Chapter Two

Tittle: Keep it a secret

Rating: R

Faye was in her bathrobe leaning against the kitchen door with a cup in hand. She had not really slept the previous night. This whole julia is back thing was getting at her. She gripped the coffee mug and then flung it towards the hallway that led to the livingroom. It crashed against the wall.

"Hey watch it" she blinked and then gasped. There stood spike smiling like a goof again "I said I was going to come late don't be angry" she shook her head and ran to him

"Oh spike I'm sorry I was just....it wasn't meat for you sweetheart I'm sorry" he held her tighter

"What's the matter Faye?" she needed to find a lie something, but what?

"Oh spike it's just that I was trying to put all of my memories into order again" damn she's good.

"Ah those....had another one?" she shook her head "then what?"

"Just trying hard to get another one I guess....how did it go?" she pulled away from him

he rubbed his neck "the kid is with his mother, but I think the father might be a bit angry with me" she laughed a little "don't say that I blame him that woman was so arrogant" she punched him

"see I told you those snobs" he picked her up "what is it?"

"I missed my wife.....it's not cool sleeping alone in a cold ship you know...so what do you say you warm me up?" she kissed him as her answer

They ended up in their room once more. Faye on her knees. And spike sitting on the bed his head looking at the ceiling, but in reality his eyes were sort of rolled to the back of his head. She knew how to please him. She knew what he licked and right now he liked nothing more than what she was doing.

"Ahhhh Faye....I can't hold it...fa..ahhhh" she happily lapped all of his seeds and then gave him a firm squeeze

"Warm enough?" he put his hands on her shoulders and pulled her up "not yet" she straddled him and positioned herself easily sliding his member into her.

As he pounded into her she couldn't help but think about that damned letter. Why now? Was it even real? Was she even alive? Or was this a sad ploy to get back at spike? But if it was a ploy who could be so lame as to do it?

The thoughts were pushed aside when she was nearing her moment. He always managed to make her senses numb somehow. She had that same effect on him

He was so engrossed in their love making that without realizing it he bit down on her nipple hard and she screamed. Both in pain and in release. He follow after. They sat there panting. When he was able to focus he looked at her face

"I'm sorry" she quirked an eyebrow and didn't understand what he meant. He kissed her nipple and breast "for bitting you" he finished.

'He bit me? I didn't even realize it...such a caring man I love my spike' she hugged him tight

"Spike I love you" he squeezed her rear end as he sniffed at her hair

"Faye I love you too" he laid down and she slipped to her side, but he pulled her to his chest her back resting against it "I'm not going to work until later wake me up when it's two"

He fell asleep about five minutes later and faye turned around in his embrace to look at him. She caressed his cheek and played with his hair

I can't lose you spike, but I know that I might...I only hope I'm wrong and that this is just some sick prank.

She made them Lunch. Yes she can cook after all she took a class for the sake of her marriage and her health. She wanted to be more homely even if she wasn't the type. But she did not become a complete housewife.

He ate it happily he always did. Jet and Ed would come over for dinner most of the time because they actually had beef. Now they were at the office.

She had gone to see Ed in her tiny office while spike was in his office. When she had talked to Ed she was walking back, when she noticed and man burst spike's door open and Daisy trying to stop him only to be shoved to the side.

She ran to the office and found the man holding spike by his shirt collar. She gasped and then ran to them "let go of him" the man only growled as if he was a dog.

Faye needed to stop this. The man threw spike towards his chair and he let him. What the fuck was that about? "Stop it" she pulled out her gun from her side "I said stop it or I will blow you head off"

The man turned around. His blue eyes settling down on her "why? He took my kid and gave him to that bitch" faye lowered her gun

"Sir I know that you have every right to be mad at my husband, but this is something that you should be discussing with a judge, maybe that way you can have your kid and noone can take him away, technically even if you are the father you did kidnap him and the mother sought help"

He sat down and put his face in his hand "she is not a good mother she hurts him, but she's rich and I can't do anything about it" faye kneeled down while spike watched

"If she hurts him then you need to get proof, show it to the proper authority and then fight to get his custody, but like I said hurting my husband wont solve anything" he looked into her eyes and smiled

He took her hands much to Spike's dislike "you are right I should have thought of that, please let me make it up to you, how about dinner?" he must have blocked out the whole husband part.

Spike glared at the man as Faye took her hand away. Spike walked over to the duo and she got up, he instinctively put his arm around her waist "dinner would be great if you happen to be offering it to my husband that is"

The man raised his eyebrows "husband? Oh" spike cut in

"Yeah husband or are you deaf too?" faye elbowed him lightly and he rolled his eyes "sweetheart why don't we have a quiet dinner just the two of us I would like that"

The man smiled nervously "sorry about that Mrs. Spigeal...well now I must go and find someway to get the evidence that my ex wife is hurting my son" he was almost out of the door when Faye stopped him.

