Ok, so I took out the first chapter that I orginally had. So the orginal chapter 2 and 3 is now 1 and 2 so make sure you read chapter 3 so you aren't confused. Well that probably confused but go on read!

Chapter 4: Free for the first time

It had been a slow morning for the bookstore. The girls were acting scenes from their favorite books or it was really more Betty was, Jenna would just talk about hers.

"Ya, that was a funny part." Jenna said about one of the scenes Betty was doing and they were laughing uncontrollably. "Hey so what's happening with you and Blink?"

"O nothing. Well yet at least." Betty said starting to giggle like a little school girl.

"Oooo" Jenna said smiling and giggling slightly.

"Well I like him and I'm not quite sure what he thinks about me. I mean I don't really know how he feels. He flirts with me but I'm not sure what his feelings are towards me." Betty confessed.

"Seriously?" Jenna asked not believing what Betty was saying about not knowing Blink's feelings. Betty had nodded. "Well I can tell you this. He does like you."

"Really!" she said getting all excited. She really did like Blink. "But it's been taking him a pretty long time for him to do anything."

"Well have you ever made a move?" Jenna asked.

"Umm no. It was because I never knew how he felt about me!" Betty said "Well maybe it's time I do something." trying to formulate a plan in her head of what to do as her first move.

Betty spent the rest of the day thinking of different moves to put Blink. She couldn't believe that Betty didn't figure out Blink liked her.

Jenna couldn't wait till midnight that night because she was going to meet up Nathan and the rest of the guys. They saw Mr. Johnston a couple of times during the day. Betty thought he was being a little strange but Jenna thought it was just normal.

The end of day had come for work and Betty and Jenna went home. They had made some dinner for themselves and Marie.

"Are the both of you coming to Medda's tonight?" Marie said "Blink is going to be there tonight Betty." this time smiling at her.

"I'm in." Betty said fast.

"Jenna?" Marie asked.

"No, I think I'm going to stay in tonight. I still tired from last night." Jenna answered. She really wasn't tired it was that she had to be something she needed to do.

A half hour later

"Are you sure you don't want help with the dishes?" Marie asked

"I'm sure." Jenna said practically pushing the other two out the door. "Now go and have fun. Don't worry about me and tell all the boys I say hi. Ok. Bye." She just closed the door so the other two wouldn't have a chance to speak.

Jenna did the dishes and just cleaned up around the apartment. She finally had time to unpack her things and decided to read. She hadn't been able to just read for a long time. She sat down on their couch and started reading Sense and Sensiblity. Her older brother had recommended that she read it. She had gotten through with a couple of chapters when she noticed that she should get going. It was almost time for her to be some place.

At the lodging house earlier

"Heya Jack." Spot greeted him.

"Heya Spot. You coming to Medda's tonight?" Jack asked.

"Sure am and I'm going to head back to Brooklyn afterwards. I'm feeling like my old self." Spot said cheery. Which was kind of odd to see, Spot cheery?

"That's good. So, what's up with you and that new girl?" Jack was little curious to know what affect she had on him and purposely left out her name

"Jenna." Spot responded quickly with a smile and Jack smiled too. "She's cute but shy. Didn't really say a word last night after you asked her about the ranch thing." Spot said.

"So do you like her?"

"She's cute, shy and" he paused "cute but I don't really know her." Spot said smiling and Jack smiled back at his friend seeing that he was making an effort to change his life.

"Well come on, let's get going." Jack said and they walked out of the lodging house.

Later at Medda's

"Hey guys." Betty said.

"Hey boys. Where's Entice?" Marie asked using Clara's nickname the newsies gave her. It was a rule if you hung out with the newsies you needed one.

"She's up and about again. It's busy in here again tonight." Jack said getting up.

"Where's Jenna?" Spot asked hoping he might be able to talk to her tonight.

"O she was tired so she stayed in tonight." Betty responded going over and sitting next to Blink. Spot thought maybe some other time then. He was hoping that he could get to know her a little more. But it would have to wait until the next time.

Everyone was having a good time. Spot forgot about girls that night and had a fun time playing poker with the rest of the fellows and joking around. Around 11:45 Spot announced that he was going to head back to Brooklyn.

"Alright" he said throwing down his cards when he lost to Race again "It's time for me to head out before it gets too late. Bye guys." he got up and started walking to the door.

"Bye Spot." the gang cheered as Spot was leaving. He looked over his shoulder and waved to the them.

