Frozen Love Chapter 15
My body hurts...
I feel weak and light. I can feel the soreness in my throat and aches in my muscles. I've never felt so...dead before.
My eyes are stinging...am I crying?
No...
Me? Cry?
I'm confused...
What's happened?
Where...where am I?
Feeling rushed through his body as Kai's tired eyes opened.
I'm...in a room...
Wait...a room? What happened to the snow? Were we rescued?
The hunger pains in my stomach are gone...wait someone's...
His ears finally picked up the sound of another persons breathing. He looked down and noticed Tyson, fast asleep with his head resting on the couch. An empty plate lay on the floor next to him.
Tyson...he's safe...I'm glad. But where are we? I guess I've eaten but how come I don't remember it? Has all of this just been a dream?
Tyson stirred, feeling the sudden movement.
"Kai..." he mumbled sleepily rubbing his eyes.
"Tyson...what's going on? Where are we?" Kai questioned.
"Oh, well I guess you don't remember...you started coughing up blood. I started screaming when you did so Max and the others were able to find us. You blacked out but we carried you and we tried to find someplace to camp out for the night. We found this cabin. It's great Kai! We've got water and warm beds now! Ray even found some firewood stocked in closet! See?" he said, pointing to the fire that was in the fireplace. Kai nodded, having not noticed it before.
"And there's food too! Enough ingridients to make pancakes! Well...decent pancakes. I woke you up hours ago so I could feed you. I swear Kai...you've never acted more delirious. You were barley awake when Ray and I fed you." "I must have been...because I don't remember it at all..."
"How are you feeling?"
Kai sighed and sat up, running his hand through his hair.
"Better...at least I'm not hungry. But I have absolutely no energy at all...my body hurts..."
"Oh...I see...well at least you're safe."
Kai nodded.
"Yeah..."
A moment of silence.
"Are you ok? You didn't get hurt did you?"
"Nah...I'm fine! You know me when it comes to being hungry!" Tyson smiled, and for a brief second, Kai was convinced everything was alright. But after living underneath his own mask for so long, he could easily tell...something was bothering Tyson.
"What's wrong?"
"What do you mean?"
"You seem troubled….don't think I can't read you by now…"
Tyson laughed a bit.
"Yeah…guess I can't pull the wool over your eyes…"
"So what's bothering you…"
How can I tell him…that I was scared. I thought he was going to die. I thought I'd lost him forever. If Max and the others hadn't come…you wouldn't of been saved….after that I don't think I'll be able to take care of you…what if….when this is all over…what if I can't protect you like you do me?
"Tyson…" "Kai….I know you told me not to worry about it but I…I can't help but feel this relationship..."
His voice drifted off. He seemed uncertain. In his movements and in his voice. He was shaking with a nervous aura surrounding him. It made Kai worry, just what was wrong with his love?
"What Tyson? What do you feel about this relationship?"
Is he leaving me? No…I couldn't take that…
"It isn't fair to you…"
Fair? What's not fair?
"I can't…"
Can't what? What can't you do? "I don't deserve you..."
Don't deserve me? It's me who doesn't deserve you...
"It can't go on like this Kai...I'll only hold you back..."
"Tyson..."
You'd never slow me down...it's you who keeps me going! Can't you see that...?
"I can't do this anymore! If you'd died...I'd never forgive myself because it would of been my fault! I almost let you die...I can't take care of you...and you deserve someone who can..."
You are taking care of me! What do you call right now!
"Tyson don't be foolish...you are.."
"No Kai! I can't live knowing you almost died because of me!"
"But you saved me! If it weren't for you...I would of frozen out there...I could of died Tyson but you saved me...you..." he was cut off by his now teary-eyed lover.
"Max and Ray saved you...not me...all I did was scream. I was so scared I was frozen. I couldn't move. I...just sat there while you suffered."
Kai reached his hand out to wipe the tears but Tyson slapped his hand away. Standing up from the floor he ran out of the room and up the stairs. Kai jumped up to run after him but his weak legs gave way and sent him crashing to the floor. Kai felt his heart drop as the door to one of the bedrooms slammed.
What...happened...
For a moment, it seemed hope full when Kai heard one of the doors upstairs open. But he was disappointed when he say Ray come down the stairs.
"What's going on it's so...Kai!" Ray's tired eyes widened when he say Kai laying on the floor.
"Ray.." he mumbled. Ray scurried down the stairs to his fallen captain.
"Are you ok? Did you fall? Where's Tyson?" he blurted out so many questions Kai felt his brain spin. He sighed, allowing Ray to help him back onto the couch.
"I'm fine Ray...jus weaker than I thought."
"Where's Tyson? I thought he was watching you?"
"He was..." Ray looked confused.
"Then what happened?"
"He...nothing. Never mind."
"Kai..."
Ray sighed, sitting down next to Kai and placing his hand on the blue haired boys shoulder. His eyes dug deep into Kai's, looking for answers. Kai sighed, giving in. He told Ray everything that Tyson had said.
"Honestly...I think Tyson's just scared."
"Scared?"
"Yeah...I think he thinks he can't live up to his side of the relationship. He feels he can't give you what you give him."
"So...knowing that he loves me is enough...I...I haven't had someone tell me that in a long time...and when he did I felt like I'd finally won..." Ray looked confused.
"Won? Won against what?"
That's right...Kai realized. Ray doesn't know yet...
But I can trust Ray...
"Ray what I'm about to tell you...you have to promise not to tell Max and Kenny yet..."
"Sure..."
What could it be?
"Stupid...stupid...god Tyson you're so...stupid..." he cried, tears pouring down his face as he slid down the door and onto the floor.
Why...why! It's not fair why do I have to give him up like this!
Tyson stared at the empty room. He felt a chill and pulled his jacket closer to him.
I know why...it's because I'm not worthy. He...needs someone better than me. Someone who can truly take care of him. I can't do that...I'm not strong enough. I'm weak. Kai was never the insecure one...I was. I am. He's been able to hold in his pain for all these years. Only now has he broke down and let it all go. Still he's stronger than me. I could never do that. I...I cry the instant things happen, I can't keep anything in. It's a wonder I haven't told Max and Ray about our relationship yet. I love Kai...more than anything and I only want him to be happy. I want Kai to enjoy all the precious things in life that he's been deprived of...and I wanted it to be with me...Oh Kai...I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you...but...I have to let you go...even if I have just found you...
A.N: Cliff hanger? Maybe but oh well. I got this chap out faster! I hope you enjoy it! Review! Please?