A/N: Hey guys! okay i knwo i posted this chapter liek last week. n nothign really has changed except for the title and i added a song in it. that i thougth s0o totally fit!
Disclamier: I dont own Degrassi, their characters, or anything. Haha wish i did, but i dont. tear lol or the song "What I Need to Do" by Kenny Chesney.
Chapter 23 - What I Need to Do
It had been six weeks since Jay left. Emma found hersef running down the familiar street, she had been running alot lately. After school, after dinner, after everyone went to bed she would sneek out and take a run. She ran, didnt care where to, but just ran. Mabey she was trying to run away from everything in her life, mabey it was just a way for her to keep on going. She didnt know or care. Runnign was her way of escaping, of feeling numb of all the pain that he left her with. She missed him like crazy and wanted him back here, with her.
Flashback
"Smile" The guy said to the matching couple, as the flash went off.
"Haha heres one all of you should know." The DJ said into the micorphone as Juvinile's 'Back That Ass Up' began to play.
"Oh my god, Emma we so have to dance to this!" Manny said grabbing Emma's hand and dragging her to the dance floor.
"Alright, geeze your gonna pull my arm out of the socet." She said. Manny quickly released her hand and pulled Jimmy next to her. Before Emma knew it Jay was right behind her, dancing against her to the beat, his hands roaming her sides. The song continued as they danced in sink with eachother. They song finally ended, as another began.
They continued danicng, a little slower then before but sitll agaisnt eachother. Emma slid her hand up to Jays face running her finger across his cheek, while still moving her body with the beat. The dancing was getting to both of them, in a way that wasnt appropriate for school functions.
"Alright heres a new one for ya." The Dj said doing a quick spin befroe the song started.
"Good thing they changed that song," Jay said leaning down into Emma's ear.
"Yeah"
"I was about to loose it." Jay said before kissing her neck. Emma laughed at the feeling of it.
"Jay, Oh my God Jay stop it." She said hitting him playfully on the shoulder.
"You know you like it." He said in her ear once again, this time slightly nibbiling on her ear. Making her laugh again.
"Jay." she pulled his head away from hers. "Were at school."
"Oh yeah," He said turning his face into the smirk everyone knew so well. He slowly went towards her, "If they dont like that, then they probly wont like this." He moved his head to hers, as their lips touched. He slightly opened his mouth asking acceptence into her mouth, she gladly opened. The kiss lasted about one minute before they pulled away.
Flashback Ended
Emma stopped, leaning over tyring to catch her breath. It wasnt that she loved to run, or was even good at it, but the fact that she could do it alone, she loved. She had come to notice how much she relied on Jay, after he wasnt there. She always told herself she would never be a girl who relied completly on a guy. Although she wasnt complitry reliant on him, it felt as if she was. But running, she could do alone, be by herself, her own choice. If she went out for a run without a jacket and got a cold, it was her choice. If she ran so far that she lost her way, it was her choice, her problem. Not anyone elses. It was her down time, her time to think, without no inturuptions, without Mom or Dad, without Jay. And it was her choice, not beccause it had to happen, not because he had to move, not because of anything, because it was her choice. It made her feel better knowing that she chose to be alone, instead of having to be alone, because no one was there.
I keep tellin myself this is
the right thing to do
I was wastin her time, waitin on dreams that
just weren't comin true
And this old highway seems to
understand
Leadin me on to somewhere that no one knows my name
I
got the window rolled down, i got the radio up
I'm doin all that i
can to get my mind off us
Flashback
"Jimmy's throwing a huge party this weekend. You have to come!" Manny said walking with her friend.
"Nah im not in the partying mood." Emma said.
"Come on Em, its been a month. You need to have some fun."
"Manny," Emma said giving her friend a stern face.
"Okay but Em..." Manny stopped, looking at her friend. "Smile okay? He'll be back, he loves you. He'll be back, i promise." She pulled her into a hug, winking quickly at Jay. She saw him watching them, and knew he had heard what she said.
There Jay was sitting in his truck behind the tree they were in front of. He came back to suprise Emma. He hadn't thought anyone had seen him, but of course Manny did. She was right, he did love Emma and he would be back, mabey not soon but he'd defintly be back.
He looked away started the engine and drove away.
Flashback Ended
What i need to do is turn this
car around
Drive as fast as i can til i see the lights of our
hometown
And run to her, take her in my arms
Make her see how
sorry i am, well that shouldn't be so hard
But i drive on, and on,
and on
Eighty-seven more miles gets me into baton
rogue
There's a buddy of mine who says he might find some work
that i can do
Or maybe head up north to knoxville, tennessee
I
know my baby sister, has got a couch where i can sleep
Now the
sun's goin down on my broken heart
Lord, i gotta get bak before i
go too far
Once again, he stared at the exact same spot. That spot on his wall, became like a friend to him. Exactly 34 dots covered it, he stared wanting one more to suddenly apear. Yet it never did. It was as if that little spot, knew everthing about him, every thought, it could see right through him. All the pain, all the regret, all the love that he felt, it could sense. He didnt want to leave that day, without so much as a 'hello' or 'goodbye' but he had to. He loved her, but he wasnt right for her, and he wasnt going to mess things up until he was. This was his chance, his chance to get away, to become something better. Until he could give her anything, where he could be her everything. He wasnt going to go back until he had something going for him, until he could show her, that now, he was good enough for her. She might not understand now why he hasn't called or visited, but in the end she'll understand it was for the best.
What i need to do is
turn this car around
Drive as fast as i can til i see the lights
of our hometown
And run to her, take her in my arms
Make her
see how sorry i am, well that shouldn't be so hard
But i drive on,
and on, and on
But i drive on
Yes i drive on, and on, and
on
Knowin what i need to do
Girl, i'm comin home to
you
Knowin what i need to do
Girl i'm comin home to you
I'm
comin home to you
Knowin what i need to do...
A/N: Alrigth guys, here it is with the song included, as i said before ntohing else really changed. The song is sorta hinting to whats gonna happen in the next chap. n im almost finito with the next one so itll be up purty soon. lots of luv Nikki.