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CHAPTER FIVE: Numb
Ichigo's POV:
Betrayal. It happens to everyone sooner or later. It happened to me a few years ago when I agreed with you (Masaya) that you would teach me Kendo. You said it would be very hard and that not many girls had succeeded in pulling it off. But I wasn't an ordinary girl. I was a Mew Mew. My friends were all for it.
I'm tired of being what you want me to be,
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface.
Crushed dreams. That's happened to me too. It happened when my Kendo practices weren't going so well and you blew up on me. You said I was worthless and stupid and no one would want to be with me. But I believed you like that fool I was.
Lost hope. I have that. I got it when you killed Minto. Right in front of me. You pulled up a gun and just shot her right there. You said it was for my own good and that she was going to hurt me if you didn't stop her. I was in too deep with your darkness that I believed you. Then you murdered Zakuro too. With the same gun. Once again you told me that it was for my own good. I took it in, but didn't believe.
Don't know what you're expecting of me,
Put under the pressure,
Of walking in your shoes.
I was a slave, lost in your power. I would do anything you told me to.
Finally, you pulled the final trigger when the Café exploded right after my shift, with everyone in it. All you did was laugh. I still remember that laugh, Master. Do you? It was cold and ruthless. I told you that I wanted all my friends back and that you were a stealer of lives. I told you to give them back. You blew me off and said, "They'll come back when I'm dead. I promise." Then you laughed again.
Every step I take is another mistake to you!
I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becoming less
And all I want to do:
Is be more like me
And be less like you!
Well, I'LL have the last laugh now.
Are you sleeping well Master? I hope you are. I approach you ever so quietly, like a cat, stalking the midnight bugs, getting ready to pounce on her prey. Her target: Master.
What wrong, Master? I see you squirm in your bed like a little inch worm. Your eyes clench closed and you start saying, "No! No! No, you can't do that! Stop!"
Are you laughing, Master? I am. But, since you're the one having the dream, I wouldn't expect you to laugh.
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
You're holding too tightly, afraid to lose control.
And everything
That you thought I would be,
Is falling apart,
Right in front of you!
I used to have nightmares like that all the time. I would wake up, scared to death. Then I would turn to you and try to find comfort in you. The same comfort that I fell for all those years ago.
You would just laugh and call me weak. You'd call me pathetic for not taking those dreams like a real Mew Mew would. You also failed to mention I was the only one left with any Red Data in her left.
That act you used to have to trick my friends to liking you won't work anymore. I know better now. And I'll do anything to get my friends back.
Every step that I take
Is another mistake to you
And every second I waste
Is more than I can take!
I actually enjoy watching you toss and turn in your bed, scared to death of a figment of your imagination. But when you wake up, that fear shall return. For this isn't a dream.
Sometimes I wonder how you sleep at night. After all the things you used to do to me and my previous friends. Maybe you force yourself asleep. Well, no more of that. I'll help you get plenty of sleep.
I pull out a gun. This is going to be my most courageous act EVER.
I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becoming less
And all I want to do:
Is be more like me
And be less like you!
You suddenly sit upright and your eyes shoot open. Being that cat I am.... I hide in the shadows, so the only way you can see me is to look straight at me. Now, I'm no coward, like you've told me all those years, but you've also told me that the element of surprise beats all like a long-shot. You're breathing steadies and you finally look at me. That fear I've been waiting for for so long has returned.
"Aibou, what's this about?" You asked. That's strange, since when have we been partners?
I don't say anything. It makes the tactic seem for fearful.
"Ichigo, put that gun down." You tell me. You reach out your hand like you expect me to give it to you. I hiss and growl at you like a cat. You hide in the corner of your bed.
Did you know that this is the same gun that killed Minto and Zakuro? Their blood it still stained on it. But it will soon be washed off once I kill you for all.
And I know,
I may end up,
Failing too.....
But I know,
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you!
What's wrong now Master? Must I do everything for you? I've done things for you for YEARS and you always told me that time was of the essence and you called me a time-waster. I'm tired of that. You'll regret messing with THIS Iriomote Cat.
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming less
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you!
"You told me my friends would come back once you died. Well, why don't we give that a try?" I said.
"Ichigo—"
BANG!
Aw, what's wrong now, Master? Did I shoot you? I bet it hurts.
You're still alive, Master? Oh, you're just asking "Why?"
You honestly don't know why!? Something must be wrong with you. How could you not know that I would do this to you when you CLEARLY had it coming?
"Why?" You ask one more time. You lay your head down and died right there.
I just love that fear in your eyes, Master. Do you know how long I've wanted to se that? Pretty long....
So as betrayal started my story, so it ends yours. I remembered once you were lecturing me about selfishness and how I shouldn't use that. You used to call me selfish all the time.
But I think about the fact that once I get rid of you, my friends will all come back, so I'm doing this for the benefit of everyone.
Now, that doesn't sound selfish, does it?
END!
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