminded me of… I just didn't want to remember anymore. I never wanted to hurt her. That's why I gave her over to my mother. I couldn't possibly love her. But then, why is it hurting so much," Miriallia continued to sob.
Dearka listened to her confession.
"This isn't the Mir I know. What happened to her? How could she hate her child?" he thought feeling as though she was a completely different person than the one he had met two years prior.
"Miriallia, it's okay. Annabella is fine. She wasn't hurt. We have her," Ian said as he embraced Miriallia in a hug.
She continued to cry the words hitting her hard.
"She's…okay?" Miriallia said.
"She's fine. To tell you the truth, I thought she was your little sister when you said you were stuck with her while your parents were gone," Ian said.
Miriallia kept crying and Ian held tight to her. Dearka was now furious. He couldn't believe it. He never expected her to do such a thing.
"An innocent child? I don't get it. What could have made her feel that miserable over a small angel?" he thought unable to understand her reasons.
Dearka's anger continued to rise as he heard Ian calming Miriallia down. Finally he exploded. Angrily he threw open the curtain and began to yell at her. Miriallia's eyes filled with fear and shock when she saw him standing in front of her.
"Mir, what are you talking about? How could you throw away your own child?" Dearka screamed.
"Dearka?" she asked confused.
"Dearka, calm down man," Ian said pushing him back.
"I will not calm down, because this is insane," he continued.
"Dearka but please, you don't understand," she spoke choking back her tears.
Cadey was walking down the hall with Annabella when she heard Dearka screaming at someone.
"What's wrong with him?" she thought hearing the yells.
She moved more quickly now as Annabella held on tight to her neck. She poked her head in but was unable to see the commotion, only hear it due to the curtain being drawn. Quietly she slipped in the room and hid behind the changing shade with Annabella. As she put Annabella down, she put her finger up to her mouth indicating Annabella should stay quiet. The little girl was able to understand and stayed on the floor where she was placed. Cadey continued to listen in on the conversation.
"You know what, you're right, I don't understand. Probably because we're coordinators, we don't throw away our children like they're nothing. God Mir, you gave birth to that child, you carried her inside of you, you even felt her grow and then you just gave her away? What on Earth would possess you to do something like this?" He was so enraged now that his face was turning a slight shade of red.
Ian couldn't believe Dearka was yelling at Miriallia like that. He knew he didn't understand their relationship, but it seemed a bit harsh for Dearka to say to someone who was just a friend.
"You don't know all right!" Miriallia cried out gaining her fire again.
All Dearka could do was yell back at her. He just didn't get why she would give away her baby. He didn't know what happened in her life to bring her to this point, but he was going to find out.
"I don't know why you would do such a horrible thing? But, what I do know is that was a very selfish and heartless thing for you to do. I thought you were someone who was above all that. I guess I was wrong about you. You know what, I'm glad I didn't come back now. I'm glad that my parents pulled that arranged marriage out and threw it at me. And I'm glad that I'm not with someone like you anymore!" he screamed.
Miriallia's eyes filled up with tears.
"How can he say such things to me? He told me he loved me once. Was that all a lie?" Miriallia thought feeling she was being pushed beyond her limits.
"That's enough Dearka. Just stop it now!" Ian shouted at his commander.
Dearka pushed Ian away from him.
"Don't tell me what to do Ian. This is none of your business," Dearka ordered.
Cadey squatted down next to little Annabella and kept her hand over her mouth. She had never heard Dearka so upset. She hadn't imagined he had someone serious in his life before they were engaged. Thoughts started to run through her head.
"Dearka is mine. What is going on here? Who is that girl?" Cadey thought her eyes slitting upon hearing the voices.
Miriallia and Dearka's eyes locked on each other with so much rage flashing in them. Ian had his hands gripping Dearka's uniform jacket to keep him from attacking Miriallia.
"It's not like you were some poor girl on the street. You had plenty of support. Your family, your friends and you could have come to me. I would have helped you," Dearka cried out at her.
Miriallia's eyes flashed with such fury now at that remark.
"I had you? You think I had you? You walked away from me Dearka. You left me and promised to come back. You never did. I didn't want her because I didn't want to be reminded of you every moment of my life. First I lost Tolle and then I lost you, but the thing is Tolle couldn't come back to me, you could have! You chose not too. That's why I didn't want her," Miriallia confessed.
Both Dearka and Ian stumbled back a few steps.
"Did I just hear her right? Did she just say Dearka is Annabella's father?" Ian thought confused.
Cadey's eyes slit with anger at what she heard.
"I don't believe it! That son of a bitch, how could he do this to me?" Cadey thought wanting to jump out and kill him.
Ian let go of Dearka's jacket and turned to look at Miriallia.
"I think I should go. You two should talk. Not yell, but talk," Ian said thoughtfully.
An overwhelming feeling of depression ripped through him. He couldn't believe what he had just heard. He pulled open the curtain and began to exit the room. He couldn't bear to look at the two of them. He really liked Miriallia when he met her.
"I have no chance if she was in love with Dearka. And, especially not if Annabella is his child," Ian thought feeling helpless.
Cadey continued to hide in the corner behind the shade and prayed that Ian wouldn't look her way. She wasn't sure what she was going to do yet, but she knew she couldn't leave until she heard what her fiancée had to say for himself. Dearka stared at Miriallia with shock still written all over his face.
