Chapter 19

When Elle woke put two days later after she had seen Vernon for the last time she was shook to see herself in her own bed.

Seeing she was alone she felt cold and so, so alone like she had never ever been before.

She could see his face in her head the pain in his eyes as he said goodbye to them and all they had shared together in the past. He had never ever left her screaming for him like that before.

Ass she thought of him a lump formed in her throat and she just wanted him there by her side again but she knew this time he would never ever come back.

The fairy tale they had written together was ended.

Just then her door opened and she saw her godfather walk in on her room.

As there eyes met hers eyes seemed so emotionless. All the hurt and pain of her new life seemed to well up in here and she looked away from him.

She felt tired and sick. She just didn't want to talk to any one or see them either.

"Sweetheart," he said softly stroking her hair. "You should try and eat something. "

"NO," she whispered to Herr self more than him. "I don't want to eat," she said looked harshly away from him as she lay in her bed. She had never been stubborn. She just couldn't. She just wanted to see Vernon again. Why dint any one get that?

"Honey, please listen to me," he begged her.

"I don't want to," she said to him and shut herself off from him completely.

Throughout the day the marauders all had a go to try and get her to open up as she rejected them all in turn.

The next few days were the hardest that Elle and her true parents had ever lived through. She was just so unresponsive.

On the fourth day James just couldn't take it any more. He went to work.

It was this day Lily took a bit of time off her self.

She went to a small room, one of the smallest in the den and looked at a few old photos.

Looking at her self and her mum a tear run down her face and she wiped it away hastily.

She had been so close with rose when she had been Ellouise's age. They had been so inseparable.

She had thought that in the summer she was starting to achieve that with the daughter that she called her own but the last few days she had lost all hope of that. Elle had never been so rejective off them.

Taking out another photo she smiled. Her and her big sister. Oh she wished she had had another chance to go through things with Petunia. She wanted them to have the closeness they had once had again. She missed having a sister.

Suddenly there was a small body by her side and she looked by her daughter. A paled faced Ellouise sat by her and took the photo in her own small ands and for the first time in ages set her mother hold her tightly.

"I miss her," she admitted to her mother feeling ashamed of her as they sat side by side.

Knowing her little daughter need a reassurance she kissed her forehead.

"And you know what baby that is ok," he said putting a strand of hair out of her face. "Honey we aren't mad at you for waiting that." She vowed to her.

"I thought I could handle all of what had gone on by myself. I had ever been so wrong in my life." Elle told her mum as she hugged her.

"We all get it wrong Elle but you can get through this I know you can," said lily positively.

"Then you and dad don't hate me for running away," she asked her mother not meeting eye contact.

"Me and your dad will never ever hate you Ellouise," she said taking her daughter in her arms and holding her tight. "You are the first born girl in our family, and that's makes you so special to me and your father," she said to the girl as she held her tightly. "I know there have been so many changes in your life but I swear Elle, me and daddy love you very much," she said as she held her daughter.

Just as she finished speaking the fragile figure of her daughter begun to shack and she saw Elle crying had in to her knees.

"Mum," she choked out as she looked at her. "I didn't want to run but I was so afraid of everything - and - I don't know," she shrugged as she ended lamely.

"I know," said lily as she kissed her daughter again and hugged her.

The rest of that day was spent talk I n g for Elle and lily. There was a lot they both needed to say but once that was over they just held tot each other.

Mother and daughter felt a grief for the time they had missed but now it seemed that maybe it could work out.

Looking at lily as he got home James had a great feeling to see his daughter at the dinner table and Remus was impressed by the women in the house.

"How you feeling sweet heart?" he asked his god daughter.

"Tired," she said as she begun to eat her porridge, it was her first meal it what seemed over a week. "How was work to day dad?"

It had been an awful day full of worry what had been ogling on at home for him but now he had return too see her up and well sort of about although, she moved slowly and her ribs though healed by magic were still a bit painful for her, his day didn't seem so bad as it had.

