There You'll Be Chapter 8: Blind, an o.c. fanfic

There You'll Be
Chapter 8: Blind

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless
As you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried

Marissa had never felt more like crying in her life. Everything was going wrong. For a start she didn't even want Jamie there and she didn't want Ryan to think badly of her. Quickly turning to Jamie she whispered.

"It's an old friend won't be long."

Reappearing in the doorway Marissa spoke gently to Ryan.

"I'm sorry about this, could you come back later...there's something I need to sort out." She could barely look at him without seeing the pain in hide eyes.

Not trusting himself to speak Ryan nodded dumbly.

"I'm really sorry."

Ryan nodded again and swallowed. "Summer and Seth are here too."

Marissa's eyes visibly lit up. "Really?"

Ryan nodded. "Uh huh."

"I'll see you later, okay?"

"Yeah, okay."

Marissa shut the door and took a deep breath. What a mess she had got herself into.

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Than you'll ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

Ryan walked slowly back to his car, hating himself for not coming sooner, for not making sure Marissa knew how he felt. He couldn't believe how stupid he had been in letting her go. He didn't want to face Seth and Summer right now but he knew he had to otherwise they would worry. He opened the driver's door and sank into the seat. Summer and Seth knew something was wrong immediatly.

"What's wrong?" Summer asked.

"Is Marissa alright?" Seth asked at the same time.

"She's fine." Ryan replied.

"Oh." Summer was partly relieved. "So what's wrong with you?"

"Sum." Seth hissed, sensing that this was not the time.

"She's with another bloke in there okay." Ryan snapped.

"Oh." Summer replied. "I'm sorry." She meant it too,

" I know. She wants us to go back there later apparently." Ryan replied using his normal tone.

"Really?" Seth asked. "Has she changed much."

"Umm..." Ryan stopped. "She's got brown hair now but apart from that no, except the weight issue. She looks like a rake."

"Really?" Summer was anxious for her friend now. "Did she look healthy?"

"Well...yeah." Ryan replied.

"Anyone else get the feeling this afternoon is gonna go really slowly?" Seth asked.

"Shut up Seth." Ryan and Summer said at the same time.

"Come on let's get some food."

They pulled away from the parking space, Marissa watched them go from the window her heart breaking.

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

Marissa went back into her bedroom, Jamie was getting dressed sensing that he had outstayed his welcome.

"I'm sorry." She said. "Things are complicated."

Jamie nodded and turned to face her. "Can I ask one question? Do you still love him?"

Marissa looked at him. "I don't know."

Jamie shrugged. "If he came all the way here just to see you, I'd stay he still loves you. I'm sorry if I've made this more difficult for you guys."

"That's okay."Marissa replied trying to smile, she hugged him."If it's any consellation you've been a great mate."

Jamie smiled. "Thanks. I hope it goes okay with him and you know where I'll be if you need me."

Marissa smiled and they hugged again. "See ya."

With that Jamie left and Marissa felt empty inside all over again, not to mention guilty too.

After eating at one of the cafe's in the city Ryan drove the three of them back and they parked in the same space.

"Shall we all go up this time?" Summer asked.

"Yeah, I think it's for the best." Ryan replied.

They got out of the car and headed up the stairs.

"This place is a dump." Summer commented in disgust.

"Ssh." Seth hissed under his breath.

This time Summer knocked on the door and waited for an answer. When Marissa answered she was dressed wearing a long denim skirt and a white sleeveless top, she looked more like the old Marissa. The first thing Summer noticed after her hair was how skinny she had become, you could see her ribs through her cotton top. She stepped forward and hugged her best friend, Seth did the same as they passed her and went inside and out of Ryan and Marissa's way.

"Sorry about earlier, I really am." Marissa apologised trying to meet his eyes.

"It's okay, don't worry about it."Ryan replied.

"I just want you to know." She paused making sure Summer and Seth were out of earshot. "He's not my boyfriend, I've only known him a few days."

Ryan nodded. "'Kay." Not sure if he was entirely convinced, he didn't have time to be as Marissa enveloped him in a hug.

After all this while
Would you ever wanna leave
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Than you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go
That I loved you more
Than you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

I do not own the OC or the song 'Blind' by Lifehouse.

Thank you for all your reviews and thanks for sticking with the story. I'm sorry about the end of the last chapter, hope you preferred this one! I'll update soon!

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