There You'll Be
Chapter 7: Angel On Fire
She stands on her suitcase
And looks out her window at me.
The smile leaves her face,
The mirror don't like what it sees.
So she hides all her secrets.
She's thinking I'll never know
That she burns like an angel
Into her fire she goes.
She don't miss nothing
Even though she pretends she don't see
Everything she's "watching
Ryan arrived back several hours later and Summer and Seth ran to meet, anxious to hear the news. Ryan sat down on a chair and told them the news that he had not even managed to get to San Francisco let alone find Marissa.
"Maybe it's just fate telling me to stay away." Ryan mumbled.
"You can't think like that." Summer said adamant that Ryan and Marissa weren't meant to be even three months on.
Seth agreed with her. "Come on, it was just bad luck.You two are supposed to be together."
"I'm not so sure." Said Ryan still not convinced.
The idea suddenly came to Summer. "Hey, why don't we all go. You, me and Seth?"
Seth agreed with this too. Yeah, why not?"
"I don't know." Ryan replied. "We could try."
"Okay. When do we want to go?" Summer asked, refusing to give up the idea now.
She puts her hand next to me
She says give me one reason
Why I should be here again.
But then she blows out the candle
And shows me the reason again.
Marissa threw away what was left of her meal and put some clothes on instead of her pyjamas and dressing gown. She didn't know where she was going or why but she wanted to get out of the flat for a bit. Standing in front of the mirror in her bedroom, she looked at herself. Her cheeks bones had never stuck out that much before, neither had her ribs. Marissa had always been slim but never like this. It scared her. She had dark rings under eyes and her dark brown hair was fading to a mousey brown. If anyone from Newport saw her now they would barely recognised her. Since arriving in San Francisco Marissa hadn't bought any new clothes, she couldn't afford it. She rummaged through her suitcase they acted as a wardrobe now and dug out a knee length black skirt and a red halter top. Clothes she had had no cause to wear since arriving here. She looked at herself again and decided that it would have to do. Picking up her handbag she left the flat.
Cause she loves like an angel
She burns like an angel on fire
On fire
Seth was at Summer's house watching as she stuffed items of clothing into a large suitcase.
"We're only going for a week Summer." He complained.
"Exactly!" Summer replied and Seth rolled his eyes. His own suitcase was already in Ryan's car and they were planning to leave the next morning.
"Do you think Ryan and Marissa will get back together?" Seth asked deciding to leave the suitcase conversation alone.
Summer seemed to think this one over and she rummaged for some shoes. Appearing again with a pair of sandal and throwing them into the case she replied. "I don't know, we don't know how much Marissa has changed, we only speak to her once a week, who knows what her life is like now."
"Do you think Ryan's setting himself up to get hurt?"
Summer shrugged. "I don't know. He loves her, I'm guessing she still loves him. Maybe it'll help him to get over her."
"Maybe that's what he needs." Seth mused. "Closure."
After the movie,
She walks in the park with a friend.
She tells it to her straight.
He don't mean nothing to me.
She says I can't believe him
If I gave him enough rope he'd hang me.
But when she turns to him
There's no place she'd rather be.
Marissa was beginning to get to know the city quite well now and from work she was finding out about different places to visit. Stepping out of her apartment block she walked around the corner and then realised how cold it had become. Rubbing her bare arms she thought about going back for a jacket but she dismissed it, the thought of going back to the flat wasn't very welcoming.
The streets were busy with groups of people, most were tourists but some were locals. Marissa crossed the street in search of certain bar that she had heard of but had never been too. Pushing open the door she entered the warm bar. Feeling herself thaw out she asked for an alcoholic drink although she knew she couldn't afford it and she hadn't had much to eat that day.
"You waiting for someone?" The guy behind the bar asked as he handed her the glass.
Marissa shook her head, feeling lonely until he smiled and let himself out from behind the bar.
"I'm due a break anyway." He grinned holding out his hand. "I'm Jamie."
"Hi." Marissa replied shyly, it had been a long time since a guy had taken an interest in her. "I'm Marissa."
Jamie signalled towards the other barman and he passed him a glass of beer. Jamie clinked his glass against Marissa's.
"I'm guessing with that accent you're not from around here." He said conversationally.
"No, I'm from Newport. Moved down here a few months ago."
Jamie nodded. "How are you liking it?"
Marissa barely heard the question as someone turned the music up and bass drowned them out.
Cause she burns like an angel.
She burns like an angel on fire.
"Do you want to go somewhere a bit quieter?" Jamie asked over the music.
Marissa nodded and the barman lead her through to one of the empty function rooms at the back of the bar.
She put her drink down on one of the tables, she was already feeling the alcohol rush to her head and she was feeling dizzy.
"What brought you here?" Jamie asked.
"Stuff at home." Marissa replied, not wanting to talk about it, especially with a stranger.
"Ah right."
Neither of them said anything for a few minutes, Marissa fiddled with the hem of her top and Jamie down some of his beer. Taking another sip from her drink, Marissa asked Jamie some questions.
"Do you like here then? In San Francisco?"
He nodded. "Yeah, born and bred here."
Marissa nodded too and without warning Jamie kissed her. For a moment Marissa was shocked, almost repulsed. After a while she got into the swing of things and wrapped her arms around his neck. Jamie suddenly let go.
"Jamie, you're break ended ten minutes ago." The older barman said coming into the room. He was clearly angry.
"Sorry, sir." He apologised. "Meet you after? Okay?" He said to Marissa. She nodded shame burning her cheeks.
Jamie went back to work and Marissa sat on one of the bar stools. An hour or so later when Jamie finished his shift they went outside together.
"Do you want a lift?" He asked her.
"Please." Marissa replied, it was even colder and darker.
Once at her flat Marissa apologised about the state of the place but Jamie didn't seem to mind. They kissed again, this time more passionatley. Marissa blocked out all others thoughts or right and wrong imagining that Ryan was here with her now.
And she's stuck
When she comes on so hot.
And you have never felt
A heavenly slow burn.
I'm so hot,
When I leave her cold,
Frying in her room
Like angels always do.
And did you really think I loved you
Just cause I said so?
"You ready?" Ryan asked as Seth and Summer forced her suitcase between the other two in the boot. Seth came around and sat in the front so he could navigate and Summer spread out on the back seat.
"Yep." They chorused and Ryan started the engine.
Not too many wrong turns and a few hours later they pulled up in a space as close to Marissa's apartment as possible.
"Right." Ryan exhaled.
"Do we all go in at once?" Seth asked.
"I think I should go." Summer said from the back seat.
"No." Ryan stopped them. "I'll go."
He got out of the car, having no idea what he would find.
Butterflies "shiver"
She learns all the things that I've known.
She's thinking her diary
Convincing her words as she goes.
She says heaven forgive me
Am I going to pay for my sins?
Cause she burns like an angel
Everytime she lets me in.
Ryan banged on the door to number for and waited. Marissa eventually opened the door, she was dressed in a dressing gown even though it was nearly mid afternoon.
"Ryan?" She asked wide eye.
Ryan looked at her in amazement and shock as he heard another voice.
"Babe, who is it?" Jamie asked.
Disclaimer : I do not own the the song 'Angel on Fire' by Chris Cornell!
Sorry that was a cruel place to leave it! Thanks so much for all the reviewer support! I'll update again soon!
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