"Just fine princess," he said with a wink even though those words seemed to have an affect on her for some reason.

After breakfast they went in to the living room and she even gave him a small hug for the first time.

When he had work up in the night after he had brought her home Elle hadn't been awake. She hadn't been affected by the storm that had got on that night.

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"So how did she do today?" asked James as they got in to bed that night.

"Well she was upset most of it," said Lily regretfully.

"It was the first time in days she got up," James admitted. "And she hadn't been herself in week any way," he said to her. "I noticed she was thinning out even at her birthday" said James.

"We were so blind to her needs," said lily.

"Yes but we're not now. Mummy and daddy are going to be for her from this day on, aren't we?" he asked her.

"Of course we are but, we have to understand," said Lily. "I don't think she ever has seen us as daddy and mummy yet. For the first time today she admitted to missing my sister and her husband,"

This was clearly not really what James had wanted to hear.

"Jamie," whined lily. "We have to try and give her the chance and support you need to accept that twelve years can not be forgotten by just six months. They loved her for over a decade and support her for all her life."

"But I would have if I had been given a chance," he said to her.

"I know we both would have but when never ever had the chance like they did, but now, we have it and they don't." she said. "All we have to give her is love and be ready to catch her tears when she needs us too," said lily cradling him against her stomach where there new little baby lay.

"We said this was a new start for the both of us," said lily soothingly to her husband. "I love you, and I love Harry, and I love our Elle, and whatever this baby is going to be called. And honey we are a family now, I swear nothing never ever change that not now," she said to him.

"Promise me lily," he begged her like a child.

"I'm here J aren't I? I meant all the vows I made to you, and pour family," she said as she snuggled next to him in the bed they shared. "I do and will always love you, and I can't believe that I wasted so much time when we were at Hogwarts," she said to him thinking of all the other stuff they could have done," she said.

"We can still do," he joined in trying to lift her feelings.

"I know, as a family," she said and kissed him. "I love you."

"I love you too,"

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The next day at ten Remus heard a knock on the door tot his large bedroom.

They were more his quarters actually. Each of the founder members of them marauders had there own at the den. His were littered with papers and books and all the research he was doing that particular week.

As a stay at home god father he had a lot of free time o n hid hands and he filled it with educating him self further for what ever job interview was going to turn him down next.

Sighing and shaking of the thought he turned to his door.

"Come in!" he called and was pleased to see his goddaughter there carrying two hot chocolates in her hands.

"Can I hang out with you?" she asked. It had been five days since the car accident and he hadn't seen her before that really in person for over three months so when she said it ads if he would ever say no he was astonished.

"Of course. Of course," he said to her and moved to the sofa wrapping his arms round her as she got there. She was a little tense but that couldn't be helped right now he guessed after all the past fortnight had given her to deal with.

"Sweetheart it is so good to see you up again," he whispered in to her hair.

!"It's good to see you too," she admitted. "I'm so sorry I was so cold to you." she admitted full of shame to him. What ever she had gone through her god father who had in all fairness been there for her when ever her could since she had been back in the world of magic, when he could be hadn't deserved what she had given to him.

"You think I care," he said to her. It felt so good to hug her again when he had been so afraid soon he would no longer have her to hug a few days ago.

"I love you Remus," she said to him her voice laced with the affection she felt for him. He was the marauder she would as always feel most comfortable. Those few months when she had first came to Hogwarts and met him before she knew about lily and James they had certainly made a bond that could never ever be broken.

"Do I even have to say it back anymore?" he smiled softly. She knew how he felt for her.

"Course not," she muttered.

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Later on that day Elle showered and washer hair and felt the world better for it. That night her granddad and cousin were going to come over for dinner.

While they were waiting for it Elle and Dudley went on a walk in the gardens of the den. Half way through they sat down. Both wrapped in warm clothes up he put his arm round her and held her tight.

"How were they!" he asked her and she knew who they were talking about.

