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AUTHOR'S NOTE: Contrary to popular belief…I am not dead…I have just been away for a very long time… recently I was looking through my documents and found this story hidden within a miscellaneous junk file that I created about six months ago…I then read through and realized that it wasn't too bad and decided to update it …finally.

Truthfully I am very sorry for not updating for so many months, my life became so busy over that last months that I actually forgot about this story and now have come back to it. Now, I am not promising anything. I am writing this chapter and seeing how it feels. If I can regain the fervor I possessed when I first wrote this story, I will continue to update. If I do not, well let's see how this chapter goes.

Back Flash: James could not believe his eyes…. Right in front of him, walking to breakfast were Remus and Lily ,and they were holding hands… James stared at Lily Flowers he had conjured and threw them to the floor in disgust…he stomped on them and ran towards the couple, looking seemingly ready to murder Remus…

Lily watched James storm out of the Great Hall with mixed feeling; she felt grim satisfaction at the fact that he was feeling some of the pain that she had experienced but her insides tugged painfully as she gazed at the crushed petals of the delicate arrangement of white lily's and red rose's, her favorite and her and James' special flowers. She remembered their first date like it was yesterday. And although she fought it, she found herself slipping once again into a reverie.

6 ½ months prior

James Potter was so nervous that he thought was going to piss his pants. Lily Evans was going on a date with him, James Harold Potter, in less that five minutes. He anxiously checked his watch and finally decided that he could now go and wait in the Common Room without seeming too excited. He flew down the steps and stood by the portrait desperately trying to ignore the snickers and Sirius, Remus and Peter who were all huddled in the corner waiting to see what would happen. James heard a door close and looked up so fast that he gave himself whiplash and was glad that it was only Grace and not Lily who saw him make a fool of himself. Grace descended the stairs laughing at James the whole way. She made her way over to boys and plopped herself down in Sirius' lap to watch James and Lily's encounter as well. Grace laughed again and said, "She'll be down in a minute lover boy, please don't faint before she comes because although it would be quite entertaining for us, Lily would be fairly disappointed and I don't feel like listening to her whine about what could have happened for the next year." The boys all sniggered softly and James shot them a deathly glare which proceeded to shut all of them up except for Sirius and Grace, which was to be expected. But James did not have time to be berated any longer because at the moment Lily descended that staircase looking gorgeous and slightly nervous. Her copper curls cascaded down her back, her emerald eyes sparkled, and her cheeks were tinted with that faintest bit of natural blush. All of this combined with the sparkling, white, ethereal dress, made James wonder if she really was an angel sent to Earth. He offered her his arm and she blushed slightly but taking it all the same. They proceeded to hurry out of the Common Room before their friends could say anything. Once they had reached the hallway, James handed her a bouquet of flowers that he had almost forgotten he had and proceeded to explain his choice in floral arrangements. He blushed slightly as he told her that he had chosen lilies because of her name and the fact that they were pure and gorgeous like her skin. He told her he had chosen red roses because of her hair and her rosy lips. He then explained the enchanted emerald roses that he had charmed to be the exact color of her eyes, the ones that proclaimed enchanted him every time that he gazed into them. Lily's heart had swelled with such pure love at the moment that she could not believe that this man really wanted her. The candlelight dinner that followed was so amazing, that it was beyond words. It was that night that they shared their first kiss as a couple under a twinkling sky, and it was that night, that their destinies became forever entwined.

Present Time

As Lily entered into a fantasy world that was all her own, Remus watched and smiled a bittersweet smile. He loved the look of happiness on her face but was saddened by that fact that it was not him that she fantasized over but James, and that was who would always remain in her heart, no matter what he tried to get himself to believe. His thoughts then turned to James and he felt a flash of anger followed by a feeling of dread. He knew that he was helping Lily for selfish reasons, and James was one of his best friends. He thought of all that James had done for him and felt a surge of brotherly love for James. Would James ever forgive Remus for this? Remus hoped so…

James stormed into the dormitory and flung himself onto his bed. How could Remus and Lily do this to him. Did his friendship mean so little to Remus that hours after he and the love of his life had broken up, Remus could actually date her himself. And could Lily love him so little that she could move on so quickly. His head spun with all these horrible thoughts. He heard Sirius enter the room and flopped over on his side to face him. "Mate, you know that Grace and I would never, I mean I couldn't..." James exclaimed. Sirius nodded his head "I know mate, I trust you and I trust Grace, she already explained what happened and I know it's the truth." James proceeded to profess all the doubts he had just conceived in his mind to Sirius who listened and waited to speak until James had let it all out. "Mate, isn't it obvious, Remus and Lily aren't really going out, she is doing it to make you jealous, and obviously it is working. Now I don't know what in bloody hell Remus is doing, but I suspect it has something to do with the fact that he is in love with Lily and seriously mad at you for getting her so upset." James looked bewildered at all of this new information, "so what should I do?" he asked, scratching his head. Sirius looked at hi and said "Fight for mate, let her know that she is the only girl for you and you will wait for her, however long that takes". James stood with a look of determination, "you bloody hell bet I will!" and he proceeded to burst out of the room in search of Lily, leaving Sirius shaking his head…

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