This is the Story of a Girl
Hey people! Thanks soo much to AnmeFreakPerson, Xoni Newcomer, Kira-924 and RedLotusNin for reviewing the first two chappies! I love you guys! You guys are awesome, amazing, wonderful! Lol. Well... I hope you guys enjoy the third chappie.
Note to RedLotusNin: I so totally know what you're talking about! It makes me pissed off too! I don't know.. sometimes I find Sakura really stupid for always crying over him... But- just so you know before you flame me- Sakura probably will cry once or twice in this fic.
Note to everybody: Because of my indecisiveness... I have not yet determined the pairing for this fic. There's going to be ShikaIno for sure. But that's about it. I'm seriously doubting some SasuSaku right now because he's just such an asshole in this fic! But.. who knows?
Act 3: Perfect?
'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect..
- Simple Plan
July 20th
I am so angry that I cannot even explain it. I feel like screaming, ripping somebody's head off, killing- ARGH! The doctors are all like "Oh.. you must stay in bed! You had a traumatizing experience last night! We cannot let you out- blah blah blah.. "
What I should right now, if you ask me, instead of lying uselessly in this stupid hospital bed and watching people give me looks of pity, is to go and hunt down that damned Uchiha brat and scratch his eyes out. I don't even give a crap whether he is the last Uchiha left in Konoha. I don't care whether he is one of the most sought-after bachelor with millions of fan-girls. Frankly- I don't even give a crap what they'll do to me after I make their "beloved Sasuke-kun" fucking blind.
Because right now, I am so fucking P.O'ed. I am so angry that I will explode. And it could happen. Nobody has ever managed to explain the cause behind spontaneous combustion. I can only imagine if the person is angry enough, and her chakra has risen inside her body, then... BOOM! Yes. That's right I will go BOOM if they don't let me out of here and commit that damn brat's murder!
But unfortunately, when I explained this to the nurse who is currently tending to me right now, she just smiled as if I was some cute 12-year-old. Like, hello? I am a 14-year-old who is currently awaiting her death by spontaneous combustion while the only person who can save me from this thinks that I am telling her a joke. Puh-leeze. I seriously doubt that when somebody lying on her deathbed is telling a lie. The nurse sure thinks so, though.
Geez... what do I have to do to make you people listen to what I have to say? This is making me even angrier than before! This is not safe! Not safe to me, or any patient in the hospital. If only they would let me out and commit Uchiha's murder, I swear I will be a good girl and return to my bed and rest. I swear! However, when I told the nurse this, she just looked at me with a raised eyebrow as if I was crazy. But then I didn't even get a chance to convince her to let me out when Kakashi-sensei came in.
"Hello, Sakura." He says, as if this was some normal, happy, sunny day (which it wasn't, I could see the clouds from outside my window. )
I turned away. I did not feel like talking right now. Especially to Kakashi-sensei because I am afraid that the verbal diarrhea will come out and I will swear and yell and scream and... yea. You get the point.
Then he looks at me with a raised eyebrow (what is with everybody and their eyebrows?!!?) as if to question why I was ignoring him so openly. He ran his hand through his silver hair and sighed.
"Sakura, why are you ignoring me?" he asks, as if he had NO idea why I should be so pissed off at him.
I snapped my head back and caught his eye in my eyes. I shot him a death glare and then... my plot to remain completely silent totally failed me right then and there.
"Geez, sensei. I have no Idea why I would be ignoring you! Maybe it's because... of oh, I don't know, the fact that you let that retarded Uchiha brat string you along into not nominating me for the Chuunin exam? Maybe it's because that I am sitting in the stupid hospital bed right now, instead going after that bitch and scratching his stupid I-can-see-through-anything-Sharingan eyes out for being so nosy?"
Kakashi-sensei looked quite taken back at my words. Ha. I bet that he thought that I was asleep, didn't he? Maybe he wasn't as observing as I though he was.
"Saku-" he started with this guilty look on his face.
I cut him off.
"Listen, sensei. I don't really care if you don't believe in me or not. I don't care if Sasuke-bastard doesn't believe in me. What really kills me is that fact that you two have the NERVE to make a decision concerning MY future without consulting me. What about what I want? What about my feelings? You never paid any attention to me- admit it. You didn't. All you cared about was Sasuke and Naruto. Well, excuse me if I wasn't born into an advanced bloodline or if I don't harbor incredible amounts of chakra like Naruto. I'm me and that's all I'll ever be. And I would really appreciate it if once in a while, someone could accept that fact and realize that I'm can't be compared to Sasuke or Naruto."
I paused for a second and then continued my speech.
"I'm really sorry that I was so in love with Sasuke that I forgot about my training or my strength. I'm sorry that he left the village and I couldn't stop him. I'm sorry that everyone who got sent out to retrieve him got hurt. Oh yea, I am the most sorry for realizing that I had wasted two years of my life on him and he still ends up hurting me. I really am. I'm sorry that Naruto and Sasuke are stronger than me. I'm sorry I'm not the perfect addition to the perfect team that you have imagined. I AM SORRY THAT I AM A DEAD WEIGHT! I'M SORRY THAT EVERYONE FEELS LIKE THEY HAVE TO PROTECT ME!! I AM EXTREMELY AND UTTERLY SORRY IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY THIS SPEECH. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT, KAKASHI-SENSEI? I DO NOT GIVE A CRAP. I DO NOT CARE WHETHER YOU WON'T NOMINATE ME FOR THE CHUUNIN EXAM BECAUSE I AM SICK OF YOU. I AM SICK OF SASUKE'S LACK OF COMPASSION! SO PLEASE, IF YOU WILL, GET OUT OF HERE RIGHT NOW BEFORE I BREAK YOUR FACE. AND THAT'S A PROMISE!!!" I hollered.
God. Who does he really think is? Walking into this room as if he cares about me but he really doesn't. Once you think about it- nobody really does. You know, as I lie here alone, scribbling in this- I realize just how many burdens Naruto has to carry. I realize just how hard life is and I am truly sorry for all the pain I caused him. Honestly- everything in this world may change but Naruto will never change. No matter what happens to me, no matter how harsh the words I say to him, no matter how hard I smack him... He is always there, the one thing that I can truly count on.
Geez.. now I'm crying again. God... I am so sorry, Naruto. I am so utterly, completely sorry for everything. And this time I mean it. I really do. I think that was the most sincere apology that I have ever made in my entire life. When I finally get out of here, which is in two days, I think I will go treat Naruto to ramen and ignore all of the stares that people send me. Because, frankly, I don't care- if they can accept such an unfeeling bastard like Uchiha, who deserves none of their attention, I don't see why they can't accept Naruto...