"The same as ever I guess. Nan's a bit thinner than I remember her being but maybe that's just me," she shrugged.

"I wish you hadn't turn to him, I told you I was here for you," he said to her slightly peeved she hadn't gone to him in her hour of need, then again even as a child she would rather go to there so called dad or Harry. What had he been expecting to be different? She had never wanted to worry him.

"I know," she nodded.

Sighing he shook his head. "What am I ever going to do with you, my girl," he said to her sounding much older than his age. Then he heard something. A giggle. The giggle he had longed to here.

"Since when did you call me 'my girl'!" laughed Elle at him as he tickled her.

"Rib's!" she said to him as an excuse. But he knew they had been healed by magic now.

"You aren't getting away with that," he said as his tickling attack continued.

Just then they both knew something had gone from then. The wall that made them feel so uncomfortable around the other was gone and they were back to there old selves with one another and for that moment they both could have believed that the y had gone in to a time warp and were merely playing in the park ove3r the holidays while they were bored.

No matter there DNA, they were siblings, and no blood or magic could ever change that, or take it from them.

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That night he stayed over at the den and the two of them had an asleep over and caught up. They hadn't talked in so long and had missed so much in each others life.

"The court case is soon," he said to Elle as Dudley drunk his hot chocolate.

"What do you want to com e of it?" she asked him as they sat up late.

"I don't k now," he said to her honestly. "I thought I was weak when I first started missing her, but then you went and saw dad, I don't know," he said to her. He had missed his mum deep down he had just never admitted it even to himself.

""what ever happens you'll always have me Dudley," she reassured him as they finished there drinks.

"I know sis," he said to her knowing she was one of the people who would always be there for him.

Putting there mugs on her bedside table she crawled up in a ball and snuggled in t o his side who held her tight falling asleep himself.

What ever would be for them would be. Dudley and Elle couldn't change fate but when they were together it seemed like they were invincible.

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Looking at his daughter a few days later she was a changed girl. Much more like me herself. What ever she had been looking for it seemed some where along the way she had found it and was now a lot more confident and beautiful like she had been that night when he had first seen her down little winging when she had first left for Hogwarts even if it was not exactly.

But of course this was from the man who had seen her get ruin down just over a week before. In fact though Elle was regaining a sense of who she was again. She was still a little pale and still unusually thin for a girl of her age but that wasn't going to be helped until a little more time had passed for her. She had always been thin it was just her.

They had had a heart to heart last night and his eyes were a bit wider to her needs and her thoughts right now.

She had said to him that Vernon had given her love for eleven years with out saying no to her once and watching him walk out on her the other night was one of the hardest things she had ever had to face up to and that was why she had been so distant for a few days. She had needed time to process he had done that to her and in a weird way so did James now as well. It seemed the fake father had finally given him the chance that James needed.

But to Elle he Vernon was not a fake father by any way or means. He had been what she had said to the one of the most devoted , loving fathers, to her that mankind had ever seen and that's why sometimes she found it easier to open up to Lily. (He figured that's why she had opened up to her when he had been at work that day).

So what? Thought James to himself. All it meant that was he had to put a bit more effort in to spend time with his baby girl.

In his mind he had already earned the title dad with her. All he had to do now was the dy.

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It was in that same week that Mel finally moved in and was finally feeling like she and Sirius were back together for real.

Remus was the last bachelor marauder now though that was how to be honest he seemed happier. He seemed the wise old grandfather or counselor every one cam to with there problems in his god child's eyes. He was wiser than most men.

Two weeks later they had all been sitting down when Elle finally said she was ready. They had all been wondering when she would ask to, she wasn't the type to like being cut off from her friends but lily had to admit that just fir weeks after was a bit of your shock for her.

"Ate you sure?" she asked Ellouise apprehensively.

"Yeah, I'm ready to go back. Its time I went home to Hogwarts."

A/n: well once again you guys gave me the feedback I was hoping for. I love you lot so much!

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