Chapter six
Harry had just come back from a very awkward meeting with his real father and his father's best friend Remus. Strange to think to such enemies in one memory are best friends in another. He found his cloak to have belonged to Remus to sneak down to the whomping willow on the full moon and Severus had made the map to make sure Remus did not escape the shrieking shack on the full moon when he was unable to turn into his animagus form, which Harry had yet to find out what the form was. The maps original words had been friends Moony and Claws. Moony obviously was still Remus and Claws barely narrowed down what his father had been.
He sat down in a chair by the fire mere minutes before he heard someone come down the girls' stairs. Lavender he noticed.
Harry looked up at Lavenders face. /She knows./ The voice in his head called. /She knows it's you. Look in her eyes. There's that pity./ Harry looked but there was nothing that resembled pity in her eyes. She watched him. He watched her. Lavender walked towards Harry. Much like Draco had she stroked his face and much like he had done with Draco he flinched. She knew for real it was him. Some people who had been raped stayed away from human contact. She had done the same with the exception on Parvati and her sister. They were the only ones.
Lavender leaned in and kissed the green-eyed boy. At first he did nothing. He sat there. Her kissing him. He could taste her tears on his lips. He could taste his own too. That's when he kissed her back. He kissed her gently not really knowing what he was doing. She ran her tongue along his lips and he let her tongue slip in and their tongues met in a playful battle neither caring who won. Just happy that they had someone to share there pain with. They broke apart. Their foreheads rested against each other. Both had their eyes shut. Harry pulled back and looked at her. He pushed some of her hair that had come lose from her ponytail behind her ear. She was beautiful. He didn't know how he had never noticed before. Her lips slightly swollen from their kiss and her eyes blue. A sharp blue. Gorgeous. He didn't know why but he could also see someone else in her. Someone with sharp blue eyes and the blondest hair.
Tears ran down her face. How could Harry be the one in so much pain? How could he be the one who was ripped of his innocence? He had so much to deal with. Lavenders' tears didn't stop. Neither did Harrys'.
"You found out then?" Lavender nodded. She pulled up his sleeves. Nothing was there. Harry took off the charm. She gasped. It was worse than she could ever imagine. The words, pictures and cuts over his arms not all of them yet explained. He opened his shirt and she saw his neat writing all over his chest. She knew of the quill Umbridge had used and now knew how Harry had hurt himself while writing these accounts. She touched his face again. Her thumb stroking his cheek. She looked into his eyes again. His dull green eyes. She had never known them to sparkle. She wanted them to though. Taking away her hand Lavender pulled up the sleeves of her own shirt showing bare arms. She took her wand and took off the charm. She looked to the floor. She was embarrassed but he needed to know. A lump formed in Harry's throat. He took her hand in his and kissed it.
"We can help each other through this." He stated. "I don't want anyone doing this. It's addictive. The pain. Once you have it you never want it to go. It helps." She understood. It helped her too. "But even with these scars you are beautiful... I never noticed before now." She blushed as he stroked her arms. Tracing her scars.
"Your accounts. The rape and beating... my sister and me… we went through that too Harry. My father..." She couldn't go on. He pulled her into his shoulder. She cried. He placed the spells over them both and covered their arms and in his case chest. Then he pulled a blanket over them both. It didn't take long for them to sleep.
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Draco decided that he wasn't tired after sleeping almost eight hours during the day so he walked around the grounds. Draco was sure he was forgetting something. Something before falling asleep in the clearing. He had a clue that it was something to do with the mystery writer as he had found blood on his clothing. Not his blood. Draco had also woken up from a dream.
Dream
A green-eyed raven-haired boy stood before him. His eyes playful and happy. The boy smiled brightly before helping Draco to his feet. The boy spoke of what there future was going to be like and how happy they were going to be. Draco did not recognise him. Draco looked confused.
"Who are you?" The boy looked towards Draco. His eyes dull. He pulled up his sleeves. 'FREAK' among other cuts and bruises were shown. "What did you do?" Draco rushed to the boy. His fingers traced the scars. He met the dull green eyes. "Let me help you." The green eyes softened.
