Disclaimer: I don't own Fruits Basket….way to shove it in your own face Amelia, GAWD!
I'm baaaack! Anyway, I'm really sorry about not writing for, what? Two weeks! Sorry, I'm juggling school, sports, music and my social life, it's really, pretty hard, anyway if this chapter sucks, the next ones might not, I gotta get the juices flowin' again! Also, about Tohru (in the end thingy with a lot of dot, dot, dots) the whole reason she speaks formally is true, I got off a chapter 108 or 109 summary. And, yes, by further review of my story, this chapter is the absolute worst.
Chapter 8: A Sun Peaks Through The Vast Grey Clouds
Yuki, sat, perched on a rock, deep in thought.
Why? Why do you pop into my head? Why is your smile so infectious? How could you brighten my heart?
He could only think of Tohru, he knew this was the place to tell her what was on his mind. This thought that set him on the brink of insanity, his bottled up feelings causing his heart to ache, but he couldn't show her that side, the side that he held locked away.
"Will you come take a walk with me Miss Honda?" Yuki said, out of the blue.
"Huh…Oh, sure! Let me grab my shoes and we can go!" she said cheerfully, with a Tohru-smile, causing Yuki's heart to flutter.
I'll tell her, tell her now…
"Momiji! What are you doing with the ho-", Kyo was stopped in mid yell.
"-se" He was now completely drenched.
"Ha ha, Kyo got wet!" Momiji shouted as he skipped around joyously in honor of the defeat of Kyo.
"Why you little!" Kyo ran around trying to catch the damn rabbit as Hiro and Uo looked on in shame, this was the true definition for pathetic.
"Ya know Orangey, your quite the moron." Uo said matter-of-factly.
"Damn Yankee…" he mumbled as he marched off toward the house in search of a towel, that is, until he saw Yuki with Tohru walking in the little secluded garden. He stopped and stood, ears perked up and glaring at the two…together. He used his cat-like abilities (writer: HA! I…mean…, yeah, that's right, cat like abilities…) to, what he liked to call listening-in-so-Tohru-wouldn't-get-hurt, but what I'd like to call, eavesdropping.
"Miss Honda, I brought you here to tell…to tell you…that I…" Yuki couldn't think of words, so he expressed his emotions through actions, and kissed her deeply letting all his emotions run away.
Tohru stood there, surprised at this action and pushed back, she loved Kyo…
Kyo, who didn't hear anything, just watched in deep anger and could feel his heart break and shatter in to a million pieces.
How could I have thought that she would love me, all this time it was probably just pity from Tohru's heart that loved me most, those kisses those feelings all gone, she only loved me because I am the cat and she probably felt bad telling me she loved Yuki, so it was all an act.
"Tohru…" he whispered from behind the bush he was now emerging from.
"Kyo! I-", Tohru said, surprised, she loved him, she needed to tell Yuki that this wasn't what she wanted.
"Yuki, I-"
But now, Kyo was running.
I'll run away, there's no one else on this world who I could love, running will let Yuki and Tohru live peacefully, that's the last thing I will give to her. If I stayed I would only rip apart, I'll train again, and live in the mountains. Living here would only tear me apart, would only lead me to a slow death. Memories of her would only well up inside. He needed to be rid of this world and of all the memories he held, this world wasn't meant to withhold the cat.
He ran through the woods, he couldn't stop until his heart couldn't pound, he ran and ran, the memories falling with each tear in his eyes, he needed to get rid of those feelings before he could die. Tohru, he loved her and she broke his heart.
"Kyo! Kyo, please come back!" Tohru was now crying, she was desperate to find her love.
Yuki now understood. What filled Tohru's heart was her love of everybody, but that special person who held another place of her heart was Kyo, and so the cat really would be rat. His love for Tohru was one-sided and he loved her because he felt like he was finally needed, like he helped someone find away. He understood now, what Tohru loved, and understood he could never have her, and it burned, deep inside his heart there was jealousy, but there was also a happiness and his urge to find Kyo for Tohru as a last gift for Tohru and for the Idiot Cat, was clouding his deep regrets.
It was pouring down thick sheets of rain, thunder and lightning overpowered the sky and the world was dark and dank.
No...stop thinking you love her! It will only lead to deeper regrets and deeper gashes.
He ran until he got to the foot of the cliff and stopped. Suicide. It's what his mother did and now he faced it.
Why should I hesitate, I'm a horrible thing, I'm a monster, I killed my own mother! Why? Why do I stand here waiting? Waiting for a last call to me, waiting for the last time, for someone to care and see me as me.
"No…don't Kyo, I-I…" Tohru had followed him to his exact spot, she didn't know what he would do, but she didn't want him to leave.
"Why? I'm a burden and an idiot, I'm useless, I just need to die to-"Kyo was stopped by Tohru who had fallen to her knees. She had to go through a lot to get all the way up to the top of the mountain and her legs had finally given up.
"Kyo…don't…I don't think…I could live…without another person I love…I only talk…I only talk formally…because…people would always say…I never…looked like my father…so they…they…thought my mother had…cheated on him…and…since I have…no likeness…to my…father…I…I…thought my mother…I thought…she wouldn't except me…I…thought…she…would try…and leave…to be with…my father ...in…heaven…but I…wanted her…to always be…with me…so…I…I", Kyo could no longer take it, he embraced Tohru and kissed her. He cradled her in his arms and brushed away the strands of hair. Tohru cried into his arm, she could no longer hold those deep selfish regrets in, she loved her mother but her mother was endlessly searching for her husband, her love. Tohru loved Kyo and couldn't stand to have him gone, she might've even done what her mother did to get back to Kyo.
Kyo held her and the rays of sun peaked through the vast grey sky.
Plus, he wasn't a cat.