Choices

Choice forty seven: Lily

Our wedding wasn't that big, it was a small wedding with our closet friends and family. We didn't want it to be big we wanted it to be something personal to us, we didn't see the point of having so many people there when we just wanted those that were important to us.

We got married in September three years since we left Hogwarts, ten years since James and I had first met. It was a simple wedding like I had always planned. Although I had no real family there, Petunia refused to have anything to do with it and her husband of two years Vernon didn't want to either.

But it was perfect anyway Scarlett's dad gave me away which was appropriate since he had become like a father to me, making sure that in the wizarding world I could survive. Scarlett was my only bridesmaid, my maid of honour and that as what I wanted, although I knew that if things had been different Sapphire and Becky would have been there too.

Remus and Peter were ushers and Sirius of course best man. Our guests were not many, a few of the girls that I work with, James' co-workers, then we had Albus and Minerva along with members of the Order that we had grown close to.

It was a great day and by the end of it I couldn't stop smiling Lily Evans with all her mistakes was gone forever and now Lily Potter existed and I was determined not to mess anything up now that I was married.

However something unexpected happened in the November, I discovered that I'm pregnant. I know that I'm very early in my pregnancy and I've worked it out myself that I'm not due until July. I'm so excited but nervous about telling James because we've only been married two months and things are about to change big time.

But I couldn't tell James first, I was too nervous, so November passed without me saying anything and December entered. I still hadn't said anything to him but it was becoming clear that something was up. But I still couldn't say anything, then in training on the 17th December something happened that changed everything.

Sirius and I were teamed up like normal we only have two days of lessons a week now and spend three working with others in the hospital itself. So on this day we had to practice dealing with pregnancy and the scares that can occur. First thing we had to do though was make a potion for the detection of a foetus.

So we made it but then the healer said one of the pair would have to take it, well since I was with Sirius he couldn't so I downed the potion. I didn't know what to expect around me the women's stomachs were glowing white and then I started glowing yellow.

Sirius barked a laugh and looked around, and he patted me on the back saying we'd get it right next time, but Wright was staring at me, she would she was a healer and knew what that meant, Sirius watched me for a bit and then grinned. He looked at my stomach and rubbed it and screamed, baby is a coming. Then did this little funny jig.

I didn't know what to make of this but I knew that now Sirius had found out I would have to tell James, but I was still nervous. So I made Sirius promised not to say anything and I left. I didn't know where to go but I ended up in the muggle world, at my sister's house.

I knocked on the door knowing that it wasn't too late for visitors and Vernon answered the door. He gave me a look and went to shut the door but I stuck my foot in the door so that he couldn't close it.

He wasn't at all happy but I got in and headed straight for the living room looking for Petunia, when I found her I felt my mouth drop, she didn't look like her normal self what with a large bump where her stomach use to be flat.

She was pregnant she volunteered that information and that was all. I finally managed to get her to tell me that she was due in May but she wouldn't say anymore. I sat down watching Vernon looking at me funnily and then I started crying and Petunia for the first time in years acted like my sister.

She moved over and wrapped her arms around me and let me cry, from among the tears I managed to tell her that I was pregnant and that I was scared, I couldn't do this, not me, I'm not the kind of person that can handle a child.

She told me what she remembered of my birth, she had been five at the time and that helped a little then she told me that I should just tell James and he wouldn't be as bad as I thought. I thanked her knowing that she wasn't as comfortable around me as she had once been that my ability had driven as apart, but part of me was thrilled to have her give me advice, to know that she was going through the same things as me.

After speaking to her I know that I don't really have a choice in this matter, I'm having James' child and he needs to know, if I hold off any longer he'll be really upset and I don't want to fall back on the habits of Lily Evans, I'm Lily Potter now and I'm going to do things right.