Hiiiiii . . . . I know I said I will update in three days but I just could not . . . sorry.

I am feeling sooooooooo bad!!!! I am ill!!!!

Thanks for the reviews the answers will be at the end like always.

In addition, the worst thing is that at those days we got the New Year thing (I am a Jew).

Well, this is the chapter, hope you will like it . . .

Chapter 13 – Could Be Worst.

Kai's pov

I still was at the hotel room . . . this time I was all alone. All the others decided to go out and try to recover from the last tough week they had. First, they had to go to the hospital for last test with Hillary; all I knew for now about her healing was that it was coming out pretty good. However, they still needed to check that everything is fine.

After that is over, I heard them planning to go out to a movie, and after that even maybe to a restrung . . . that is how things go when Tyson is around.

I, as usual, rejected their invitation and decided to stay at the hotel room alone, I still needed to figure out what happened to me at the last week . . . it all happened so fast and I just could not put all the events together. The worst thing at all of this was that there was a big part at my memory that was missing . . . I knew that it meant that something happened at the last few days but I just couldn't remember it. I also knew that it was at the day Rei died, the last thing I could remember from that day was me walking at the street- all wet from the rain that was dripping on me, holding my guitar that I picked from the hotel room at the way.

Somehow, at the end, I got back to the hotel room. Hillary knew everything that was missing at my memory- she told me that she'll explain me everything the moment she will come back . . . the only problem was that I didn't know when she was coming back . . .

Now, after they all left, I finally had the time to think seriously about what I will do with Hillary. I was thinking about to take her out for a few hours and discover the real her . . . after all this time that we all been together I treated her as a normal person, I was not really interested in her or something, I just knew that she was there and that's was enough for me.

I suddenly remembered that it already happened to me once . . . with the other members of the team two years ago. I almost laughed as I remembered how close I was to drowning at that lake in Moscow.

I sighed as I crossed the room, getting closer to the balcony window and looked out. It seemed to be like the nature was sad . . . the sky were all filled with gray clouds- even the sunlight couldn't be seen trough them, plus, there weren't any birds at the sky, almost like they knew that something bad will happen and they shouldn't be out today. I got my hand closer to the glass of the window and touched it with my fingers . . . it was cold . . . really cold. I automatically pushed my hand over my body, away from the cold.

I stared outside for another few moments when suddenly something small caught my eye . . . it was a little white snowflake that fell from the sky, I immediately looked up as I saw some more of them felling down to the ground and melting as the hit it.

'I hope they got to a warm place by now . . .' I thought to myself as I turn away from the window.

I walked around the room as I suddenly shivered; I rapped my hands around my body without noticing and went to the closet to get some clean clothes . . . a warm shower should do the trick . . .

Hillary's pov

I was walking now at the street as the snow started to fell from the sky . . . it's not like I wasn't expecting it . . . but did it has to start now? Why couldn't it wait a few more minutes?

I stopped and looked to the right and the left of the road . . . there was no cars in sight and I crossed it quickly.

I kept walking even fester, a few minutes earlier I walked off the hospital with a grinning face. The doctors told me that everything was fine with me except of few bruises that should disappear in a few weeks but I was free to go . . . I was already prepared to yell at Tyson and enjoy myself when I suddenly remembered that I promised Kai that I'll explain everything to him. Then I just told the others that I rather go back to the hotel room and rest. If I told them the truth they would ask questions that I didn't want to answer.

I passed a block of buildings and then I saw it . . . a tall, white hotel. I looked up and searched for our room . . . it had light in it. It could mean only one thing for me- Kai is there.

Kai's pov

I walked out of the shower with a navy blue towel that I rapped around my lower part of the body A/N: This is a Pg-13 duds . can't go lower then that. I was still wet so I took another towel and dried myself up; I changed into black boxers and throw the towels away.

I looked at the mirror and moved a hand through my two colors of blue hair; a half-naked boy did the same from the second side of the mirror.

I grabbed my clean clothes, walking out of the bathroom and walked to the leaving room when suddenly the entry door opened. I looked at the person in front of me surprised, and then shivered.

"Hillary, close the door already," I told her and put quickly my soft blue pajamas.

Hillary got quickly in and closed the door behind her. She looked at me surprised and embarrassed as I still didn't put the shirt on, I got to see a bit of her reddish face before she turned around to look away from me, but I couldn't tell if it was because she was embarrassed or because it was cold outside.

"Ammm, you can turn back," I told her when I was all dressed up.

Hillary turned around and looked at the floor, I just sighed and stared at her for another moment, and then I turned my head around to see where the bed is. When I saw it wasn't too far away I just jumped back and landed on it softly.

Hillary raised her look at me and looked surprised from the action that I just did, then she sighed too and took her coat off, she walked away and put it in the closet.

"You know Kai . . . life is not a game," she started saying and I already knew where this is heading to.

"Wrong, life is a one big game . . . god just playing Sims with us," I answered her.

Hillary looked at me confused but then suddenly it turned into a glare "I see the alcohol is still affecting you," she said.

"Alcohol? What are you talking about?" I asked her in almost shock . . . but I felt like I already know the answer to this question.

"Tree days ago, when Rei . . ." she stopped and looked at me like she is asking promotion to continue her sentence "died . . ." she said and paused again but this time she wasn't looking at me . . . it seemed like it wasn't easy for her to say this little two words. "You got drunk," she completed her sentence.

I sighed and felt like something inside of me building my memory again . . . there was few seconded when some picture from that event popped in my head and disappeared . . . not something big when suddenly. . .

Flashback

It was a very cold night, Kai held his brown gaiter, all wet, and shivering, his eyes where wet, like the rest of his body . . . but each thing from other reason.

He was covered in something that he couldn't recognize and a figure was putting it's head on his shoulder.

"Hillary . . ." he started, his voice was broken.

The figure lifted it head and looked at him.

"I'm sorry," he said in almost a whisper.

The figure turned her face that way they both looked into each other's eye as if she was going to say something when suddenly Kai leaned his head forward and closed his eyes.

Kai kissed the figure gently on the lips and as he did he felt his head felling back, bombing into the tree behind him . . . he didn't have the straight to hold himself in a sitting position anymore.

The figure only set there frozen and looked at him weirdly.

There was few seconds of silence and the figure lifted Kai's head away from the tree, they just hugged each other, trying to warm up . . .

End Flashback

I looked into the empty space amazed when suddenly Hillary's voice got me back to the reality.

"Huh?" I asked confused.

"I only asked if you remember anything from that night," she told me and I saw a red line appearing on her face.

"Ammm . . . no, I don't," I lied.

Hillary didn't answer; she just looked a little disappointed and turned around entering to the kitchen.

I just stared at her as she went . . . I couldn't believe that I actually kissed her on the lips three days ago.

Now I feeling sorry for her even more then at the evening she told me she have feelings for me, now I made her confused more then ever. I have to make her forget me . . . I'm a jerk . . . I don't deserve to be loved . . . 'because at the end I always hurt people in someway . . .

TBC . . .

Okay . . . this is for now duds . . . I think that from now I'll update once a week at the weekends.

Ammmm . . . please review and tell me if you liked the chapter.

Accept criticism . . . and things that can help me improve my writing if you got any ideas for the story (Example- How will Kai and Tyson fight over Hillary). . . . Write them to me.

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