Choices

Choice forty six: Lily

I've always been a romantic and when I was little I use to pretend to get married. I always pictured my prince to be tall with dark hair and bright blue eyes. Well two out of three isn't bad. But the proposal well it wasn't how I had pictured it.

I always thought that when someone asked me to marry them it would be so romantic, that we would be on a picnic and he'd swoop me up into his arms and hold me close and whisper in my ear that he loved me and ask me to marry me, slipping the ring gently onto my finger.

But that's not how it happened, although I suppose it started off romantic with James making a lovely meal and we were alone which is something that doesn't happen often in his place with the four boys living together.

But then Voldemort attacked and I went into work, cleaning up all those that he had hurt. It's a hard job but Sirius makes it fun, with his constant flirting and all, I swear half the healers must think there's something going on between the pair of us the amount of time we spend messing around and play flirting.

Then Scarlett came in with her arm badly damaged and I mended it as quickly as possible. She told me that Remus and James had been brought in and I rushed to find them, only to find Remus in stitches on a bed laughing with tears in his eyes as Sirius preformed his stuff on James in the style he usually reserves for the scared children.

Then I had the surprise of my life, while watching Sirius messing around James pulled out a ring and screamed as loud as he could 'Lily Evans will you marry me' everyone turned to look at us. I wish I could say that I just blurted out yes but I didn't, it wasn't an easy choice.

My mind went straight to Sevie and to what he would think if he could see this now. I felt guilty because part of me still loved him and then I felt guilty for thinking about him when James asked me to marry him.

Then my mind flipped to my parents, they had always seemed so solid to me that was until my mum ran off and left us when I was twelve. I didn't know but she'd been having an affair for six years. If my parents marriage couldn't work how could mine.

Then I thought of James' parents how they loved each other so much and how they had survived all this time together. How James is so loving and caring, and that when I'm with him I feel like a much better person, as if nothing bad can happen to me.

Bad things are happening and it's dangerous at the moment but when I'm with James I feel safe as if the outside world can't harm me, it just feels right us being together. So as I looked up into his eyes I knew my answer although I could see the doubt in his.

I smiled and nodded and that was it, I was on the way to becoming Lily Potter, my past was behind me all the things I had done was as Lily Evans, but Lily Potter would be perfect, she won't hurt the people she loves. I'm so happy that I'm going to marry James and I know this is a choice I'll never regret.