A/N: Hey! I know its been a while since my last update but ive been gone or just didnt feel in the mood to write..neways in this chap the italicized stuff will be the dream and also that part is greatly writen by shooting-starrz-4 who i give mucho props too and thanks...newasy hope u enjoy i know its short but all i could do

Lots of Luv 3 Nikki

"Manny, come on, your not the only one who got hurt. What...you dont think it hurts when your own god damn girlfriend wont speak to you, yeah i admit i was stupid, we made a promise Manny, a promise i never broke"

"What the hell are you talking about? Having you boyfriend lie straight to your face, again, that broke my heart"

"Dont give me that, when you turned away that day, you didnt think that hurt? When everyone hates you, thats when your girlfreinds supposed to be there, not turn the conner without a second look, huh Manny you dont think that hurt?"

"Look im sor..." She was cut off.

"I've finally figured you out," He said pausing a second before continuing. "When things are getting hard you just run or get rid of them" emphizinig on 'get rid" part. He was right, when things got hard she did run but bring the baby up was just mean.

She gazed around the hall, every eye was on her. Small freshman confussed to whats goign on and what that meant and the older crowd giving fake sympathetic looks to her. Tears welled up in her eyes, it was all too much for her so she ran. Down the hall, out the door, through the park, and into her comfort of her covers.

"What the hell? No, that jackass is buying me a new car." He yelled into the phone. "What? He fuckin' ran into me, i aint payin' him shit" He contined before Emma took the phone out of his hands and pushed him onto the couch.

"Mr. Hogart, yeah this is Emma Nelson, sorry Jay's a little tired and is on alot of medicine"

"Okay ill take care of him" she said nodding and giving Jay a smile across the living room. "Bye" she finshed before hanging up the phone and walking towards the leather couch.

"Your gonna take care of me, are you?" Jay said grabing Emma's arm and pulling her to him, so she's stradeling him.

"Well not if you dont want me to," she said returing the grin that was planted on his face, as she began to get up off his lap, but was pushed back down by a hand on her butt.

"My arm is starting to hurt" He said motioning his eyes to his wraped arm.

It had been almost two weeks since they had been alone with eachother, without having his mom, doctors, or nurses surrounding them. Things were finally back to normal, if you can call anything normal. Jay had come out with only a slight concussion and a broken arm. He had been pretty lucky.

An hour later they were still on the couch, making out. When Jay had a idea.

"You know what babe?"

"What?" Emma asked between kissing his neck.

"We should have a party" He said.

"Okay. What ever you want" She said not really paying much attention, thinking Jay was still high off his medicine.

"Yeah, i have to call Cameron, this is gonna be bad"

Emma's POV

Call Cameron is that what he just said? Why would he call Sean? No one has even heard from Sean in about 4 months he wouldn't show up, no, there was no way. Oh god...I think i feel a cold coming on. He's gonna hate me, if Jay tells him about the ravine, he'll hate me. I sure as hell wont tell him but what if Jay does? What if Manny lets it slip, everyone knows that girl cant keep a secret, well she did keep sleeping with Craig a secret. Oh man im babiling, if thats even if you would call talking excessivly to yourslef in your head, not even out loud. Mabey he wont notice me and Jay are together? Mabey he wont care...? Why am i freaking out because of Sean? He's only the guy who saved me, the best friend of my boyfriend, and my first love. He's nothing to me. Im so confused, i think i need to go home.

Manny's POV

Mami, I felt so safe and warm, cuddled here inside of you. I could hear your heartbeat, Mami; my own little heart had been beating for about six weeks, then. It was so quiet and dark; just the rhythmic thumping of your heart, and the feel of mine, occupying the silence. I had all my fingers, all my toes. Even though I was only so tiny, Mami, I was growing so fast. Everything was working and in its proper place. Before you knew it, I would be ready to meet you. I would be ready to look up at you with shiny eyes and smile. I would be ready to grab your finger hard in my tiny little hand. Mami, you would have loved me so much. I wonder what I would have looked like as I would sit beside you in the mirror, combing my hair and pretending to put on make-up to be just like you, Mami. I wonder who I would've been.

Mami, I know I came at what seemed like a bad time. But life works out, Mami. You would have been okay, me and you. Sitting together reading stories, sharing laughs and hugs and kisses. And when I was older, fights. But we would've gotten over it, Mami.

Because we love each other.

I know it wouldn't have been easy, Mami. But we could've made it. Why, Mami? Why didn't you try? Why didn't you at least let me try at life?

Mami I felt so safe inside of you, but when they ripped me out, Mami they ripped a piece of you and daddy away from you and you can't get me back. Mami, it hurt so bad. Mami, I cried. Mami, I just wanted you to hold me and love me and take care of me. To never let me go.

I sit up here above you now, Mami. You are crying. Why did it take you all these years to cry for your lost little one? Mami, don't forget about me. We would have been okay. Why didn't you see that, Mami?

My eyes opened slowly as a faint tear ran down my cheek. It wasn't the first time i had this dream, i had it almost every night for the past two years. Everyone thinks i dont think about her, about how im not affected. There wrong, I think about her or him everyday of my life. Not one day goes by where i dont wonder how my baby would look, would they have Craig's eye's or mine, was it a boy or a girl, would we have been okay?

Their always saying i had the abortion because i didnt want to loose my shape or because a baby would ruin my reputation or even because Craig made me, but no it wasnt any of those things i knew if i had the baby it wouldnt have a good life. I wouldnt be able to provide everything for them i wanted to, even though Craig said he wanted to be there, he would'nt have, he couldnt even baby sit Baby Jack, how could he handle a full time baby. It just wasnt right.

Yes i conciderd adoption, my baby would have been born, i would've seen her or him, got to hold their tiny body in my arms but then have to give them up, i couldnt do that. They say children bond with their mothers in the first three minutes of their lives, I guess i'll never know. When im older, im sure ill have kids, i'll love them, care for them, but ill never forget about my first, mine and Craigs little baby, that never saw life, because of me.

Uh i think i feel a cold comming on.

A/N: Hey well there it is the next chap...hope it was up to your guys standerds neways again THANk You So much To shooting-starrz-4! Umm please review n tell me what u think should happen

3 Nikki

shooting-starrz-4