The best of you.

"Is it that bad?"- Rei asked.'Poor Shinji.'

"You make your conclusions after I tell you."-and he began telling Shinji's story.

"When he most needed someone to help him, he had no one.Asuka was there but only in the begining..."

I've got another confession to make: I'm no fool
Everyone's got their chains to break, holdin' you

Were you born to resist or be abused?

Flashback

It wasn't that bad after all.He had Asuka and she was helping him so much this past few days.And he had to admit the kiss they shared the other day wasn't so bad.Now that they were rescued-Thank God- it would be easier.They will have a place to live again.He will be able to be happy, with her.Touji and Kensuke were alive.Most poeple came back.things would be better now.Asuka wans't mean anymore.Or so he thought.

"Asuka, why are we hiding from everyone?There is no need to hide what we have."-he said.

"You don't understand Shinji.I have a reputation to take care of."- she said , and he too blind to see accepted her answer.

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Are you gone and onto someone new?

End of flahsback

But after a while...he got depressed.The memories of the third Impact and his father, you and Misato were haunting him and she wasn't helping.She treated him just like before the third impact.Like sheat...Like he was nothing to her when deep down he meant everything to her.But she never gave him the chance to know that.And she was never able to help him because she could not even help herself."

I needed somewhere to hang my head without your noose
You gave me something that I didn't have but had no use

Flashback

"I'm tired Asuka!You treat me like crap in front of everyone, but when there is no one seeing you say you love me!I should have never came back!"- he yelled.

"Oh yeah Shinji make it about you!It is always about you!You are the same coward that you were before! I explained you why I can't make it public!"- she said denfending herself.

"Me?A coward?What about you?You hide yourself from everyone!I know you can't make it public, but o you have to humialite me like you did before?When I need your help the most you are pushing me down, how can I not make this about me?"-he wanted to dissapear.nothing had changed.

"Shut up Shinji.It is not like this will ever have a future. It is not likewe are going to live together or get married or something."- she said.But she never meant it.But he didn't know that

The tears formed into his eyes.He trusted her.For what?

"No future huh?I guess there is no reason to continue this relationship then.Why don't we end it now?Let's not suffer anymore over something that will end eventually endI mean I won't suffer, because you never cared at all."-he held his tears.He would not cry in front of her, he would not cry over her anymore.

She was shocked.But she couldn't show it.'This is how you are going to play?Two can play this game!'-"Fine then!It is over."- she said and walked away.he too walked away.And things between then were never the same.

I was too weak to give in, too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again but I break loose

My head is giving me life or death but I can't choose
I swear I'll never give in, I refuse

End of flashback.

"She tried to get back with him.She even promissed that she would make it public.But he didn't trust her anymore.He sank into a deep depression.Too confused about the thing he couldn't change.That time was when he remembered you.When he missed you...When i met him..."

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Has someone taken your faith? It's real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must, confess

Flashback

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

"I have no idea of what to do anymore.I choose this path but I regret it.The only people that truly knew me and helped me are gone.The only one that last is you."- he looked at Kaworu desesperate.Kaworu was scared.He never saw Shinji like that.

"Who knew you Shinji?"-he asked.

"Misato.And...Rei."- 'Rei?'what did his sister had to do with this?

"Rei?Why Rei?"-if Rei could help Shinji he would get Rei.

"She knew what was like to be like me.To feel lost, to have no one, to feel useless, she understood me.i know it sounds weird.But it's true.

Has someone taken your faith? It's real, the pain you feel
The life, the love, you die to heal

End of Flashback.

The hope that starts, the broken hearts
You trust, you must, confess

"I tried to make you come but you said that you only make everything worst.Anyway, after a few months he met an student of psicology.She took care of him when he was in the clinic she was working.Her name was Mana."- he took a deep breath and continued-"He thought that she was the one.She helped him was there for him.Anyway he thought she was perfect.Until one day, Asuka called him.She gave him and adress and said he should go there by and exact time.That he would find Mana there.He didn't believed Asuka at first but...he didn't trust people so he went."

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Flashback.

I've got another confession, my friend: I'm no fool
I'm getting tired of start it again somewhere new

He opened the door.It wasn't locked.He entered without making a noise.He started to listen to moans and...Mana's voice.

He opened the door to a room.And there she was.In a bed with another man.he was filled with anger.She immediatly got her clothes and tried to explain.

"SHUT UP!I don't want to hear whatever you have to say!"- he said and left the house.He never expected Asuka to be right.He didn't want to feel the way he felt about Asuka.Not again.He couldn't take so much pain.Would this ever stop?

Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I'll never give in, I refuse

End of flashback.

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

Has someone taken your faith? It's real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must, confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

"He sank into depressin again.that was 3 months ago.you see how much he needed you now?See how much he is happy aroun you, and you are the most comforting past he has.Even with the angels, even you being half of an angel is the most comforting part in his life.Asuka thought she would get him back.that he would trust her again and thank her for everything.But he hated her.He hated both Mana and Asuka..."

Rei didn't say a thing.She felt guilty.For never being there for him.She would help him, she would do the best she could to make him happy again.

A/N:This was a long one.Hope you like it,and review please.