Letting You Go

Chapter 2 - Telling You

At the Cohen house the doorbell and the phone both rang at the same time. Ryan and Seth were barely awake at the time.

"I'll get the phone." said Seth going into the hall.

"I guess I'm going to the door then." Ryan joked as he walked in the opposite direction. He wondered whether whoever was ringing was connected to the person at the door, before he could think this theory through he already had his hand on the door handle.

He wasn't prepared for who he saw, not at all.

"Marissa?" he asked, he was stunned for a moment.

"Hey." she spoke in a soft voice and could feel her cheeks turning pinker.

Ryan forced himself to deal with the situation.

"What can I do for you?" he asked expecting her to ask to speak to Seth. Maybe he and Summer had had a row, maybe it was her on the phone.

Ryan noticed that Marissa looked awkward and he began to feel slightly hopeful.

Eventually Marissa spoke.

"Can I come in?" she asked. "I need to talk to you."

Ryan felt slightly deflated, he hoped that Marissa had come to give him good news but he was beginning to doubt it. Her expression was grave and he wondered what could be troubling her. She couldn't be...no. Well it might be possible...no. Ryan began to wonder, was Marissa pregnant? No, well if she was it certainly couldn't be his, could it? He began to count back the months since their break up. Marissa interrupted his thoughts.

"Ryan, are you ok?"

"Me? Yeah I'm fine. Come on in."

Marissa stepped into the hallway and waited for Ryan to invite her into the living room. He sat down on his favourite chair but Marissa remained standing.

"What's up? What's bothering you?" Ryan asked, trying to remain calm but his mind was wandering. Could it be Luke? Is he back? No he couldn't be, or maybe it was Lindsay. But wait, why would Marissa care about Lindsay? Ryan stopped his train of thoughts there while Marissa began to speak.

"Um...well I've decided to move away for a while, I thought I should tell you so you can tell Seth. If Summer hasn't told him already of course." she gave a nervous laugh and paused.

Ryan was shocked but still battled on to keep his cool.

"Okay, let me get this straight...you're leaving Newport for a while and want me to tell Seth?" he stopped looking at Marissa with a confused expression on his face.

Marissa sighed, sat down on another chair and began again.

"Okay this is what I meant to say. I've decided to move out of Newport, I'm going to San Francisco for a while, just to get away and find myself."

Ryan fought hard at this point to stop him from interrupting. It sounded more like she was breaking up with him than simply moving out of town for a while. Why should he care? He realised that that was a stupid question. So he just nodded instead.

"Things have been difficult here what with my family, my luck with guys and well you. I want to move on, just for a while. I won't be gone forever. I don't why I'm telling you this because we've been over for ages and all that." Marissa came to a pause again as she noticed she was babbling.

Ryan took a few seconds to digest the information. He was never convinced that he and Marissa would ever get back together but at least he knew that she was there and he could see her everyday. If she was gone then he'd have to move on and find someone else to love.

"I can't believe you're really going." Ryan said not hiding his shock very well."I thought you were as happy as you could be."

Marissa got up and walked towards him unsure of her next move.

"Truth be told." she started. " I haven't been happy, truly happy since I lost you and I need to move on, move away."

Ryan noticed that this situation was getting too much like a trashy teen movie but it was real and it was happening.

Marissa moved towards the door and Ryan got up to follow her, trying to grasp the last few seconds he had with her.

" I still love you Ryan." she said as she walked out of the door and down the Cohen drive.

"I..." Ryan began but it was too late.

He heard footsteps behind him, it was Seth. Ryan quickly forced back the tears that were forming. He couldn't get his head around it, he had lost Marissa!

"Ryan you okay?" Seth asked looking concerned.

Ryan shrugged it off. "Who was on the phone?" he asked diverting Seth's inquiries.

"Summer." Seth said in a slightly expressionless way. "Who was at the door?" he asked in return.

"Marissa." Ryan replied.

"Marissa?" Seth asked showing some emotion. "As in Marissa Cooper?"

"Yes Seth, as in Marissa Cooper." Ryan humoured him.

"Was she here for the same reason that Summer was talking about?" he asked.

"What that she's moving away?"

"Yeah." Ryan replied.

"Sorry mate." Seth put his arm on Ryan's shoulder and shut the front door.

Summer's House :

Summer was already pacing the hallway when Marissa arrived again. She practically opened the door before her friend had pushed the bell.

"Hey again Coop." Summer smiled a little and gave her friend a hug. "How did it go with Ryan?"

"Okay." Marissa stated numbly.

"I'm gonna miss you honey." Summer said, she didn't want Marissa to go away not thinking she cared.

"I'll miss you too Sum." Marissa said returning the hug while constantly fighting against the tears that were welling up. Was what she was doing right?

Well there you go, another chapter. I hope you liked it. There will be more SS next chapter and some more RM tension. Thanks for all the reviews! Luv ya!