Both spike and the man looked startle "I think we can help you with that" spike opened his mouth and closed it

"You can?" she walked over to Daisy and told her to get Ed

"You see we also consider ourselves the best spies around so we can get radical ed to bug your wife's house and she will never know it... call it our apology for taking him from you"

"Thank you so much this means alot...my name is Alan Drake" she took his hand

"As you know that's my husband Spike and my name is Faye" she took her hand back as Ed came in.

Soon Alan was told of what to do and Faye was more than happy to help. Spike could not believe his wife, but heck she always surprised him.

Now they were sitting on their couch cuddling as an old movie was shown. He rubbed her back affectionately and she kissed his neck. Purring once in a while. That led to them heading to their room and giving in to their passion.

As he was pounding into her he was unaware of the one word that would break her. He was so into the sex that he called out the wrong name "Julia" he had said and Faye pushed him off of her.

He was startled and looked at her "Faye?" she couldn't take it and ran to the bathroom locked herself there.

He too ran to the bathroom and began pounding on it "faye what's wrong? Let me in...faye"

"Go away Spike leave me alone" he only intensified his pounding

"Not until you tell me what is wrong"

she opened the door and walked passed him towards their bed. She had her robe on and climb in "I'm tired leave me alone"

he just looked at her not quite believing what was going on. He sat by her legs but she moved from him "what did I do Faye?" she closed her eyes

"I said I'm tired please leave me alone" he was going to touch her "don't touch me spike just don't"

he was frustrated. What the hell did he do? And why didn't she tell him?

He put his boxers on and climb into the bed as well. Not so close though because she was pissed.

About ten minutes later of pondering he realized what he had done

of fuck I can't believe I called her that...what the hell is wrong with me. How can I have called her julia when they are nothing alike. Why can't I get her out of my mind.

He rolled so that he could see Faye and pushed her hair from her face "I'm sorry faye I didn't mean to....please sweetheart forgive me" a single tear rolled down her cheek and he wiped it away

she opened her eyes and they looked at each other, no words were said anymore. She moved closer to him and he wrapped an arm around her waist as she threw her arm over his chest.

Three Weeks later

Spike was getting their coffee ready to go. They were already late as it is. Having to stop and have two quickies as he called it which both turned out to be a two hour event. It was a surprise that he could even stand. It was ten in the morning and Faye was finishing getting dressed again.

She giggled "hopefully he wont try to get me out of my clothes again...crazy spike" she was a little soar but she knew how to handle him.

Downstairs he came out of the kitchen and headed towards the livingroom. When he noticed a paper being slipped under his door. He quirked an eyebrow and bent down. Picked it up and opened the door. Noone was there. He shrugged his shoulders as he sipped his coffee.

He opened the letter and when he finished the coffee was on the floor with the cup in shattered pieces. He clenched his fists. And his eyes narrowed. He turned around getting ready to leave when Faye called out to him.

He tensed, but was also pissed.

"Spike what happened?" she looked at the coffee and then at him. She noticed the piece of paper and she put a hand to her mouth "spike" she whispered unsure of what else to say.

In the blink of an eye she was pinned against the wall his hand on her forearm "why?"

she looked to the side "why what?"

"Don't play dumb with me Faye, the letter the first one where is it?" she squirmed

"I don't know what you are talking about Spike" he gripped harder "you're hurting me spike"

"Where is it damn it?"

"I flushed it happy" he pushed her against the wall "ouch....spike stop"

"Stop? Why? Faye she's alive and you said nothing"

"She's nothing spike, if she is alive then she will only hurt you, besides we are married are you going to just leave me for her just like that?"

she tried to keep those words from coming out, but she was pissed "well spike?"

He let go of her arm "I don't know Faye, Julia was, is , I don't even know I must see her she wants to see me and I know this is her, because that's her handwriting, I don't know" he walked towards the door

"You are what? What about me spike? Don't go please spike. You are my husband now you can't just leave me like this for her" he stopped and looked over her shoulder

"I'll return Faye but I have to see her" Faye dropped to her knees

"Spike I can't take this I can't be second if you go after her then when you return that is if you do I'm not going to be here" he turned around completely

"Faye I have to I can't just ignored this"

she took her ring off and held it in her hand "those vows we said did they mean anything to you? Does this marriage mean anything at all? Or was this a lie? Were the nights and days we spent together in vain?" he walked closer to her

"Faye I have to go I'll see you later and we can talk alright" she got up and closed the gap between them. She took his hand and placed the ring in it

"Spike goodbye and I really mean this be happy" he shook his head

what the fuck was he doing? This was his wife the woman who gave her everything to him and here he was discarding her like garbage. He shook his head again

"No faye keep the ring I said I would return"

"Return?" she smiled "no spike you will be with her"

"Please Faye just wait here I'll be back later please" she smiled again

"Alright spike" he kissed her cheek and then ran out of the door. She fell to her knees again and began to cry

"I've lost him I can't win ever"

So there she was in their couch waiting for him. She looked at the clock and then paced back and forth. When he didn't come home at two in the morning she went to her room and picked all of her clothes and put them in a luggage.

