Regret of Deceiving

Chapter Eight

"I'm sorry" Part One

Last Time:

"Yeah I'm okay don't worry bout me. I'll see you tomorrow."

"Okay bye"

"bye"

Miroku left the room and went to his car and drove off to his house. Kagome gathered her stuff and went to the front office and told them she was fine and then she went to the bus stop and took the bus to school to get her car. She got in her car and headed home.

'Inuyasha I'm sorry'

Now:

Kagome parked her car in her drive way and went inside her house. Her dad wasn't home as usual at this time. She went to the kitchen and started dinner. She decided to cook a stew so she cut beef and threw it in the pot with water. Then she got started on cutting the vegetables.

What Miroku said plagued her mind it stung her heart and it seemed all the anger she had drifted away. The only emotions she had was sadness and depression.

'He hates me, he probably can't even look at me now, I'm probably just in his way. I'm just a waste of life. He doesn't love me anymore. I know he's happy with Kikyo and I should let them be, but its too hard I love him so much.'

"Ouch!"

Kagome's thoughts stopped when she accidentally cut herself with the knife. She ripped part of her shirt off and wrapped it around her finger to stop the bleeding.

"I'm in no mood to cook. I don't care if dad hits me I just want to die right now."

So she turned off the stove and went up stairs to her room. She passed by her mirror and stopped. She walked back to the mirror and looked at her reflection. Her eyes widened when she noticed that her eyes turned to a dark blue and her skin turned white.

'my sadness and depression is coming into view.'

Kagome couldn't stand her reflection, she hold out her hand and grit her teeth. The mirror started to vibrate and she broke it.

"seven years of bad luck who cares"

She walked away from the mirror not caring if she stepped on the pieces making her feet bleed. She walked to her computer and turned it on. When it started up and she signed in her AIM buddy list popped up.

'beep'

XxDemonxSlayerxX: (Sango) hey kags ur home I thought u wud hav 2 stay da hosp.

xxkagomexxcutiexx: hey sango nah I healed fast n went home r u ok?

XxDemonxSlayerxX: yea I'm fine how bout u?

xxkagomexxcutiexx: I'm ok

XxDemonxSlayerxX: so u gonna go 2 skool 2morrow?

xxkagomexxcutiexx yea wat bout u?

XxDemonxSlayerxX: yea well c ya 2morrow

XxDemonxSlayerxX signed off

"Yeah see you tomorrow Sango"

'there's no reason for me to live I can't have the man I love and my dad hates me I'm just a waste of life.'

She signed off and went to her bed and laid down, but soon Kagome fell asleep.

A couple hours later her father came home, and noticed the food wasn't done.

'that damn bitch of mine'

He went up stairs to Kagome's room and kicked the door open waking up Kagome.

"You fuckin' didn't make mine dinner wench!"

"…"

"I give you money to buy clothes and things you need and I give you a home and room of your own and you don't make me dinner! UNGRATEFUL LIL' WENCH! I can never call you my daughter!"

"dad I…"

Slap!

Kagome fell to the ground and looked up to her father.

"you hurry up and make dinner!"

"yes sir"

Kagome got up and walked down to the kitchen and got started finishing dinner. When she was done she went up stairs into her bathroom and looked in the mirror at her reflection of her face.

'he didn't even noticed I changed. Oh well. WHOA! That's gonna leave a bruise I won't heal it this time.'

She walked out of the bathroom and back to her room and called up her grandpa.

Ring ring

Ring ring

Ring ring

Hello?

Hi grandpa it's me Kagome

Kagome! Where were you today?

I'll tell you tomorrow I'm sorry I couldn't make it today I had some delays that made me stay back. I promise I'll come tomorrow to train.

Okay Kagome, but you have to tell me why you were delayed.

Yes grandpa I will

Okay Kagome good night tell your father to get a life and a good paying job

Yes grandpa I will good night

Click

Kagome put the phone back onto the receiver and laid down in bed.

"I might as well good to sleep I'm not hungry"

With that Kagome went to bed, but she didn't eat anything all day, but she didn't care she didn't care about anything now.

The next morning:

Kagome got up and got ready for school. She decided to wear a light blue skirt that went about an inch above her and a white blouse with small white flowers on it.

She got her bag and went to her car and drove to school.

When she arrived she parked her car and got out of her car and then she noticed someone was waiting for here.

"Still walking are we?"

Kagome turned her head and looked in the direction the voice came from.

'Kikyo'

"Ha! You have a bruise on your cheek where did you get that?"

"…"

"Come on you can't be that mad you got hurt and I didn't"

"…"

"Inuyasha is fed up with you, you know?"

Kagome's eyes widened and couldn't believe what Kikyo was saying.

"Yes. He told me everything you said at the hospital. How you don't think of him as a friend and how you don't think of me as a friend."

'Please not my secret! Please not my secret!'

"Also…that…"

'NOOO!'

