A/N: Sorry if the story isn't going in the way you thought it would. When I started to write this, I didn't know where I wanted it to end up. All this story was, was a idea that wouldn't leave mealoneuntil I wrote it down. Also maybe it didn't help that I started to write this in June of 2004 and then restarted back in November after forgetting about it. This chapter will probably give you an idea maybe where the story is going.

While Nick and Sara were off shopping in Los Angeles and talking to Greg, Grissom decided and to go down to the lobby and read a book. He thought that being in the lobby would be better than in his room by himself.

Grissom spent about a half an hour reading but then had to stop because something kept popping into his mind. Why am I not jealous of Nick?

This thought kept popping into his mind, which soon made it very difficult to read so he had to stop and think and just close his eyes.

Why am I not bothered? Why am I not mad? These questions kept popping to his head so now it felt like he was starting a conversation with himself. I was so sure I loved Sara. I was so sure that I wanted her to come with me and be my date. Why am I not mad? I was so sure that this is what she wanted, is that why I asked her to come with me? Do I love Sara? I was so sure I did, but I guess I am not in love as much as I thought I was. Is that why I'm not mad? I don't love her. I don't. And I guess she doesn't love me either. Why did I ask her then? Did I just lean to Sara because I thought that would be an easy exit so I didn't have to ask someone I do have feelings for? Catherine told me, to take my chance with Sara before it was gone, well now I guess it really is gone. Who do I have feelings for? She also told me when you have feelings for someone you might not know it, but one day it'll hit you and you will know everything that you love. Well I guess today is that day. Catherine is that one person that has been with me practically day one. She has been the one to help me not be such a workaholic and that she came to me when Eddie was her problems. That showed how much she trusted me. I really wonder how she feels about me. I have been working for so long that we are the best of friends and I really trust her. Now that I know what I want, I want to know her feelings about me and I want to start something. I guess the only way to start is to call her right now. I wonder how she is doing short-handed.

After deciding to call he picked up his phone from his waistband and dialed her cell phone. At this point he really wasn't sure what he was going to talk to her about or tell her, but right now it didn't really matter. He just wanted to hear her voice. He really missed her.

Back in Las Vegas everything had been going great, even with 3 CSI's being gone, one being the supervisor. Actually, not that many cases had come in while they were gone. Catherine was in Grissom's office working on some of his paperwork when Grissom called.

"Willows" Catherine responded wondering who'd be calling

"Hi Catherine, It's Grissom" Grissom said, he was glad just to be talking to her

"Hi, how's you convention going?"

"Good, it is really nice to see some old friends"

"How's it going with you, Nick, and Sara?" Catherine said not know how everything was going on between the two of them and Grissom. What Grissom didn't know was when Sara had told her that Grissom had asked her to go with him to the convention, it struck something inside of her. Now after they had been gone for a couple days she realized that maybe she was jealous that Sara was asked and not her. She had come to realize that the feelings she once that she had for him had never left.

"We're good, I think Nick and Sara are gone out shopping" Gil replied back to Catherine

"Are you okay that Sara wasn't your date?" That statement was a big statement, and that the answer would be a big deal if they were ever to get a relationship.

"Yeah I'm fine" Gil said in reply

"Are you sure?" Catherine said in slight shock and wonder if it was true or if he was going into denial.

"Yes Catherine, I'm sure. I might have been in love with Sara before, but now I don't and I am not upset that she is with Nick and I'm not upset that she said no to me"

Catherine was a little shock at Grissom's testimonial.

"You came up with that decision in two days?" Catherine said in a wondering tone

"Yes I did, I was reading my book and I couldn't concentrate so I sat here and thought about myself and everyone. Actually what you said, made me come up with that"

"Really" Catherine said surprised

"Yes, you saidwhen you have feelings for someone you might not know it, but one day it will hit you and you will know everything that you love"

"So while you were sitting there it hit you?"

"Yes it did"

"Did you think about why you asked Sara to come with you?" Catherine said wondering if he gave that any thought.

"Actually I did, I came up with this conclusionI just leaned to Sara because I thought that would be an easy exit so I didn't have to think about if I had feelings for her or anyone else."

"So do you have any feelings for Sara?"

"No" Grissom said in a one-word response

"No?" Catherine said in complete shock, which struck a note in herself, and Grissom. The shock acquired was in that maybe she could pursue a relationship with Grissom now that she and he knew that Grissom didn't have feelings for Sara. Grissom's shock came in the fact that one, Catherine was surprised that he didn't have feelings for Sara, and two, she seemed a little happy about it.

"That's what I said. As I sat here I evaluated everything around me and realized I am not jealous of Sara being with Nick and it really doesn't bother me now." Grissom stated very openly.

"So what's all this stuff about 'you saidwhen you have feelings for someone you might not know it, but one day it will hit you and you will know everything that you love'" Catherine said wondering if maybe had the same feelings for her as she did for him.

"Yeah..." It's now or never Grissom, what can she do to hundreds of miles away "that's why I called, I don't know if it is the same for you but just hear me out. There is something about you that I can't resist. You seem to be there whenever I need you. You are always there when I need to talk. You were always there to tell me I work too much and there to help me with my personal life. With all the stuff that has happened in the past and all the stuff that is happening now made me realize it. With not having the messed up emotions about Sara, I am able to realize what I want and that is I want to see if there is something between us, which I think there might be."

"Grissom" Catherine said in a soft, but surprised tone

"Catherine, I'm serious." Grissom said in the most serious tone possible

"What about everything with Sara?"

"Catherine I told you, that was a mistake. I'm not in love with her. I think I might be in love with you.

There was a slight silence and that made Grissom wonder what was going on in Catherine's mind, he put his feelings on his sleeve so it was up for her to decide what she wanted.

"Catherine"

"Grissom…umm. I love you. I have for a long time. You don't realize how much seeing you with Sara hurt me, and with you wanting her to come with you, was worse. You didn't know this but she came to me, ME, and asked me to help her decide who should she would go with. That was one of the worst days ever. That hurt me so much inside knowing that maybe I would have to wait that much longer to be with you or that maybe I never could." Now Catherine was almost in tears. Everything had been building up inside and it hurt so much.

"Catherine I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you. Everything is in the past now. When I get back, I promise you, I won't hurt you anymore.

"Okay" Catherine said in a quite whisper

"Don't let me upset you anymore. Everything will be better from now on. Don't tell Greg this but I talked to a girl that might fill in, in the DNA lab, while Greg is out in the field?

"Really, he'll love that. Where did you come across her at?"

"I was talking to my friend from Los Angeles, who is one of the supervisors there, well he was doing some interviews and searching for some people and he came across a girl name Kate. She was searching for a DNA job, well he didn't need anyone for that, but he said she was really good and that I should hire her. He gave me her number, so I called and met her and I told her to come to Vegas once the conference was over. She said yes."

"He'll be so happy. How old is she?"

"Umm… I think somewhere around 24."

"Maybe he can get a date out of her too" They both had a laugh

"Never thought about it that way, but it could be true. Don't' tell Greg; I'll tell him when I get back. I don't want to get his hopes ups, incase this doesn't pan out."

"Sure"

"When I get back, we'll talk more okay. I have to go."

"Bye"

"Bye" Grissom said and hung up his cell phone. Everything had changed with that one phone call. She had feelings for him. She was hurting because he couldn't see what was in front of him for all those years.