Choices

Choice forty eight: James

Family is the most important thing in a mans life and I'm the luckiest person in the world. I have family around me, although I have lost. My mother came down with something quite serious and she died at the start of December, I'm just glad that she was around for my wedding.

But my family is still large and going strong with Lily, Sirius, Remus and Pete surrounding me along with dad, but what's got me even happier is the fact that I'm going to be a father. I'm just so happy!

I know things aren't as straight forward as they could have been, like the fact that Lily knew for at least a month before she told me. That disappointed me that she didn't tell me straight away but I suppose it's a big deal and she needed time to get her head around it.

When Lily told me I knew something was up she sat on the sofa and pulled her legs up to her chest wrapping her arms around herself and just stared into space, I thought that something bad must have happened she was just staring into the fire. Then she simple said, 'I'm pregnant'.

I was surprised I won't pretend that I wasn't but I couldn't help the smile that had spread over my face it was the best news I'd ever had. I could tell she was worried because she was paler than normal, but I wrapped my arms around her and that was it we were having a baby.

I didn't know how the rest of the family would take it and I felt nervous and suddenly I knew how Lily must have felt. We didn't have much time to wait though since Sirius turned up like an hour after I'd found out. He appeared in the kitchen when I went to get a butterbeer he was already in our fridge.

He stood up grinned and just said 'alright daddy, got anymore ham?' and I yelled for Lily she hadn't told me that Sirius had known and I thought she had told him, that was quickly sorted and I realised how lucky I was.

I chose to tell dad next and he took it happily and then we told Scarlett, Remus and Pete, I'd always known that I'd been lucky. It wasn't long though before reality hit us and that danger was close behind us. Three times we were nearly killed by Voldemort, but at the end of it we escaped and I still have my family, I'm very lucky.

I know that we didn't chose to have a baby yet it was a surprise but during these dark times we need all the happiness we can get and this is one of those occasions, we can't stop living because darkness surrounds us and I'm going to make sure my child will be happy and never have to fear the dark cloud that is surrounding us.