Choices
Choice thirty six: Lily
Dark times are on us, its no secret. Hard times have hit us and I have to admit that while I was in Hogwarts I was sheltered from the bad in this world. Voldemort is growing more powerful with each passing day and his followers are increasing.
I remember a conversation I had with Sevie only a few days ago. I asked him about Voldemort and he flinched and yelled at me not to call him that. His reaction really surprised me it was like he was hiding something I just don't know what. He won't talk about it with me.
So I turned to James and asked him and unsurprisingly he wasn't happy but he did tell me what he knew. As a trainee Auror he seems more aware than some would think. There have been a number of attacks by Death Eaters, Voldemort's followers. Now isn't a safe time.
What really scares me is the fact that these are the people responsible for Sapphire's death; they killed Scarlett's sister and mother. But almost worse is the fact that they seem to be targeting muggleborn and half blood witches and wizards. This really scares me because of my background.
According to Sirius there are a number of dark families involved in Voldemort's plans and he states that the Blacks are all part of it. This has left me wondering if Sevie is part of it, I can't get it around my head maybe he is one of those Death Eaters. He tells me not to be stupid why would he want to kill muglgeborns when he's in love with one, but I'm not sure.
I feel useless as if I'm not doing anything; there are so many people who aren't strong enough to stand up to Voldemort. James has told me to stop being silly that I am helping by becoming a healer but I felt that wasn't good enough.
Yesterday I met with Albus Dumbledore its strange that I don't see him daily anymore, but its nearly Christmas of my first year out of Hogwarts and it was about time I saw him again. He came to the house and sat me and Scarlett down.
He told us everything he could about Voldemort and why he would want to hurt us, I'm a muggleborn so that's a gimme but Scarlett is sympathetic to muggles and so she too is a target not that she needed reminding.
He told us of an organisation that he has set up, he calls it Order of the Phoenix as soon as he said it Scarlett and I both grinned and said Fawkes. The Order is a group of witches and wizards who oppose Voldemort. Some are very powerful such as Dumbledore and some are influential. Apparently some are very low and would seem like people who would follow Voldemort and they are good for spies.
We got given a choice yesterday whether we would like to be part of the Order. It's dangerous I know that and there's every chance we'll be killed before the war is over but I had to join. It wasn't as big a choice as some would think my conscience told me that I had to do something to help and I am. The hardest thing is going to be keeping it a secret from Sevie and James but I won't spill this secret.