Here I am again with Chapter number three so you ppl's will get off my back cuz god ya'll is heavy :P

Anyway I'd don't own Saiyuki blah blah and all that stuff.

Regrets

Sanzo lit his third cigarette since Goku had taken off earlier that day and had yet to return.

"Sanzo don't you think we should go and look for Goku he's been gone for quite some time now?" Hakkai asked.

Looking up briefly he let out a puff of smoke and sighed. "That monkey can do what ever he wants it's not my job to keep an eye on him twenty-four seven."

Shaking his head Hakkai looked out the window in search of a sign that Goku would return soon but what he saw had him standing up so quickly he knocked his chair over. "Sanzo! Come quick its Goku!"

Getting up he walked over to the window and his heart stopped because walking towards their hotel was Goku in Sage form, reaching for his gun he jumped out of the window and prepared to face him knowing that Goku was a blood thirsty and unstoppable monster in this form. "Hakkai go and find Gojyo I'll hold Goku off till you return."

"Are you kidding? I can't leave you alone with Goku when he's in this state!"

"We both know that I'm the only one who stands any kind of a chance now go get Gojyo!" Turning back he looked at Goku who seemed to be taking his sweet time getting to them, it was then he saw Goku was clutching his chest where there was a vast amount of blood pouring out of a large wound. "Wait Hakkai look!"

Turning away from the door he saw Sanzo actually looked scared, looking at Goku he knew why it seemed Goku was bleeding to death. "Sanzo we have to help him!"

"We don't know for sure this isn't some sort of a trick Hakkai!" In truth it was all he could do not to run over and pull Goku into his arms, but his will was over powered when he heard Goku.

"S-Sanzo…" he could barely retain his sense of self as the blood loss got to him, the last thing he saw was Sanzo running and as he fell he felt a pair of arms wrap around him and hold him up.

"Will he be okay Sanzo?" Hakkai asked as he came to stop beside Sanzo just as he finished putting Goku's limiter back on.

"The wound looks pretty deep but…."

"But what Sanzo?" Hakkai prodded as to what was wrong.

"It looks as if he inflicted the wound upon himself in order to keep himself from hurting us." Looking at Goku as he lay in his arms bleeding and pale he felt his heart clench with fear for the young boy.

"Bring him back into the room and I'll work on healing him ok Sanzo?"

"Yea fine." He lifted Goku gently in his arms and took him back to the hotel room where he laid him on the bed softly, he turned to move so Hakkai could tend to him but he was stopped when Goku reached out and grabbed his robes.

"Ngh! Sanzo don't hate me I'm sorry but I didn't want him to take it off I didn't want to hurt anyone so I hurt myself but please don't hit me….please….." Wheezing in pain he struggled to look at Sanzo.

Hakkai prepared to help Goku assuming Sanzo would brush him aside as he normally would but to his great surprise Sanzo pulled Goku into his arms and held him close. "Stupid Monkey I could never hate you! But why did you have to go and get yourself hurt like that?"

Through his pain his body registered the feeling of being held in Sanzo's arms, his eyes nearly closed and his face began to blush slightly as he held onto Sanzo's arm. "I'm sorry but if I hadn't injured myself then he would have made me hurt you guys."

"Sanzo I need to heal him, we can question him about these things later." He moved forward motioning for him to move aside.

Nodding Sanzo let Goku go and stepped aside so Hakkai could help him out.

After about an hour Hakkai finished up on Goku who had fallen asleep, turning to Sanzo he was careful to choose his words. "Sanzo are you ok?"

"Yes I'm fine…Where the hell is Gojyo anyways?" He glared at the door as if it would make Gojyo magically appear.

"I'll go and get him if you'll keep an eye on Goku ok?" He wasn't sure but he had a feeling Sanzo and Goku could use some time alone.

"Yea I'll keep an eye on the monkey you just go find the water sprite!" He nodded as Hakkai left the room.

Slowly Goku opened his eyes and looked around until he saw Sanzo standing near the window smoking a cigarette. "Sanzo what happened?"

Turning to look at Goku his heart was glad as he saw that Goku was going to be ok. "Hakkai healed you then went after Gojyo…So you wanna tell me what happened?"

Lowering his eyes he shrugged. "This guy claiming to be a devil showed up and started spouting of some crap about having been the one that created me and saying that he was my moon and when I didn't want to do what he said he took off my limiter but he was able to control me so I had no choice but to injure myself and go to find you guys."

Sanzo walked over and looked down at Goku who was visibly shaking by now. "Goku did you believe what he said about creating you and being your moon?"

He wiped at his eyes then glanced up at Sanzo. "I believe he was telling the truth…but I don't think he is my moon…besides I have no use for a moon when I have a sun to light up my world."

Staring down at Goku he felt his heart contract with an overly fondness for the kid but he couldn't help it as he gently sat down on the bed and pulled Goku into his arms. "Goku I could have lost you today….and if I had then my life would have been over along with yours."

Startled he looked up into to Sanzo's eyes that were now brimming with unshed tears. "Sanzo? What are you saying?"

"I'm saying Goku….That you are more important to me than the air that I breathe and today I learned that….Goku I love you." He hauled Goku's small body to his own and pressed his lips to Goku's in a feverish kiss.

Moaning Goku melted into the kiss as he clung to Sanzo with a fierce need, when the kiss finally ended and they pulled apart each gasping for air Goku studied Sanzo with heated eyes. "Did you mean it?"

"…Yes Goku I meant it I love you." He laid his hand on top of Goku's smaller one.

Smiling he looked at the touching hands then back at Sanzo. "Sanzo…I-I love you to."

Lifting Goku's hand to his lips he placed a kiss on the back of his knuckles and smiled. "I kinda figured that monkey boy."

"But don't you have any regrets about loving another guy Sanzo?" He questioned.

"My only regret is that I wasn't there to protect you." With that he pulled Goku to him and they both lay back on the bed peacefully.

Ok so there it is andI hope you guys enjoy it!

I'll try and make another update about what happens with Akuchi soon so just hold up a little longer it'll be worth the wait I promise!