Hi duds! Sorry for not updating for almost a month, believe it or not, I am writing only at nights (the night inspires me), but at the last few weeks, I was not at home at the nights . . .

I guess I will not be able to update again until the school will start (I got only two months to do whatever I want so I need to use them well).

I know my grammar is off but it is only because English is my third language (I was burned at Russia and moved after that to Israel).

I will work more at the details and the grammar at the last chapters and re write them.

Thanks for your lovely reviews; . . . it makes me happy.

This chapter will contain a song in it so before I start I want to tell you that this song is belong to 'The Offspring' and called – 'All I Want'.

I DO NOT OWN THE SONG NOR BEYBLADE . . .

CHAPTER 10 – ALL I WANT!!!

Hillary's POV

The last 12 hours were the most difficult hours in my and my friends lives, our friend Rei died in a car accident . . . we still could not believe he was gone.

Kai left the hospital an hour ago, since he left no one of us talked or even moved.

I could not stop thinking about what he said to me an hour ago . . . I felt so empty and guilty.

I needed to talk to Kai urgently; I could not leave the things as they were now.

But first, I needed to find him.

I looked over the window and saw that it finally stopped raining.

Then I looked at myself, I only had few bandages on my body and the doctors told me that I was healing very quickly for someone who got out of a surgery few hours ago, they even allowed me to go back to the hotel with my friends.

I continued thinking about Kai.

'I guess it will be the best if I'll go and talk to him now when he is all alone,' I thought to myself in sadness.

I closed my eyes for a second; trying to relax so I will be able to think straight at the picture of the situation we were in now. I opened my eyes and sighed, then I got up from my sit; everyone's attention was on me now.

"Hillary?" Tyson asked me in a whisper as I turned around to face him.

"What?" I asked him in a whisper too.

"You better leave Kai alone now," he told me.

I blink in surprise and my eyes winded, "how did you know I was about to leave and search for Kai?" I asked him.

"I know you for enough time to know your actions," he explained me.

"Sorry Tyson, but this time I just can't do what you ask me to do," I answered him and went off the room before he could replay.

"Hillary!" I heard Tyson's voice calling after me.

I turned around to look at him; he looked at the floor for a moment before he looking at me.

"I think you better wear this jacket on you, it is pretty cold at night," he told me and got closer to me to give me my jacket.

"Amm . . . thanks," I thanked him; I handed my hands to get the jacket but instead giving it to me he pulled the jacket over my head and dressed me up.

"Thanks," I said quietly as I felt a blush appearing on my cheeks.

"I think you better look for Kai on the streets," he told me and with that he got back to the room.

I smiled to myself and got out of the hospital.

I remembered Tyson's advice and started walking at the streets but without any use . . . until now the only things I found there were some trashcans and cats.

You will not find many people walking outside now at 5 am at the streets after such heavy rain.

I walked over the park and set on one of the benches; wondering where Kai could be when suddenly I heard music coming from the trees behind me.

I stood up and got closer to see a wet figure with a dark hair sitting there, next to in stood at least five bottles of bear and he hold a guitar.

I could recognize it was Kai . . . he was drunk and socked in water, singing some song.

I wondered a bit about how he get the guitar but then I remembered that he always had a big bag with something in it . . . well, at least now I knew what it was.

I stepped closer so I will be able to hear the song.

"Day after day your home life's a wrack

The powers that be just breathing down your neck

You get no respect

You get no relief

You gotta speak up and yell out your peace

So back of your rules

Back of your jive

'Cause I'm sick of not living

To stay alive

Leave me alone

I'm not asking a lot

I just don't want to be controlled

That's all I want

All I want

How many times is it gonna take

Till someone around you hears what you say

You've tried to being cool

You feel like a lie

You're playing by their rules

Now it's their turn to try

So back of your rules

Back of your jive

Cause I'm sick of not living

To stay alive

Leave me alone

I'm not asking a lot

I just don't want to be controlled

It's all I want

All I want

I said it before

I'll say it again

If you could just listen

Then it might make sense"

He finished singing and playing the guitar and then sighed.

I kept looking at him when I suddenly I noticed he was shaking; his wet hair hide his face but somehow I knew he was crying, I also remembered that Tyson told me that he want to be alone . . . but I just couldn't leave him in that situation.

I walked near him and knelt down to him; he raised his head and looked at me with his crimson eyes that shined at the light of the moon.

"I'm so sorry! It is my fault he's dead!" he told me and I couldn't stop myself from starting crying too.

"Kai, stop blaming yourself, it is not your fault," I tried to conform him.

He shook his head.

"Please Hillary, I need to be alone," he pleaded and looked at me in the eye.

I came to stand but I regretted in the last second, I looked at him for a moment, and then I took my jacket off and put it on him.

I knew that I have to stay there and be there for him.

"Kai, I'm not going to go anywhere without you, it will be better if you tell me what your feeling," I told him as I set next to him.

Suddenly he started to laugh but stopped and glared at me.

"Yeah, that was a good one Hillary, don't try to understand me 'cause you never will," he told me as another tear got down his cheek.

"Try me," I told him.

We both looked at the eyes of the other for a few moments; I knew that now he was testing me but I was not going to stop now.

After few seconds he turned away and sighed "Fine," he told me in a whisper.

TBC . . .

Well, since I did not touch this fic at the last month I do not know how this is . . . please review me and tell me what do you think.

P.s- accept criticism . . .