Chapter Three

Empty Eyes

1 week later

Emma and Jay sat at the kitchen table staring at each other. Alex was done for a nap and Emma had finally agreed to tell Jay what she was doing when she was gone. They were sitting there for about an hour in silence. Jay waited patiently for Emma to start her story.

Emma sighed, knowing she couldn't put it off much longer and began, "The night I left I just drove and drove. I didn't stop. I was afriad to. I thought if I stopped I would want to run back home. I knew I couldn't. I wanted to so bad--"

Jay interrupted her, "If you wanted to come back, then why did you keep going?"

"Please, let me talk." Jay nodded and she continued, "I couldn't go back. I had to go. I had to, as cliche as it sounds, find myself. I lost the child I shared life with for 9 months. That isn't something you just get over. You dealt with it in your own way. I couldn't find away. I know it's not Alex's fault, but him being here, being alive didn't help. I was jealous. I was angry. I wanted Alex to be my child. My daughter so bad. I love him. I really do. I know I'm making it seem like I despise him. I don't."

Emma stopped for a minute, and took a sip of her coffee.

"When I finally stopped driving I realized I was near the states. I decided I would keep going. I ended up in California. I've always wanted to go there. Warm weather all the time. I got a room at a nice but cheap hotel. When I got there it was about 4 days after I had left. I took a shower and slept in a real bed. The next I woke up I headed out to look for a way to make money. I got a job at a thrift/antique shop. Pay was alright. The owner, Sasha, was into Buddihism. She would tell me all about it and how it helped most people through rough times. I decided to give it a shot. I was more into the meditating than anything. After a few months, Sasha decided she wanted to move to India. So, she closed the shop and I was left jobless. That's when I would work at random places. Occasionally I would help out at Yoga classes. I would walk dogs. It was fun not having to be somewhere at a certain time. One day, I knew I was ready. I was ready to come back. Back to you. Back to Alex. Back to reality."

Jay stared at her a smile on his face, "So, you like worship Buddha now and everything?"

Emma playfully hit his arm, "I don't worship him. It's not like that."

"Alright, alright. Sorry. Well, I'm glad you're home. So, is everyone else. We missed you."

"Awe! I missed you, too!

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3 months later

Three months had passed since Emma returned home. Things were slowly going back to the way they were. Emma, Ellie and Manny sat in the Hogart backyard alone while their husbans were out with the kids.

The three friends were back to being inseperable. Always together. Shopping, talking, complaining. They did everything together. Just like before.

Ellie was now about 7 months pregnant. She was due in late Decemeber early January.

"So, what should we do today? Shop more?"

Emma and Ellie laughed at Manny. "Manny, put away the credit card. You shop way to much." Emma laughed as she spoke.

"Yeah. And I mean I'm not in the mood to shop. Pregnant people don't like walking around malls for hours and hours."

Manny looked confused, "What do you mean? Last time I was pregnant I shopped every other day. It's a good way to stay in shape."

Emma started to feel sick and ran into the house and right to the month. Manny and Ellie followed behind her.

Manny knocked on the door, "Em, you OK?"

Ellie looked at Manny, then back to the door, "Did you eat anything bad? Do you need anything?"

Emma slowly pulled open the door to let her friends in. She sat on the toliet with tears in her eyes. "I think...I think I might be pregnant."

a/n Totally not satisfied with anything I wrote here. I can't think of drama. Help?