'I've waited for him as he asked and he never came....how naive could I have been? Goodbye my love I really do hope you find happiness with Julia your Julia' she held her luggage and turned the lights off. She then walked out of the house and out of her old life.

She went to Jet's small apartment and told him everything. Needless to say Jet was ready to kill spike, but that wouldn't help. She had only come to him to let him know that she was leaving, where to she had no clue. He tried to stop her but she was too stubborn. So he let her go, what could he actually do. One thing though he vowed to kill spike whenever he saw him.

Spike had found Julia and both were so happy. They ended up going to a cheap motel and stayed there. Made love like they used and cuddled. Spike was standing by the window looking out.

Something was different, it didn't feel the same, but Julia's hands around him stop all of his thinking and brooding. They held each other.

When he returned home it had been two days later. He knew or thought that Faye would still be waiting only because she had nowhere to go.

So he was confident that he would be able to talk to her, but that wasn't the case. She had left, the house was empty and dust had began to settle. He looked through their closet and drawers. Yup she left and he couldn't blame her.

But he felt the pain and emptiness settling in his heart. He really had hoped she was still there. He wanted to see her face and wanted to talk to her.

He sat on the bed his face in his hands when his phone rang.

"About time I got to you...spike what the hell happened?"

"Hey Jet have you seen Faye?"

"I don't know if I should tell you that or not" spike frowned

"Jet where is she? Is she there?" jet shook his head

"No spike she's gone she left I don't even know where. Spike how could you?"

"Drop it Jet I had to do it, I have to find her I need to talk to her"

"Well she is really broken Spike, I feel for her. How long have you been there?"

"I got here about an hour ago"

Jet's face almost paled "you mean to tell me that you were with that other woman for two nights?" spike nodded "Faye was right in leaving you spike...you are my friend but so is she and what you did has no name"

"Don't you think I know that MOM...damn it Jet I don't know what came over me but I had to see Julia and I don't even know what to do anymore"

"Well spike one thing I can say is that you've lost a great woman" with that jet closed the line

"I know that jet I know that"

Three months later

Spike and Jet sat around in the office. Spike watched as the fan slowly turned. It was really hot that summer and he hated it. Jet was reading some report when Daisy knocked. She came in

"What is it Daisy?" she handed spike an envelope "this came for you Mr. Spigeal"

He took it and opened it. Daisy went to Jet and kissed him quickly before slipping out of the office. Once she closed the door she heard a loud "FUCK" and ran back inside.

Jet and Daisy waited for spike to tell them what it was. He cursed more and then threw the papers on the table "Spike what's the matter?"

"Daisy who brought this?"

"It was a messenger he left sir, what's the matter?"

"I can't believe it....I will not give it to her no way"

"Spike will you just tell us" spike sat down

"She wants a divorce....Faye she wants to divorce me" the others let their mouths hung open

"I can't believe it she wants a divorce? We don't even know where she is"

"The young man said that you needed to sign those papers and that he will be picking them up in two hours"

Spike slammed his hand "I have to see her first...I will not give her any divorce until we talk"

Daisy was pissed and looked him in the eyes "what the hell is wrong with you? Here you are with that other woman and Faye is probably trying to move on and you wont give her the freedom she wants. Are you such an arrogant bastard that thinks he can have both of them. I'm glad she left you"

spike stood up "I wont give her the divorce because I love her damn it and as for Julia it's been a month since I've seen her and I.."

"You nothing...you left her and ran after that Julia woman and faye leaves because she can't take it anymore but now you wont let her be free. Okay so you and julia have not slept together in a month, but are you really ready to admit that you don't love her that you love Faye and are willing to be with her and only her?"

He didn't know what to say. He did love julia, but she was his past. The times he was with her all he did was think of faye and how everything was so different.

He would sleep on the side of her bed just so he could smell her scent on the pillow. He would wake up thinking that he was going to find her in the kitchen making coffee and then pulling him into a kiss that would also lead to them making love.

He missed the way she would fold his socks and the way she would pout when he was teasing her. He missed the way she rocked her hips purposely when they were making love just to make him move faster. Everything about her he missed.

Like the funny way she brushed her teeth and then spit the water or when she would squeeze his ass when they were hugging and say that it belonged to her.

Daisy tapped him on the head and he blinked "I have to find her I can't lose her, I was such an idiot for letting her go and I didn't do a good job of finding her, but I have to find her I must" he stood up

"Spike buddy you need to be honest with her and you need to end this thing with Julia" spike nodded

"I know Jet, Julia is my past and it will remain like that but Faye is both my present and my future"

Daisy smiled and sat down "well there is no address here for her, but this is a law firm that is located on Mars, that would be a good place to search"

"Jet please come with me I know that she would probably shoot me, but with you there she might just"

"I think that's a good idea spike I want to see her as well..but wait till the kid returns, if he doesn't deliver those papers then Faye might think you got the info on her and she will leave her new home"

yes so they agreed to that. Soon after the kid left Spike and Jet boarded their ships.

I'll find you Faye and I'll bring you back with me.

A/N okie dokie...here you go, this is for my first reviewer hopefully this is good right?