"Too Much To Ask?"
I didn't see him the next day.
Or the day after.
In fact, I didn't see Syaoran for one week.
I sat at the picnic table, wanting him to appear. To come out from my head and what I remembered him as and to sit with me.
Maybe it was too much to ask for, even too much to count on.
I probably couldn't even count on him.
I propped my head up with my elbow as I stared at Monaichii and Togai, laughing insanely, practically giggling.
It made me want to gag as I ate my sandwich, not because of the gross tuna contained within it, but because of their behaviour.
They would only be a "fling". They'd break up in a month or so, and everyone would forget about Monaichii Mustokai completely.
I rolled my eyes as I reluctantly took another bite of my disgusting lunch, and saw someone come over to my table to sit down.
My pulse quickly declined when I saw it definitely wasn't Syaoran.
It was Kaijuri Kyo, one of Togai's "buddies", and he had a grin on his face that I wanted to wipe off.
Nothing was funny, or even near happy.
Everything had turned around. Nothing would be the same without Frank.
Kyo sat directly across from me, and tried to start a conversation, "So, how's the new and improved Kinomoto Sakura?"
I turned to him, and with no expression said, "What do you want."
He shrugged and smiled again. Ugh. "I was just walking by, decided to say hi..." He looked around, and then leaned in on the table. "Where's the freak?"
I raised my eyebrows. "Freak?"
"You know...That kid you're always talking to, he never talks back, you guys kiss..."
I interupted him, "Okay, that is false . We only kissed once...and..." I paused, not finishing my sentence.
Kyo smirked, and I felt my rage grow. "I know what you're thinking...How would I know, right? It's all over the school, Saku. You're the new nerd, he's your freak that you get your freak on with."
He laughed stupidly at his own joke, and I just shook my head and got up from the table.
"I'm not going to let you refer to him like that."
Kyo stood up, too, and stopped me before I could walk any further. "Chill, okay? I'm just telling you to watch your reputation, Sakura. It's already ruined because of the whole break-up thing, the nerd thing, and now the freak..."
I tried to leave, but he stepped in front of me. All 6'3'' of him.
"And Togai is going to publicly break-up with Melanie just to get you back. He's just using her...He really wants you."
I scoffed. "Yeah, and I'm supposed to believe this? Then why did the asshole break-up with me in the first place?" I shook my head again as I stepped out of the way. "I don't want to hear about it, Kyo-kun."
I left him standing there, knowing that I had a new power.
A new confidence.
Who cared if Togai wanted me back and got his loser friends to tell me all about it? It was nonsense.
Pure nonsense.
Besides, I would much rather spend my time with Syaoran instead.
Now only if I could find him...
Syaoran's POV
.:..:..:.
I was actually quite good at devising plans.
Not that they would ever work, but it was worth a try.
My newest one was to never speak to anyone, never to see Sakura again, go to school, or leave the house.
Unfortunately, I was about to completely mess up my plans.
A definite sign that they never worked.
I sighed as I sat on the couch, feeling exhausted and depressed.
Thankfully, my dad had said nothing to me since that day. But, instead, took it out on my mom. I could hear their conversations every night through the vents that led down to the basement as I slept.
I had been doing that a lot, and thinking of Sakura.
As much as it hurt, I knew I loved her.
And all day long, I sat there like a 3rd grader, wondering if she loved me in return.
I figured I was going to go more insane than I already was if I didn't have any sunlight. And fast.
I threw the blankets aside as I stood up and glanced at my watch. 4:02 p.m.
Soon, I found myself outside, and glad that my awful father didn't get home until 10:00 usually. I would figure out a routine to go to sleep before that horrid time, so I wouldn't have to face him.
Except for the night with Sakura.
I sighed as I walked the worn-out sidewalks that had practically eroded, along with the pot-holes that covered the road.
Logically, it probably wasn't the best idea to leave the house in my neighbourhood for a nice "walk", but I wasn't thinking logically.
I wasn't even thinking at all.
I wasn't even aware that Sakura would be walking towards me, just a few feet away.
And that I'd stay there, feet planted, absolutely frozen.
I wanted to run, for the sake of saving myself from hurting her, but it was too late for that. She was fastly approaching, and soon she was standing right before me.
After a short amount of silence, I broke the rules of my plan yet again, as I mumbled, "What are you doing here?"
Sakura replied, no smile on her face this time, "I was coming to see if you were still here..."
I closed my eyes again. Why did she have to be so perfect? Everything that I wanted. Everything that I needed.
"You made me want to die, Syaoran." I opened my eyes at this as she stared at me, more concern in her tone. "I couldn't understand why you weren't there with me...You just disappeared."
You let her down.
"Is it so wrong for me to want you so badly? Just your presence, just your smile...even your voice!" She was raising her voice like the time in the hallway, and I could feel my chest begin to ache as her words stabbed me. "Syaoran, I love you so damn much and...I don't want to lose it. I don't want to lose you."
I couldn't help it.
I just couldn't keep it inside anymore like the words constantly bouncing back and forth in my head.
I leaned in and kissed her for the longest time, not wanting to let go.
And once again, I broke another one of my stupid rules.
To never fall in love.
But, honestly, I didn't give a damn.