As time passed no one spoke to Harry very often. This was often due to the fact that he was often never around. Lavender would watch him when she saw him, but never approached him. Hermione and Draco both tried but Harry had a way of being able to avoid them via passageways and by running. He'd grown quiet speedy since his childhood.

Although he didn't talk to his father much, or even Remus, the past month Harry spoke to his grandfather quiet a lot, which shocked even himself as hewas sure he would hate the man.He was actually quiet helpful. It seemed they were much alike when it came to childhood, both unhappy, beaten and turned to cutting. Harry hadn't stopped. Tom hadn't made him.

Tom understood about cutting, much more than Severus ever could. Severus had been told about Harry of course. He'd gone to Harry and scolded him for such stupid and Gryffindor like behaviour. Harry hadn't forgiven him for that yet but he never argued back. Tom however ended up getting angry at his son and told him that he in fact he had also cut at Harry's age. The heir of Slytherin had cut. Then again it meant two heirs had, Harry was an heir too. Also Harry had mentioned that he was supposed to be a Slytherin. That'd shut Severus right up. He'd stalked off and never mentioned the cutting again.

My tears and blood mix together as one as I sit on the shore of the lake. Its steady ripples like the tides of the sea and as steady as the beats of my slowing heart. A gentle rain pours over my tears making them unnoticeable. The blood however is much more difficult to hide. Maybe impossible, maybe I don't care, maybe this is my cry for help; maybe that's what these tears are for. Crying for my freedom from the pain.

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She still found his writing beautiful, even when she wanted to hate him, she kept the new notes even though she wanted to shred them, and she still loved him even though she hated him.

Lavender watched Harry run from Draco again. She didn't understand why. She still watched him, she hated and loathed Harry, but in a way she missed his touch as he'd traced her scars. She didn't feel she wanted to love him not as a lover but only to remain friends. Well become friends again as neither had spoken to each other in a few weeks and neither had really spoken before that. He'd not questioned the fact she never spoke to him after that night. She guessed he had a lot on his mind. The fact she had not tried to get near him made her nervous when she finally did approach him. She followed him as he ran from Draco.

"Harry!" She called out to him. He paused, and then turned to her. They were down the third floor corridor which had been left abandoned since fluffy had left. He tilted his head to the side as if to say 'what do you want?' "Harry… I've been mad at you, but now I feel it's been… I've been stupid to be. Harry I miss you." He walked towards her silently and stroked her face. She smiled gently. When he tried to kiss her however she pulled back. He looked at her curiously and still remained silent to let her answer the unasked question. "Harry, I don't think I am right for you. I do think we both need someone but each other is not who we need."

"Yeah, I guess you're right." She smiled at the first words he'd spoken to her over the past month. "Friends though?"

"Always." Both smiled and hugged one another. "I noticed you haven't stopped writing." He nodded dully.

"You know what it's like."

"Yes I do…" The two stood in silence not knowing what to say when Lavender broke the silence. "Why do you avoid Malfoy?" She asked curiously.

"I don't trust him, he won't leave me be."

"Why tell him that night then? Why cry in his arms instead of mine! Why do you send me off to bed when you went walking and talked to him!" Lavender grew angry.

"You followed me then?" A statement, not a question but Lavender nodded anyway. "I should have guessed…" He thought a moment before he continued. "He found out before you, he confronted me earlier that day. It's not that hard to figure out if you really want to.I made him forget using magic. That dream I had… you know the random bad one that woke me up that night? I didn't tell you about it though." Lavender nodded again. Harry stopped a moment and breathed deeply. "Well… it was of him. He was on the pitch… seems he had the same dream as me. I reminded him using magic again, of what he discovered; though now I'm not sure why. I think that's what my dream wanted me to do though… when I realised I was crying to him I tried to run, he wouldn't let me and then I was surrounded by bright light. I think he wanted to hurt me. That's why I run from him now, that's why I don't trust him." He'd slid to the floor somewhere through talking. Lavender watched Harry as he told her. She felt stupid for not finding out earlier. He seemed so small at that moment, so unhappy. She felt so guilty for not looking after him. Making him better like she should have. Lavender sat next to him.

"I'm sorry Harry." Harry merely shrugged.

"S'ok." They sat in silence moments before Harry felt awkward so he started up a conversation this time. "You're getting on with Mya well aren't you? Anything going on I should know about? You never used to talk at all" Lavender blushed.

"I wish… uhh..." Lavender looked at Harry with a blush on her face. "She's just been nice lately. Since she found me…" He looked at her curiously but let it go.

"I hope it works out. I'm guessing you want something more than friendship from that quick answer." Lavender nodded blushing once again.

"Yeah, me to." He smiled and nodded before he got up and left down the corridor. Lavenders' eyes gazing after him in curiosity.

A/n I hope people liked this. Right I'm not sure how but I'm getting my brain in gear and writing the next chapter to suicide! It's annoying me that I left it so long and the other day someone reviewed it and kinda got my brain into action as they said I hadn't updated it in FIVE MONTHS! I can't believe it's been so long! Anywho... Thanks to my reviewers of whom I love... I hope this chapter wasn't too crap... oh and I was away. That's my excuse for not updating :P Though I have been back nearly two weeks since then... I'm lazy, so sue me... wait please don't I'm a lazy bum! I have no money:'( Oh and also the fact fanfic has changed since I last updated and I can't work out how to upload this chapter... but if you're reading this then obviously it worked... :S And sorry but I'm too lazy to do seperate thank yous I will start doing that again next time... maybe... if anyone reviews... anyways... I'm off to hurt Dumbledore... MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA -coughs-