He stepped outside of Medda's and started heading towards the Brooklyn Bridge. After about five minutes of walking he was near the distribution office when he heard footsteps behind him. He walked into an alley and waited for the people to pass. He saw five guys pass the alleyway and head over to the statue. He was wondering who these guys could be meeting at the statue late at night. Not only a couple of minutes later he heard another pair of footsteps and hid in the shadows even more. But this is instead of passing the alley they came into it. Spot didn't recognize the person at first but the further they came in he saw that it was Jenna. She stopped and leaned her back against the wall opposite of Spot. He was curious to know what she was doing out here since the reason she didn't come tonight was because she was tired. He was about to say something but she had spoken to herself.

"Brian, please give me the strength to break the news to them." she paused and noticed she had a bit of an Irish accent. "I just need them to understand. I need them to understand that I can't go back." she paused. "Please don't let them be mad at me." This last part she had mostly said to herself. Spot had stood there wondering what she was talking about. He decided to keep watching her to see what was happening.

She left the ally and headed over to the statue. "Hey fellows. How are ya?"

She said starting get a western accent and Spot could hear her clearly.

"Good." Nathan responded. Nathen was her best friend and knew she was up to something he wouldn't agree with. "Jenna what's going on here. Why did you bring us here, get a job and apartment?" All of the guys wanted to know and nodded in agreement of hearing the truth.

Jenna knew that it was time to break the news to the guys. She took a deep breath and without looking at the guys said "I brought you guys here and got a job and place because I'm going to stay here when you guys go back home." There was an eruption of questions from the guys but Nathan remained silent.

"Can I talk to you alone?" Nathan asked Jenna, not sure why she was doing this. She nodded. He grabbed her arm and headed back to the alley where Spot was hidden. Spot had ventured a little closer to the front but ran back to the shadows as the two came closer. Once in the alley Jenna had leaned against the same spot from earlier looking at the ground and Nathan stood standing facing her with his arms crossed.

"Why?" was all Nathan asked and she looked at him.

"Why what?" Jenna asked not sure what part Nathan was referring to, the staying here, leaving them, she didn't know.

"Why are you staying here?" he asked. She didn't say anything for a couple of minutes. She wasn't sure what to tell him but he just stood there waiting for an answer.

"Look Nathan. We got rid of McClaire, we all made sacrifices to fight him. But you guys have something to go back to. Family, fiancés, girlfriends, I don't have anyone. There's nothing there for me to go back to." When she said that she realized what she had just said. Nathan looked at her hurt. "Nathan I didn't mean that. You're my best friend you'll always be but life back there won't be the same if I go back. I'll be living in my house all alone, trying to run the farm by myself. Sure you would offer for me to stay with you but people will start talking again." She paused. "I can't go back there knowing that I single handily ruined everyone's life-"

"You didn't ruin everyone's life, McClaire did." Nathan interrupted her, his anger showing through his voice.

"But I was the reason he did ruin people's lives. Innocent people are dead because of me Nathan. Going back to that town, knowing everyone would be staring at me, saying comments behind my back, I wouldn't be able to handle that. I'm not that strong of person when it comes to that. Sure, I can defend myself, wow I strong. Physcially but not mentally." Nathan smiled a bit and she gave a small laugh through the tears that had started rolling down her cheeks "But the thing is my old life had ended the same time McClaire died." Jenna had finished and Nathan started walking towards her. She was looking down at the ground refusing to let herself been seen like this and he stopped right in front of her. He raised his hand and put it under her chin and raised it so she was looking him in the eyes.

"I understand, it's just letting you go I don't want to do." He told her.

"But we can write to each other, still be friends." She told him hopefully.

"Ya. So how long would you like us to stay for?" He knew that she would want them around for little just to make sure everything was safe.

"For a couple of weeks if you can but if you guys have to leave sooner I understand." She said and Nathan nodded. "There's one more thing." Nathan looked at her again and she was smiling. "Nathan I never felt like this before. Back at home I was always seen as a child, no one ever gave me respect and they talked down to me. Here I'm actually looked at like a young lady, even the guys look at me, which never happened back home. I feel free for the first time. That there's no limit to what I can do. If I want to go out I can without people talking about it, if I want to run around dressed like a guy I probably could. This is just the first time I feel like I can finally be me!" She said.

Nathan took a deep breath and smiled. "I understand but let's get back the fella's and tell them what's up."

"Thanks Nathan. Thanks for understanding." she said and for the first time in months she really smiled. They left the alley and Spot came out of his hiding spot.

"What was up with that?" he said to himself. He watched them walk back to the rest of the gang and was wondering what they were talking about. They were talking about some guy named McClaire and he ruined people's lives. By this just made him all the more interested in her. He also remembered that she said she could fight. He was definitely going to have to check this out for himself. He watched them talk for about ten more minutes. He watched Jenna leave in one direction and the rest left in the opposite. He decided to follow her to make sure she got home safe because he knew walking around alone at night was not a safe thing to do.