"My child?" Dearka thought not knowing what to say.
"Well?" she asked.
He couldn't put words together fast enough to say anything to her.
"Wow, you were so vocal just a moment ago. You had so much to say to me about what I did and didn't do. Now you can't even say one word?" Miriallia questioned coldly.
"How could you?" Dearka asked.
Miriallia raised her head to him with tears still streaming down her face. The pain was coursing through her body from the accident as well. She flinched a little from her injuries. Dearka was about to move to help her when he saw her hand go up in order to stop him.
"I don't want YOU anywhere near me," she said.
Dearka blinked with surprise.
"Weren't you the one that just said you were glad you weren't with someone like me anymore?" she now asked him.
"I…" he stopped.
He didn't know what to say. He was at a loss again.
"Why did I say that? What is wrong with me?" he thought unable to gather his emotions under control.
"It doesn't matter. Our daughter is safe. She wasn't hurt and this experience just made me realize how wrong I was and how much I do love her. But, I don't want you anywhere near me," she said with more calm in her voice now.
"That's not even fair Miriallia. You didn't even tell me. I could have helped you, or if you didn't want her, I would have," he stated with his newly restored ability to speak.
Miriallia just sat in her bed and looked upon him. He was even more handsome than the day he left the Archangel, but she could never admit it to him. He left her and never returned. She thought something happened to him at first and then realized how stupid she was being. He never intended to come back.
"I never said I didn't want her!" she yelled.
"Yes you did!" he yelled back.
"You misunderstood," she snipped.
"You said it over and over again. How could I possibly misunderstand that? I thought the baby was someone else's. Maybe, you had moved on and made a mistake with someone. But when you spoke the way you did, like a monster, I couldn't understand. That wasn't the Miriallia I left on the Archangel. She would have never treated anything so sweet with such heartlessness!" Dearka exclaimed.
"You're right, it wasn't the Miriallia you left on the Archangel. It was the one you created when you broke your promise to return to her," Miriallia answered.
"Well, now I know why she looked so familiar to me. She looks kind of like me," Dearka thought thinking back on the few moments he spent walking the little girl to his room with Ian earlier.
"I have to go. I'm going to check on my daughter and fiancée," Dearka said turning on his heel.
"Huh?" Miriallia said as she looked at his retreating form.
"I have obligations and I don't intend to break them. Not for someone who would do something that cruel to my child," he said without looking back.
"Dearka, please," Miriallia now cried out for him.
He stood in place for a moment, balling his fists by his sides.
"I just never thought you were like this. Not after everything you did for me and everything we shared back then," Dearka stated.
He started to walk toward the exit and Cadey pulled Annabella back against the wall. Now she was hoping Dearka wouldn't see her in there either.
"Do you love her?" Miriallia asked.
"Who?" Dearka replied.
"Your fiancée?" she asked him again.
Cadey listened intently.
"Of course he loves me!" Cadey thought angrily.
"There's a saying I've come to use to get me through each day. 'If you can't be with the one you love, love the one you're with'," he said as he continued out the door.
Miriallia's eyes widened at his remark.
"Does he mean he still loves me?" Miriallia thought while deciphering the saying.
Dearka continued down the hall now and toward his quarters. He wanted to meet Annabella and this time he wanted to be the one to hold his baby in his arms. Cadey still hid and was paralyzed by what Dearka had told this tramp. She thought about what she needed to do to make sure she didn't come between them.
"Dearka is mine and I know exactly what I need to do in order to secure him!" Cadey thought with an idea racing to her mind.
Miriallia looked down at her hands. They were cut and bruised from the accident. Her body ached and she wished none of this had ever happened.
"What have I done? He's right; I'm nothing but a monster. How could I do that to him or to Annabella?" Miriallia thought realizing her own faults.
Cadey now needed a way out of the room with Annabella.
"What do I do now? I can't let anyone see me or I'll never get away with this," Cadey thought trying to figure out a way to pull off her newest feat.
As she thought this, the doctor entered the room. Cadey peeked around the shade to get a glimpse of Miriallia.
"Well, she is pretty, that's for sure. But how could Dearka love her more than me?" Cadey thought irritated.
The doctor began to speak, "Oh, you're awake. I'm so glad to see you up and about."
As soon as the two were in a deep conversation, Cadey grabbed Annabella and slipped out the door.
"What was that?" Miriallia asked looking around the doctor.
"Oh probably just the soldiers running by. They do that a lot around here. They are extremely busy with the mission they are undergoing," the doctor replied.
"Oh," Miriallia acknowledged.
Although, something didn't seem right to her and she couldn't put her finger on it.
"It just feels like I was being watched," Miriallia thought feeling an empty feeling in her heart.
She felt as though she was about to lose something precious.
End
Author's Preview: Wow, Chapter 7 is completed. I can't believe how fast these thoughts are coming out to my little fingers to type. And guess what everyone; Chapter 8 is almost done too. So how's it going? Are you shocked? Are you confused? Are you really excited I put something (more like someone) in to bond Dearka and Mir in the future? Anyway, let me know what you think so I can develop the rest of Chapter 8. Please read and review for me so I can continue on my happy way.
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