"You're a miko and you know what he doesn't give a damn your just in his way to be ultimately happy give up! If you want him to forever be happy…"

"Kagome closed her eyes and shook her head.

'I can't believe he told! I was right I'm just in his way! Inuyasha!'

"disappear"

"huh?"

"you heard me disappear."

"Disappear?"

"You know the way pure spiritual mikos commit suicide? Disappear"

'Grandpa told me about disappear I don't remember everything he told me about it. I can ask him tonight.'

"Think about it. It's the only way he can be happy if your not here in his way."

Then Kikyo walked away into the school. Kagome couldn't take all what she heard from Kikyo.

'Disappear? Leave everyone I know and love? I should think about this.'

Kagome put on her mask and took her books and bag and went inside the school.

'Hopefully my bruise won't cause to much of a commotion.'

Kagome walked into the doors of the school and into a group of people with wide eyes. Kagome took a look at what they were doing they all put up signs and banners saying 'get well soon Kagome! And We wait for you with happy smiles and prayers' They all gathered around her and asked her if she was okay and everything.

"I'm fine don't worry about me thanks for everything. Who's idea was this?"

When she said this she didn't smile at all.

"It was my idea"

Kagome pushed through everyone to the guy who said this.

"Feeling better Kagome?"

"Uhhh…yeah I'm fine…thanks Koga"

Koga grinned and walked toward Kagome.

"I can't believe dog shit did that to you and how you changed. Well I gotta go later Kagome!"

"bye"

Kagome walked away and toward her class. She didn't notice that she passed by dog boy and Inuyasha just stood there looking at her back.

'I guess she really meant what she said at the hospital, maybe I shouldn't have told Kikyo everything. I should talk to Kagome latet.'

Inuyasha then walked to Math and the day went on and we all know school sucks so lets just skip to the best subject lunch.

Kagome sat on a lunch table with Sango, Rin, Ayame, and Miroku. They were all eating except Kagome.

'I remember how to disappear one of the parts I have to do is not eat. I'm not hungry anways.'

"Kagome you should eat something"

"huh?"

"You want some of my lunch?"

"Oh no thanks Sango I'm not hungry"

"Ok"

"Hey Kagome whats wrong and what happened to you:

"I'm just not myself today that's all Ayame"

"What about your eyes, your skin, and your cheek?"

"contacts, cold, it seems Inuyasha bruised it as well."

'Kagome's lying Inuyasha never bruised her there and she didn't have that when she left the hospital I wonder where she got that and she's not wearing contacts and she's not its 91 degrees today. Her emotions are coming out like she said happened yesterday at P.E She must be very emotional today.'

"Miroku can I speak with you for a minute?"

"Uhh sure"

Kagome and Miroku walked out of the lunch area and into the school garden. Kagome and Miroku went in and Kagome turned around toward Miroku not looking at him.

"Don't move I'm gonna put a small barrier around the garden so no one hears our conversation."

Miroku nodded and sat still in a Monk position so Kagome could put the barrier up. Kagome put her hands in a Buddha prayer position and a blue light came and grew all around them. Kagome breathed in and the barrier took its place and then she breathed out and the barrier was set and turned invisible.

When Miroku sensed she was done Miroku opened his eyes and looked at Kagome.

"Why did you lie to your friends"

Kagome sat down but she still didn't look at Miroku in his eyes.

"They don't know I'm a miko and I'm not gonna say how I got this bruise."

"I see"

"…"

"…"

"…"

"Something must of happened this morning Kagome what did?"

Kagome looked away from his face and her bangs shadowed her eyes so no one could see them a tear streamed down her face.

"he…he…he told"

"What do you mean he told?"

"Inusan told Hisakisan everything I said at the hospital"

"Even of you being a miko!"

Kagome nodded.

"No one's suppose to know, if certain people find out they…they…"

"They what?"

Kagome turned her head and looked straight into Miroku's eyes. There he saw in Kagome fear, sadness, and anger.

"Certain people can come and kill me"

"What! Why?"

"Its along story of my family history that goes back to the feudal era. It's a cruse, but also a gift. Some of my ancestors were killed by those people called pure mikos. You see, I'm a miko half pure and half demon miko. If I train I can become a whole pure miko and then I can break the cruse and my family ancestors can rest in peace. But because of yesterday, it seems I'm more demon miko now."

"So what happens if your full demon miko"

"You know what happened yesterday?"

"Yeah"

"The waves and aura you saw and he change of eye color was of the demon miko"

"There's a demon miko inside you"

"It's not just inside me, it is me. From my emotions that's how the demon miko can come out. If I show all my emotions the demon miko will come out into the world cause catastrophes and deaths. If that ever should happen then no one can stop it, but me."

"Well then if that happens you'll become full pure miko and then you can destroy that monster in a instant."

"No Miroku it's not easy as that"

"What? What do you mean its not that easy?"

"To stop it I'd have to give my life"

"Oh well that will never happen"

"I hope it won't"

TBC…..