Chapter i Can't remember
Tittle: Frustrations
Author: Angee
Rating: R
Neither said a word at the moment. Both were still in the kitchen and outside the rain started to pour.
Faye was standing by the kitchen window watching the drops rolled down the window. She traced some of the drops with her finger.
Spike watched her waiting for his sentence. He was in her hands and god be damned if he tried to get out of it.
He was leaning against the counter legs crossed at the ankles and his hands shoved in his pocket.
Then it began
"What do we do now?"
"I don't know"
"I don't want to fight anymore"
"Neither do I"
"But I can't forget this"
"Neither can I" a soft chuckle and each locked eyes
"What do we do now?"
"You already asked that" another soft chuckle. Spike moved from the counter and walked over to her. She saw his reflection in the window and didn't move.
He wrapped his arms around her and rested his chin on her shoulder. He began to rub her belly
"Spike I'm willing to work on our marriage but I will not forgive you that easily"
"I'm willing to take any punishment you want to give me"
"Are you sure, you might regret it...I can ask you to leave me"
He sighed "you just said that you are willing to work on this marriage"
"I know I said that but I can always take it back....why spike?"
He rubbed the belly more and she leaned into his chest "I never meant to cheat on you I swear, it just happened, Faye I have not cheated for a long time now and I don't plan on doing it again"
Faye held back a sob and continued to look at the rain "Spike I used to be alone all the time before meeting you and jet oh and then Ed, but then I grew to love the idea of being a family with you all even if at times I was a total bitch, but when you and I actually got together my fears died down. I hoped that I would never be alone again, then she showed up and those fears surfaced again"
"Faye I..."
"No let me finish. Spike those months that I was on Mars I realized something....I realized that I could make it on my own if I wanted to"
he stiffened and she noticed "but I also learned that although I could be independent and rely on my own worth I didn't want to be alone I didn't want to be away from you"
She took a breath and put her hand on top of his hand that was on her stomach "because of our son I'm willing to make this work I'm willing to forget for his sake, but right now I can't be near you I can't forget this...now that I see you I imagine you and her in bed..I can't get it out of my head and that hurts"
"Faye please I know this is hurting you, but I" she turned around and slapped him his head jerked to the right and then she brought her hand to her chest
"It hurts more than what you can ever imagine and even if I'm willing to work on this I will not let you hurt me again" she slapped him again and this time his head turned the other way.
He did not move nor did he try to stop her. She was angry and had every right to be angry. He watched her walk towards the counter top and take some plates.
She began to smash the plates on the floor and then cups that's when he realized that those had been the same plates and cups that they had used just an hour ago.
"I hate her I hate that bitch and I can't believe I let her in my house I let her get close to me to us and she was in our room oh god our room...that bitch played me for a fool but I will get to her I will make her pay" she let the tears run down her cheek
"And I'll make you pay Spike I will make you pay somehow" he froze there listening to her words...what on Gods name was she going to do to him. Then his eyes widened as she touched her stomach and she reached for something on the counter then he saw it
"Faye you wouldn't?" she looked into his eyes and smiled
"Wouldn't what Spike?" he shakily walked up to her and she grabbed a knife on the counter "are you afraid of what I can do?" he almost lost his balance. This was too much
"faye what are you going to do?" she smirked and he felt his heart beat too fast "Faye" but before he could do anything she ran out of the kitchen and he had to blink a few times to realize what was going on "oh shit Faye!!!" he then ran after her.
When he got to the livingroom not only did he stopped abruptly but his eyes almost bugged out. He saw Faye hacking away at the sofa with the knife in her hands "Faye?"
She didn't look at him "that bitch sat here I hate her I can't believe I let her in this house who knows what she is planning" she kept hacking at the couch and feathers flew around the room.
She then went to the cushions and ripped them "but I swear that she will pay" she dropped the knife and looked up at him with a sweet smile.
He gulped suddenly finding his throat dry and he began to sweat. She walked slowly towards him and he almost and I mean almost moved back.
He felt like a game like a prey she wanted to get her hands on "Spike" she said softly and he closed his eyes awaiting some kind of blow or something.
He opened his eyes went he felt her hand on his forearm and he looked down at her "yes" he didn't know what else to say
She smiled brightly and took his hand in hers "lets go get new furniture this one is ruined"
Shit I thought she was going to kill me or something. What the hell is going on?
In any case he let out a sigh and she giggled "you thought I was going to do something crazy right?" he nodded "not now I think it would be easy to do something when you are asleep" and with that said she walked up the stairs and he never took his eyes off of her.
Fuck I'm doomed....she wouldn't hurt me while I sleep, would she? Of course she would this is faye we are talking about, I might wake up to find I have no hair or something.
Julia sat on a chair by the window of her small apartment. She held a picture in her hands and smiled sadly.
She looked outside at the darkening sky "Spike why couldn't you give me what you are giving her? Why?" and a tear ran down her cheek.
She looked back at the picture and traced it "my little girl your daddy will never know you will he?"
She stood up and walked over to her dresser "I need to tell Spike and I need to get him back so that we can be a family, once I have him then we both will go back to Mars and get you Sakura will get you back" she threw herself on the bed and wept.
Faye and Spike had gone to at least five different stores and he was getting tired.
He hated shopping and she knew it so this was probably one of her punishments "Spike lets get that one" she pointed to a sofa on display by a large glass window and he bugged out.
That Sofa was a lot more expensive than three put together. He grunted and she glared at him "well"
"Yes Sweetheart" he said through clenched teeth
god shoot me now my woman has gone crazy
A/N hey there everyone....it's been long right? Before you kill me I have something to say...on Saturday October 30 at around 8:30 Pm the most important woman in my life my dear Grandmother passed away and I have been so depressed lately. I just wanted to write this because it was like a healing process for me. I hope my writing didn't suffer from this and that I have given you a good chapter..I know it's short but cut me some slack...oh did you like the surprise Julia moment? What's going to happen next? Ooh I can't imagine what. Later and thank you all. Angee