"You've said that to me once before. You cannot help though. No one can." The boy pulled out a knife and opened his shirt. Writing littered it. Tales of his troubled past. He would never forget them. Not now they were engraved apoon his body. The boy drew the knife across his chest. Blood poured from the wound. The boy reached for the wound and put his hand into it and pulled out his own heart. The boys breathing became shallow and Draco's eyes were wide. The boy took Draco's hand and placed it into his. He placed a light kiss on Draco's lips before pulling back slowly. "This belongs to you Draco it always will." The boy fell the floor smiling. The boy was dead.
End dream
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Harry woke up with a start. He'd had a dream of a blonde boy. The boy didn't know him but Harry seemed to know him. He soon recognised Draco. Harry had no idea about what he was chattering about. Something about a life together and happiness. Harry didn't recognise himself. He seemed almost happy. That was until Draco asked who he was. The happiness that he had never felt before left him. He pulled up his sleeves to show Draco. Draco asked what he had done. Wasn't that obvious? Harry remembered Draco tracing the scars. Harry did not flinch. Draco looked up at him. "Let me help you." Harry's heart reached out to the boy. Harry knew what was going on. Harry heard himself speak and then pulled out his faithful knife. He opened his shirt showing scars. Tales of his troubles all written by himself. He pulled his knife across his chest and reached into the wound pulling out his own heart. He placed it into Draco's hand after a light kiss and told him that it belonged to Draco and it always would. Harry died in peace.
Lavender awoke next to him.
"You ok Harry?" He nodded and muttered it was just a dream. "Memories or just a random dream?"
"Random bad dream. Nothing serious. We should go back to our dorms. It's..." Harry checked his new watch. "Just gone one." Lavender lightly kissed Harry's lips before walking up to her own dorm. Harry watched her go up. He then turned and walked towards the portrait leading out of Gryffindor tower. From there he walked where his legs took him. He had no idea where he was going. He was in his mind at the time. /She knows... it's my secret. I want to be alone... but I can't push her away. She needs me. No one should go through my pain. I need to push her away but how can I do that! It would be wrong of me. I can't stop her from coming to me. This is as bad as me trying to get away from Ron and Hermione…maybe worse. I do need someone... but my dream suggests Malfoy... God this is ridiculous.../
A/n Not really any Harry/Draco I'm afraid. Scorry… -hides- It may take some time to get any… It's not going to happen over night people:P
Thanks to my reviewers! And may I add wow! Some of you had reviewed like half an hour after it'd been posted:O
grin - afraid theres not much Draco… There's Lavender though! I have a good idea what to do with her though :D
Grimy Grunhilda Grunt – helps throw pickles! Teehee, I got a hug -skips around throwing roses-
Dangerous Lover - You shall have to read and see
InsaneBlackHeart – Uhhh yes quick updating kinda person –shifty eyes- I can be sometimes… more Draco in later chapters ok! I think I may be repeating myself lotsa peoples want more Draco!
snowy-angst – Maybe I should start taking the hint that people want Draco :P He'll be in later chapters. Me promises:D
princess-fictoria - Ohhh you know what you're talking about:D Harry isn't going to stop Lavender knowing, though that may cause problems in the future. I say no more… -whistles-
Lisa - Yeah I know it should be Draco, buuuut I wanted this chapter as I am mean and like to prolong the Draconess… :P
angels-slayer-lol – As I've said before and more than likey to say again there shall be Draco/Harry later on :P
Starrarose -hides- don't kill me! Who would finish the fiction then? Hmm? Go forth and kill Dumbledore!
Abbie –Yeah, Lav can be a smarty pants when she puts her mind to it. Teehee :P
BioHazrdusMatrial3 – Thank you:D
Rozi126 - Yeah, I can't wait to find out what's going to happen! I don't know myself most of the time :P
Gryffindorgrl86 – Yup she figured it out, so now hopfully things can get a bit better… maybe, mwhahahahaha… yes anyway… Suicide… come to a bit of writers block on that… shall update as soon as pos though.
Goddess of Gorgeousness – Yeah, that's partly why I write this sort of thing, so people realise that their own lives aren't quiet so bad. Well I hope so anyway.
darkanglefrmhell – Uhh I may update more I may not depends how nice I'm feeling really :D And will you still read if it's a nice Hermione? Cause I'm prety sure she's going to learn the error of her ways…
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