Paradise Lost
Authors Note- Apology for the huge wait, I got swamped!
This chapter is dedicated to the 9 Australian Defence Force Personnel who died helping Earthquake victims in Indonesia.
He seemed do lost, lying on the sort of temporary bed staring at her. He seemed to be trying to process everything that had happened, as though he couldn't quite fit it all together.
She was going to try and explain to him all the stuff that had happened that day, an abridged version of course because she had to go help Dr O, but Conner had already moved his brain into gear and remembered what he had been trying too.
He really, really liked Kira. And he had to tell her, because otherwise he might not get a chance.
"Kira, I um, I er, I… It's all coming back. I remember what happened."
She looked relieved, she hadn't wanted to try to tell the story, and relive the horrible sight she had seen when they first noticed Conner. He had been cleaned up and bandaged now, but then, she repressed a shudder.
"Kira I have to tell you something. And I know that you probably won't like to hear it," he hesitated slightly, but then a determined expression settled onto his face. "But I want to tell you, because when I was sitting in that cell today, I wasn't sure I was ever gonna get a chance. And that really scared me."
She didn't quite know how to respond, and sort of moved her head slightly as though asking him to go on. He'd dropped his gaze from her eyes, and was staring at a spot on the wall opposite.
"I…, I think I'm in love with you Kira…"
If she hadn't been holding onto the bed she would have fallen over for sure. He loved her? Was that what she felt for him? She felt slightly sick as a billion different emotions bombarded her, but before she could say anything back to Conner Hayley rushed into the room.
"Kira, I've got the portal up! Quickly, morph! We need to rescue Tommy and Ethan! I've got it on automatic to open every ten minutes. I'm coming in with you."
She was armed with a blaster, and looked determined so Kira didn't bother trying to dissuade her. She did however shoot a quick look at Conner, who lay rather dismally on the bed. Not knowing quite what to say to him she simply muttered,
"I've got to go…" and raced from the room.
Well that couldn't possibly have gone worst Conner thought as he tried to roll into a more comfortable position.
She had just stared at him, mouth open, confused and then raced form the room at the first opportunity.
But, he hadn't expected anything more had he? Surely he should be glad now, he had told her. It didn't matter how many evil dino freaks threatened him now, because he had sucked it up and finally let her know how he felt. Although now he felt like an idiot, because she was going to avoid him like the plague forever now.
Conner groaned, maybe he had been better off being confused about his feelings. Knowing what you wanted, and not having it really sucked as well.
Kira was still slightly dazed from Conner's words. Hayley was following behind her, expecting her to know the way. She was lucky that the sounds of battle were echoing loudly around the corridors, or else they never would have actually found Dr O and Ethan. She was far too deep in her own thoughts.
The deep and meaningful had to stop however when they arrived at the fight. Dr O and Ethan looked exhausted, and the number of drones in the room was ridiculous, although most of them were lying on the floor, flat on their backs.
Some were still fighting though, and the two rangers looked ready to collapse at any minute. Elsa was long gone it seemed, for she was no where to be seen in the room. Kira assumed she had decided it was a battle she couldn't win and run for it.
Hayley used her blaster to finish off the few remaining drones and Kira rushed to help Ethan, who drooped noticeably when the drones he had been fighting disappeared.
"Took you long enough" he murmured, although he didn't sound annoyed, just tired.
Kira felt guilty. "Sorry, I came back as soon as I could."
"You did good Kira" said Dr O. He sounded relieved. "Let's get out of here before Elsa comes back. Is Conner ok?"
She nodded, and moved to look around the door into the corridor, to check it was clear. There was nothing in sight and so the group moved swiftly and uneventfully back down the corridors to the room that the portal opened in. Hayley checked her watch.
"We have about five minutes to wait," she said. Tommy and Ethan sat tiredly on the floor, Hayley soon joined them, but Kira stood leaning up against the door, lost in thought.
I think I'm in love with you Kira…
I think I'm in love with you Kira…
I think I'm in love with you Kira…
It kept replaying in her head, over and over, and she couldn't get rid of the image of his face in her head. He had sounded so sincere, but so hopeless, like he wasn't expecting a reaction.
That, possibly, was what was bothering her most. Didn't he think she liked him at all? Was he really admitting his feelings and not expecting anything back from her at all?
Well, you didn't give him much to go on when you left did you Kira came a little voice in her head. She'd blown him off and raced out the door, but that wasn't because she didn't love him, she just hadn't been able to tell him how she felt about him. And people had been in danger, surely he got that?
His expression as she had rushed form the room floated back into her mind. He had been disappointed, but not surprised, and hurt as well.
But why had she made him feel that way? She did feel something for him that much she was sure of. She had barely been able to cope when he had disappeared just for several hours. But love? Could you really fall in love in high school? Should she tell him that she wasn't in love with him, but felt something for him? Or maybe she could say she loved him back, and hope that what she felt was love.
Neither option seemed right, but before she could ponder the problem anymore the portal opened in front of them, and the group walked through together. All glad to be out of the base.
A/N- Ok, here's the deal. There's going to be more Conner Kira stuff, I'm pretty sure there will be Tommy Kim magically added before the end too. Apology for the enormously terrible escape, but I had to get something posted, and all my assessments have given me writers block. High school will do that too you. Anyway, holidays are here now, so there should be more within the next two weeks. Thanks for sticking with the story, and review please!